LOL WELL i've been online for like two hours might wanna make a little update seeing as WE'RE HERE
yep. i'm a city boy now. we're in Charlotte, the Queen City. yesterday was exhausting but worth it and today was spent trying to put things back together a little bit. i'm only like 20% unpacked at the moment, there's so much that i... just can't GET to yet and also so much that i have no idea where i could put it. we gotta do rearranging in the rest of the apartment if they do mean what they say about us having some furniture out there. [which would be good cuz like there's literally no more space for anything here without it looking mega cluttered :V]
but yes. yep. i went about 36 hours without sleeping after being too exhausted to even exist properly all day, and was tripping balls at 3 am basically, watched this movie called Fetching Cody in an attempt to weird out Hiccup [protagonist was played by jay baruchel :v] but mostly it just weirded ME out because the main character was so.... like a weird mash-up of Poe and Hiccup together. it was a pretty good movie tbh. i'd watch it again. it really struck me tbh.
was wanting Poe around a lot last night. when i was just sitting up in bed watching the cars outside, mesmerized, exhausted but wide awake and wanting someone to talk to, about the lights and cars and darkness and the fog. thought to myself how can i miss someone so much that i've never even been in the physical presence of. but that's silly, how bad would i miss Hiccup if he vanished somehow? perish the thought.
i need to let go of the idea that there's this... divide between outside relationships and ones inside. more on that subject that i may talk about in a less public entry :v
the animals are adjusting accordingly. Murphy is having the hardest time, poor guy. he's barely eaten or drank and hasn't used the litterbox yet. i'm keeping a close eye on him to make sure he won't pee anywhere untoward. he's hiding under the bed less and less, though, started coming out on his own this afternoon and asking for attention. :> on the other hand, Arty was totally chill within 5 minutes of being let out, singing and flirting happily. it was like as long as i was there with him, he felt safe. my feels. ;v;
speaking of feels. Bird went camping last night so on my first night out here i couldn't talk to her/her System and it was sad. but i did my best to let go of clingy feelings and worries, and told myself they were having a ball. then like 11:30 am i get a text, Bird saying, "coming back to your texts is like coming home in a way." and just. my heart. and tonight she's at work really late and it sucks and i want to skype with her but she might be too tired and stuff, but the thing that strikes me again is how much she seems to really WANT to be texting me. like she's not just replying to things i send. she's bummed out when she can't text for a while.
and i'm. just. feels. people sneaking around to text ME at work. i think i tell myself subconsciously at every turn that i'm a desperate loser, too invested, way more into my relationships with people than the other parties are. always telling myself i'm being annoying or that i go off on tangents too much.
i need to relax. this is relaxing. having a best friend is so nice and i realized how long it's been since i've had a human connection like this that wasn't inherently romantic in nature. [inherently. :PP] just... someone that i care about, saying that hearing from ME is like coming home. i can't even process what that means to me. <3 <3 <3
btw it's been a BEAUTIFUL GORGEOUS 70 DEGREE DAY HOLY SHIT. hiccup was ecstatic at the high winds. climbing the stairwell to get as high as he could and feel the wind in his hair and hands.
today went to Save Point for the first time while being ~LOCAL~ omg. it's 20 minutes away as long as traffic isn't bad. i can't believe that. went up and just up and bought a gamecube to GBA connector cable, and a replacement cover door for the wii that i broke off when my stupid ass tugged it off the table while playing wind waker a couple weeks ago. seven bucks. simple as that.
but then i made the mistake of going next door and looking around Infinity's End and this guy who was walking around and kept making comments in my direction about whatever he was looking at, always happened to be brushing past me and 'accidentally' touching my ass or boobs. and he did it just once or twice too often and i started feeling like he was doing this shit on purpose, and started becoming Angry Dragon [actually my first response was FEAR and also dysphoria but then angry dragon] but then, just at that moment, the guy behind the counter struck up a conversation with a customer about marching band. and i wasn't even involved but immediately my mind was calmed. and i walked to the other side of the store and the creepy dude vanished. i still don't know for sure that he was doing that on purpose but my mind was just like WELLP HERE IT IS MY FIRST EXPERIENCE WITH CITY LIFE: CREEPERS. i need to start trying harder to pass as male srsly. -_-
ALSO THE FIRST THING I DREW IN THE NEW APARTMENT IS TRASH ART OF BIRD AND POE AND I REGRET ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. it's so cute they're so cute ugh god. i live for hearing sweet things about them. EVEN SLIGHTLY SAUCY THINGS LOL STILL ADORABLE. my otp. my otp is canon as in like, irl and not fictional. hell yeah. i love this WEIRD HEADMATE RELATIONSHIP SAGA OF EARLY 2015. long may it reign.
god i can't wait to get my chair back, first i was sitting on an end table and then they gave me a little folding chair, which is better but still p uncomfortable. i want my bird-shat chair back LOL. my back is acting up [thanks for waiting until i'm done with the heavy lifting holy shit!] and i think that will at least kinda help. gonna have to make one last harrowing trip all the way back down to the old house to pick up a last few things that won't fit in bb's car, tomorrow before work. it's cool with me as long as it's cool with my car lol :|
SO I GUESS THIS IS THE LAST ENTRY OF MY MOVING DAY TAG FOR NOW. heck ye. maybe i'll start ones like 'apartment life' or 'city life' who knows????
yep. i'm a city boy now. we're in Charlotte, the Queen City. yesterday was exhausting but worth it and today was spent trying to put things back together a little bit. i'm only like 20% unpacked at the moment, there's so much that i... just can't GET to yet and also so much that i have no idea where i could put it. we gotta do rearranging in the rest of the apartment if they do mean what they say about us having some furniture out there. [which would be good cuz like there's literally no more space for anything here without it looking mega cluttered :V]
but yes. yep. i went about 36 hours without sleeping after being too exhausted to even exist properly all day, and was tripping balls at 3 am basically, watched this movie called Fetching Cody in an attempt to weird out Hiccup [protagonist was played by jay baruchel :v] but mostly it just weirded ME out because the main character was so.... like a weird mash-up of Poe and Hiccup together. it was a pretty good movie tbh. i'd watch it again. it really struck me tbh.
was wanting Poe around a lot last night. when i was just sitting up in bed watching the cars outside, mesmerized, exhausted but wide awake and wanting someone to talk to, about the lights and cars and darkness and the fog. thought to myself how can i miss someone so much that i've never even been in the physical presence of. but that's silly, how bad would i miss Hiccup if he vanished somehow? perish the thought.
i need to let go of the idea that there's this... divide between outside relationships and ones inside. more on that subject that i may talk about in a less public entry :v
the animals are adjusting accordingly. Murphy is having the hardest time, poor guy. he's barely eaten or drank and hasn't used the litterbox yet. i'm keeping a close eye on him to make sure he won't pee anywhere untoward. he's hiding under the bed less and less, though, started coming out on his own this afternoon and asking for attention. :> on the other hand, Arty was totally chill within 5 minutes of being let out, singing and flirting happily. it was like as long as i was there with him, he felt safe. my feels. ;v;
speaking of feels. Bird went camping last night so on my first night out here i couldn't talk to her/her System and it was sad. but i did my best to let go of clingy feelings and worries, and told myself they were having a ball. then like 11:30 am i get a text, Bird saying, "coming back to your texts is like coming home in a way." and just. my heart. and tonight she's at work really late and it sucks and i want to skype with her but she might be too tired and stuff, but the thing that strikes me again is how much she seems to really WANT to be texting me. like she's not just replying to things i send. she's bummed out when she can't text for a while.
and i'm. just. feels. people sneaking around to text ME at work. i think i tell myself subconsciously at every turn that i'm a desperate loser, too invested, way more into my relationships with people than the other parties are. always telling myself i'm being annoying or that i go off on tangents too much.
i need to relax. this is relaxing. having a best friend is so nice and i realized how long it's been since i've had a human connection like this that wasn't inherently romantic in nature. [inherently. :PP] just... someone that i care about, saying that hearing from ME is like coming home. i can't even process what that means to me. <3 <3 <3
btw it's been a BEAUTIFUL GORGEOUS 70 DEGREE DAY HOLY SHIT. hiccup was ecstatic at the high winds. climbing the stairwell to get as high as he could and feel the wind in his hair and hands.
today went to Save Point for the first time while being ~LOCAL~ omg. it's 20 minutes away as long as traffic isn't bad. i can't believe that. went up and just up and bought a gamecube to GBA connector cable, and a replacement cover door for the wii that i broke off when my stupid ass tugged it off the table while playing wind waker a couple weeks ago. seven bucks. simple as that.
but then i made the mistake of going next door and looking around Infinity's End and this guy who was walking around and kept making comments in my direction about whatever he was looking at, always happened to be brushing past me and 'accidentally' touching my ass or boobs. and he did it just once or twice too often and i started feeling like he was doing this shit on purpose, and started becoming Angry Dragon [actually my first response was FEAR and also dysphoria but then angry dragon] but then, just at that moment, the guy behind the counter struck up a conversation with a customer about marching band. and i wasn't even involved but immediately my mind was calmed. and i walked to the other side of the store and the creepy dude vanished. i still don't know for sure that he was doing that on purpose but my mind was just like WELLP HERE IT IS MY FIRST EXPERIENCE WITH CITY LIFE: CREEPERS. i need to start trying harder to pass as male srsly. -_-
ALSO THE FIRST THING I DREW IN THE NEW APARTMENT IS TRASH ART OF BIRD AND POE AND I REGRET ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. it's so cute they're so cute ugh god. i live for hearing sweet things about them. EVEN SLIGHTLY SAUCY THINGS LOL STILL ADORABLE. my otp. my otp is canon as in like, irl and not fictional. hell yeah. i love this WEIRD HEADMATE RELATIONSHIP SAGA OF EARLY 2015. long may it reign.
god i can't wait to get my chair back, first i was sitting on an end table and then they gave me a little folding chair, which is better but still p uncomfortable. i want my bird-shat chair back LOL. my back is acting up [thanks for waiting until i'm done with the heavy lifting holy shit!] and i think that will at least kinda help. gonna have to make one last harrowing trip all the way back down to the old house to pick up a last few things that won't fit in bb's car, tomorrow before work. it's cool with me as long as it's cool with my car lol :|
SO I GUESS THIS IS THE LAST ENTRY OF MY MOVING DAY TAG FOR NOW. heck ye. maybe i'll start ones like 'apartment life' or 'city life' who knows????