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thebrokenarrowswanted to make a proper update about today but still dunno what to write UH
OUTSIDE: just regular work stuff. bleh. moving day countdown is 4 days. realizing that i very well may not get all the stuff done that needs doing SIGH. but on the plus side my manager volunteered to drive her truck to carry some of our stuff to town omg. so that we don't need to rent a u-haul. man i appreciate that so much. she really is the best. only problem is that she will want to do this VERY EARLY in the day lol. like just an hour or two after i get off work. so i'll be staying up very very late that day. and that... should be ok i think lol. i think. monday nights are always slow soooo. so. yeah. hoping for good things and easy transition.
but yeah i'm realizing that we're going to be transitioning to a totally new way of life here shortly. gonna do our laundry in the washer and dryer in the house, crappy though they may be - who knows how long before we wash our clothes for totally free again??? who knows when i will be able to just walk out the front door and pick up the mail??? i have no idea how this apartment life works. and now i get to go on a really... really big adventure. i'm a little nervous. but only a little. mostly just nervous about how rocky and unsettled things will feel for a few days, but i did it at the beginning of this month, i can do it once more.
oh also in not self-centric news, Leonard Nimoy died today and my heart is broken and i don't even want to talk about it. this is equal to or harder than Robin Williams' death for me in terms of personal importance.
INSIDE: trash continues as usual :v doing lots of drawing and depicting of things. late last night realized that i had been SO wrong about the nature of fronting itself and what it entails, it really threw me. realized that Hiccup and i had been fronting while away from the Order building. when we thought you had to be inside there to front. whereas we two were doing fronting stuff while just... out in a field or on a hill or flying, even. and that is why it's mostly just been us two and others have been somewhat hard to reach compared to usual where they would come in and out. because I'VE FUCKING ELOPED I GUESS LOL. in a manner of speaking not literally jesus christ. i've run off with Hiccup basically and been acting as a two-man fronting team while running around in the wilderness together. but that in itself is RIDICULOUS in terms of development because once i couldn't even leave the Order, and that's why i thought fronting was limited to that building, because I wasn't able to leave the Order and also front and i couldn't leave the front entirely. i still can't do that, but at least this is happening. seriously. changes are COMING IN QUICK SUCCESSION.
but yeah what with the move coming up lots of holding of hands and silly shit happening inside to reassure me. lkjsaldkjsf YA KNOW. and actually i'm going to be doing some meditating to try and focus on headspace entirely when i get done with this entry. so. yes.
OUTSIDE: just regular work stuff. bleh. moving day countdown is 4 days. realizing that i very well may not get all the stuff done that needs doing SIGH. but on the plus side my manager volunteered to drive her truck to carry some of our stuff to town omg. so that we don't need to rent a u-haul. man i appreciate that so much. she really is the best. only problem is that she will want to do this VERY EARLY in the day lol. like just an hour or two after i get off work. so i'll be staying up very very late that day. and that... should be ok i think lol. i think. monday nights are always slow soooo. so. yeah. hoping for good things and easy transition.
but yeah i'm realizing that we're going to be transitioning to a totally new way of life here shortly. gonna do our laundry in the washer and dryer in the house, crappy though they may be - who knows how long before we wash our clothes for totally free again??? who knows when i will be able to just walk out the front door and pick up the mail??? i have no idea how this apartment life works. and now i get to go on a really... really big adventure. i'm a little nervous. but only a little. mostly just nervous about how rocky and unsettled things will feel for a few days, but i did it at the beginning of this month, i can do it once more.
oh also in not self-centric news, Leonard Nimoy died today and my heart is broken and i don't even want to talk about it. this is equal to or harder than Robin Williams' death for me in terms of personal importance.
INSIDE: trash continues as usual :v doing lots of drawing and depicting of things. late last night realized that i had been SO wrong about the nature of fronting itself and what it entails, it really threw me. realized that Hiccup and i had been fronting while away from the Order building. when we thought you had to be inside there to front. whereas we two were doing fronting stuff while just... out in a field or on a hill or flying, even. and that is why it's mostly just been us two and others have been somewhat hard to reach compared to usual where they would come in and out. because I'VE FUCKING ELOPED I GUESS LOL. in a manner of speaking not literally jesus christ. i've run off with Hiccup basically and been acting as a two-man fronting team while running around in the wilderness together. but that in itself is RIDICULOUS in terms of development because once i couldn't even leave the Order, and that's why i thought fronting was limited to that building, because I wasn't able to leave the Order and also front and i couldn't leave the front entirely. i still can't do that, but at least this is happening. seriously. changes are COMING IN QUICK SUCCESSION.
but yeah what with the move coming up lots of holding of hands and silly shit happening inside to reassure me. lkjsaldkjsf YA KNOW. and actually i'm going to be doing some meditating to try and focus on headspace entirely when i get done with this entry. so. yes.
