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POKEMON BABBLING~
Dec. 17th, 2016 11:13 pmalright!! the hormonal depression that squashed the hell out of me last week has lifted, i feel like the weight of the world is off my shoulders. and i am having so much fun playing pokemon today!! and this is all postgame Moon stuff btw! time to babble about it all while waiting for my ramen to cool!
- Working on a postgame checklist. I've never, ever gone on and continued far into the postgame after becoming champion. I've rarely even become champion! So! This is all uncharted territory for me, new game or not. It's awesome. I really want to fill my dex as much as I possibly can, at least the alola dex! I'm about halfway there now!
- today I worked on a few things: started raising the friendship of a Meowth that I caught for the purpose. i already had a Meowth but I didn't realize they didn't evolve at level 28, so when Raksha [that's Sanskrit for demon, btw] didn't evolve i was like 'wat' and then come to find out I was about to learn how to raise that ever-obtuse happiness stat in Alola, hahaha. So we're working on it now. I'm kind of falling in love with her, whoops. She's really fun to battle with esp since teaching her Thunderbolt.
- Also worked on catching all seven colors of Minior! and all things considered it worked out extremely spectacularly! I got them all done in just a few hours. I hadn't even seen a Minior this morning on my game, lol. once I switched out Raksha for my golduck, Kappa [more on that particular pokemon in a second], who has Damp so the damn things can't explode, my life got a whole lot simpler. they also have a pretty high catch rate, so it's all good there. [i also found a Beldum while out there on Mount Hokulani, and holy shit their catch rate is absurdly low, i almost didn't manage to catch it!] i was very lucky about finding the colors quickly, thank goodness for that, I don't have the best patience for such things. i started getting one after another and before I knew it i had all seven. and FOUR of the seven were crit captures, what the hell, even. three of them in a row! I guess I was just meant to have the rainbow of Minior. all thanks to Kappa, of course.
- so more on Kappa: once i taught her Psychic she became a quick and efficient Minior catching machine. she's level 41 right now, and the Minior are about ten levels lower, but one Psychic apiece was enough to get them down to right about 40% health, still safe from fainting but enough to see their colored core! so in a single turn they're usually ready to be caught. i didn't struggle with catching any of them. so i totally petted and spoiled this previously random boxed pokemon haha. she's great and i'm proud of her. i'm honestly falling for any pokemon that i give even the slightest bit of attention and time to. that's how this game works man. it has immense power over me <3
- Kappa, you might notice, has the same name as a Golduck you receive as a trade in one of the very early pokemon games. that's because she is one of the few species of pokemon that, whenever I catch my first one, has a set name that I must give them in every game haha. Kappa is one, long before I knew what a Kappa was, i just really liked the name. [i'd probably be the same way about Dux, but Farfetch'd is much more rare so I haven't established a tradition haha] other pokemon with this honor are Raichu - the first Pikachu i catch gets named "Pooka!" with an exclamation point and evolved to Raichu. This is in honor of a Raichu that my mother trained once long looong ago, that really impressed me. i really loved Raichu as a kid, it was one of my favorites, and I still love it. [much prefer the Kantonian Raichu tho] i seem to recall that there were multiple "Pooka!"s, either on games that we rented for a limited amount of time through blockbuster, or later, when there was no choice but to erase your pokemon with your save file and start over when you wanted to play the game again. i'm sure my mother has absolutely no memory of Pooka!, but i still name mine that every single time. in fact i think i will have to rename the Pichu i got, i don't think i was thinking clearly [pichu != Pikachu] and named it something else, but if I want to get that Aloraichunium Z or whatever that crazy name is, the last z crystal i can get right now, i must train that little one up!
- OH AND who could forget naming bird pokemon "Sor" because of my friend Stori when we were tiny children naming her Pidgey the word "Soar" but misspelled, so now we tend to name normal-type bird pokemon Sor all the time, esp Pidgey or Fearow.
- honorable mentions for names like that include... a pokemon with a particular name that left a mark on me such that later on, the first one I catch, I'll name as a sort of riff off the original, not an exact copy. this is usually because I still have the original pokemon. for example, Elie the Skarmory, who is notable for living in my pokewalker and traveling all over the physical world with me FOR LIKE THREE YEARS!!!, lol. she's from my soul silver version and currently living on my Y cartridge! i named my first Skarmory in Moon "Ellimere" in her honor. and Phoenix, the legendary Archeops who won my heart and was the key to me beating the first pokemon game i ever actually became champion on and saw the credits of, White version! [btw Alola has the best storyline since Unova! I'm not sure which I like better]. i got the plume fossil in Moon [OF COURSE] and named the little baby Fenghuang. he was a male, the original Phoenix was a rare female, so he's not quite as cool, but he gets the chinese name for phoenix. i can't name him the japanese name for phoenix because that's just "Ho-oh" LOL!
other things:
- i started my Sun version but haven't gotten far yet. i'm very wrapped up in Moon postgame today! i named my Rowlet something that doesn't seem to suit him, so i have plans to change his name to Nix as soon as i leave the first island in that game. it's all good.
- im going to breed Archen and wonder trade them out to the masses! the ungrateful, Yungoos-trading masses. :V [also STOPTRADINGMEROWLET I HAVE SO MANY ROWLET STOP, GIVE ME LITTEN AND POPPLIO FOR A CHANGE PLZ K THX]
- some other pokemon i'm super looking forward to raising: Aerodactyl [REALLY JUST FOR THE HELL OF IT TBH, i really love Aerodactyl] and Fletchling [I'M OBSESSED WITH THIS LINE AND I FEEL COMPELLED TO CATCH EVERY SINGLE FUCKING FLETCHLING I FIND IN THE WILD, I might have a problem. Or a favorite bird pokemon. Halp]
- I also tend to want to catch every Magnemite I find in the wild now! I never was that into Magnemite line before but Seven totally just won me over and made me fond of them all haha. Thx silly space magnets.
i want to draw my trainer because i changed her look and SHE LOOKS SO CUTE. Arrow, that is. i could draw her riding charizard. but in her regular clothes lolll
ok! i think i've gotten all of that out of my system! i also caught a Dhelmise today after much fishing! YAY. rn it's charging while i eat late dinner of ramen. after this i will perhaps get on that ultra beast quest that i haven't even started yet~ i thought it would be fun for my character to just fuck around the islands for a while before things get ~Srs~ again
Later edit:
To add to my amazingly good day of pokemon playing: MY FIRST RANDOM SHINY OF ALL TIME OMFG?????
It's a Fomantis!! A little female mantis with green and yellow coloration instead of pink omfgggggffgfg
She's perfect and I've named her Daffodil. This is my second shiny ever, my first was a Skrelp that I purposely fished for. This is the first time I've just been randomly pokemon hunting and SUDDENLY, A SHINY. Ever. And I've been playing since before pokemon yellow was even out, not to mention before shiny pokemon even existed. Holy. Shit. :DDD
Y'know what? Today deserves an entry.
Got my Eevee socks on and feeling like an Eevee tonight.
My mental health has sucked dick this week, and honestly for a while now it's been worsening, but today I managed to keep the demons away. Fought em off with new things and variety and craft projects and the things I adore. And never once felt compelled to belittle my hobbies because they're "childish" or w/e like I often do lately.
We went to Target today and picked up some things!!
- an ostrich feather duster, because bb says we need one. hey if it makes the house cleaner. [and if we can keep murphy from eating it]
- some of that wolfthorn deodorant from oldspice pfftt. I'll admit I'm a sucker for their animal series stuff :v and also the thorn name derp
- mod podge!! how did we not own any. and two black posterboards for a project
- some sponges, but not the green and yellow ones because those are a little bit triggery for me. but i didn't even consider that there would be others! so instead we got some cute yellow and pink ones that have little images of forks and spoons and cups on them :'3 how lovely. now we just gotta keep them from being smelly and moldy and i will be pretty much trigger free as long as our dishes don't get rotten [like they were today until bb washed them finally *0*]
- some clothes for me!! we meant to get me swim trunks but ehhh they didn't have any that i liked. [except in kids sizes because of course e_e] so instead i got a pair of shorts that actually fits! and isn't falling apart! and is really nice, just basic grey camo cargo shorts, my go-to for literally over a decade. and they also had a polaroid shirt omg!! i had to buy that one. it's one size bigger than i would have got but they were almost all gone, i'm lucky they had them at all! so i nabbed it and i'm wearing it now. i'll take it off before work but :D
- a scale! finally to weigh myself on. it has lil river pebble textures on it for sensory stuff for me. 83
- motherfuggin EEVEELUTION SOCKS... OMG. i thought they were kid only size and wanted to cry but then bb found adult sizes. omg. it has Eevee, the oldschool trio of 'lutions, and a poke ball and masterball designs, so six pairs total. I LUV FANCY SOX. especially really cute pokemon sox. :333
other than that.... i finished today a puzzle of Termina that I had been working on for a couple of days [e.g. the land of majora's mask, my favorite game of all time]. yesterday i was so depressed and i just kept doing this puzzle to keep from self harming. so thx zelda. today i glued the puzzle together and glued it to the posterboard, and since the posterboard was a little bigger, i wrote with gel pen on the black board some quotes from the game that i've always found personal or inspiring or important. i even highlighted certain phrases like they do in the game by writing in a different color of ink. :3 i'm gonna hang it up in the playroom! along with the pic of Opal that i had drawn for me at free comic book day a while back! [did i talk about that? it wasn't a v good time but i got TONS of comics, both free and not free]
this morning i laid out on the porch in the sunbeam with murphy, who flopped and scooted his little body around and purrrrrredddd super loudly. he was playful and happy and what a blissful kitty. <3 and it was lovely to lay in the sun and feel its radiance beam down on me. i got a little bit of sun at FCBD, and now my freckles are really standing out on my skin this summer already :D
made some dinner! the kitchen is sooo much easier to navigate now that it's just us and everything is ours, and nothing is anyone else's territory to worry about. just smashed up an avocado with some fried eggs and alfalfa sprouts. v good v good. and while i was in there i put away all the dishes that bb washed this morning! not exactly heavy cleaning but i organized everything, and prepared food for myself at work tonight, and overall felt very proud of myself ^w^
tomorrow is the 15th, which means my full-tilt diet is officially over! i did in fact lose weight even though i didn't really give it 100%, and didn't work out all that much. i lost at least ten pounds, most likely more. i weigh 226 now, last i checked was in february or march [before rms moved out and took their scale with them] and i weighed ten more than that. and since i suddenly obtained shitloads of stretch marks since then, i know i have gained more weight than that since then, maybe as much as 245 or 250 lbs at my heaviest, so that means i have almost certainly lost more than ten pounds on the diet. which is fantastic. imagine what i'd do if i actually worked my ass off lol. i successfully went without touching rice, bread, tortillas or any grain product whatsoever [with the exception of crispbread which is the most dry and minimal source of no carbs ever, less than crackers]. i didn't touch ANY heavy carb foods, but i did imbibe a little sugar here and there [e.g. an icee, a donut, a cake pop, a cookie, a sip of bb's Surge the other night] but only roughly once a week did this happen if at all. soon i can have little nibbles of sweet things more often and it's okay :D!!
speaking of sweets! we ordered my cake today. aaaah!!! i've never ordered a cae in my life before i'm so excited! i gave them a card sleeve from pokekyun to scan and print on the cake aaahh it's gonna be so cute. shoulda told them to decorate it with Sylveon ribbons lol!! but maybe that'd be too complicated for this place. [ooh and i bet if i walked to Aggie's on my birthday they'd give me a free ice cream 83 and i would also love going out for birthday sushi... yeeees] i can't wait! it also came out while they were asking what i wanted on it that it was for me HAHA the lady was like "So do you want a specific number on there? Is it for a younger child or...?"
"Uh, sure, put 25th"
"Oh! ... Is this for YOUR birthday?"
HAHA it was pretty cute she grinned a lot at that. Bb was embarrassed for me I guess? but I wasn't embarrassed at all, I'm far beyond being embarrassed by such things as ordering my own birthday cake with Pokemon on it ;3
After the cake order we went to Save Point next door, and bb picked up bioshock infinite [which i will def be playing, that game man] and also an old pokemon gold and silver pokedex manual! which i mostly wanted because it has ALLLL of the old amazing watercolor Sugimori art from back in the day that i want to emulate so bad. heck yes.
oh and when i get my birthday present, which will hopefully be a super nintendo, i wanna temporarily set it up in the living room on the flatscreen tv 83 and play ma games on there. hell yeah.
last thing today, Beth actually saw me posting about rave clothes and stuff that i used to wear and she showed me a link to a HUGE sale on phat pants [these really big huge pocketed, really expensive rave pants] that were like 70% off. so i totally bought myself a pair. because yes. it's been a decade and i still adore those pants even if the bottoms get all messed up from walking in them, they're meant to go to the floor anyway! so YA i'm gonna own those and my wardrobe will be a little more colorful
so yes with the power of shopping i turned a bad week into a lovely Saturday! we'll see how work and stuff goes but today was wonderful and i'm savoring it <3
past:
- the other night i went to Abari, the game bar! they have arcade games [both old and a new one which is a four player coop game? idk], pinball and a little corner with various retro consoles to play, that is if you can ever EVER get a spot on the couch lol! it was pretty great! i had a margarita, bb had a gin and tonic [ew] and a vodka with cranberry [yum!] and... a Surge? lol?? they sell booze and also Surge. i guess it's a gamer drink somehow now :V or maybe just because it's retro lmaooo. i love Surge negl so i had a few tiny TINY sips. i really loved that place ngl! that was the first bar i've EVER EVER been to and actually enjoyed myself, didn't feel scared or claustrophobic, i kinda expected an ass grab or being grossly rubbed on while my hands were busy playing games but nobody bothered me at all except to ask to join a game or something. it was great :D! i'm totally going back there.
- steven universe is back and maaannn it was amazing. thats all pretty much. it was so good and i'm so glad the show is at least back for a few weeks!
- WORK STUFF.... eehhh. part of what hurt my mental health this week so bad was that i got Talked To at work about my performance. and it wasn't only me [which, unlike EVERY other time i've been told this, was actually not a lie but the truth, it was me and one other night worker] but man did it make me hella, HELLA insecure and depressed. i have mixed feelings about tonight but i went from 'fuck, i can't ever make a job happy with me, i'm a lazy piece of shit it's just my nature' to 'no! this is the first job of my actual real career! i have to be determined and actually get better at it and understand everything i need to do!' so... hopefully i can put that thought into action. thats the hard part. there will always, it feels like, be something i've overlooked or left undone and that makes me insecure AS FUCK but... nothing i can do but try.
- finally went ahead and ordered my pokekyun booster box, paid for two day shipping so it would arrive on thursday, specifically because i knew thursday was likely to be a rough day and i wanted to perk myself up. and so it came! and now i own the whole set [plus A MILLION doubles] minus two cards, Gardevoir full art and Flareon full art. both of which i own in english, but no it must be the japanese edition. it is BEAUTIFUL and i don't regret a goddamn thing.
Now I'm gonna go scratch my sunburn, drink my pre-work coffee and get me some several shiny Xerneas. 83
Got my Eevee socks on and feeling like an Eevee tonight.
My mental health has sucked dick this week, and honestly for a while now it's been worsening, but today I managed to keep the demons away. Fought em off with new things and variety and craft projects and the things I adore. And never once felt compelled to belittle my hobbies because they're "childish" or w/e like I often do lately.
We went to Target today and picked up some things!!
- an ostrich feather duster, because bb says we need one. hey if it makes the house cleaner. [and if we can keep murphy from eating it]
- some of that wolfthorn deodorant from oldspice pfftt. I'll admit I'm a sucker for their animal series stuff :v and also the thorn name derp
- mod podge!! how did we not own any. and two black posterboards for a project
- some sponges, but not the green and yellow ones because those are a little bit triggery for me. but i didn't even consider that there would be others! so instead we got some cute yellow and pink ones that have little images of forks and spoons and cups on them :'3 how lovely. now we just gotta keep them from being smelly and moldy and i will be pretty much trigger free as long as our dishes don't get rotten [like they were today until bb washed them finally *0*]
- some clothes for me!! we meant to get me swim trunks but ehhh they didn't have any that i liked. [except in kids sizes because of course e_e] so instead i got a pair of shorts that actually fits! and isn't falling apart! and is really nice, just basic grey camo cargo shorts, my go-to for literally over a decade. and they also had a polaroid shirt omg!! i had to buy that one. it's one size bigger than i would have got but they were almost all gone, i'm lucky they had them at all! so i nabbed it and i'm wearing it now. i'll take it off before work but :D
- a scale! finally to weigh myself on. it has lil river pebble textures on it for sensory stuff for me. 83
- motherfuggin EEVEELUTION SOCKS... OMG. i thought they were kid only size and wanted to cry but then bb found adult sizes. omg. it has Eevee, the oldschool trio of 'lutions, and a poke ball and masterball designs, so six pairs total. I LUV FANCY SOX. especially really cute pokemon sox. :333
other than that.... i finished today a puzzle of Termina that I had been working on for a couple of days [e.g. the land of majora's mask, my favorite game of all time]. yesterday i was so depressed and i just kept doing this puzzle to keep from self harming. so thx zelda. today i glued the puzzle together and glued it to the posterboard, and since the posterboard was a little bigger, i wrote with gel pen on the black board some quotes from the game that i've always found personal or inspiring or important. i even highlighted certain phrases like they do in the game by writing in a different color of ink. :3 i'm gonna hang it up in the playroom! along with the pic of Opal that i had drawn for me at free comic book day a while back! [did i talk about that? it wasn't a v good time but i got TONS of comics, both free and not free]
this morning i laid out on the porch in the sunbeam with murphy, who flopped and scooted his little body around and purrrrrredddd super loudly. he was playful and happy and what a blissful kitty. <3 and it was lovely to lay in the sun and feel its radiance beam down on me. i got a little bit of sun at FCBD, and now my freckles are really standing out on my skin this summer already :D
made some dinner! the kitchen is sooo much easier to navigate now that it's just us and everything is ours, and nothing is anyone else's territory to worry about. just smashed up an avocado with some fried eggs and alfalfa sprouts. v good v good. and while i was in there i put away all the dishes that bb washed this morning! not exactly heavy cleaning but i organized everything, and prepared food for myself at work tonight, and overall felt very proud of myself ^w^
tomorrow is the 15th, which means my full-tilt diet is officially over! i did in fact lose weight even though i didn't really give it 100%, and didn't work out all that much. i lost at least ten pounds, most likely more. i weigh 226 now, last i checked was in february or march [before rms moved out and took their scale with them] and i weighed ten more than that. and since i suddenly obtained shitloads of stretch marks since then, i know i have gained more weight than that since then, maybe as much as 245 or 250 lbs at my heaviest, so that means i have almost certainly lost more than ten pounds on the diet. which is fantastic. imagine what i'd do if i actually worked my ass off lol. i successfully went without touching rice, bread, tortillas or any grain product whatsoever [with the exception of crispbread which is the most dry and minimal source of no carbs ever, less than crackers]. i didn't touch ANY heavy carb foods, but i did imbibe a little sugar here and there [e.g. an icee, a donut, a cake pop, a cookie, a sip of bb's Surge the other night] but only roughly once a week did this happen if at all. soon i can have little nibbles of sweet things more often and it's okay :D!!
speaking of sweets! we ordered my cake today. aaaah!!! i've never ordered a cae in my life before i'm so excited! i gave them a card sleeve from pokekyun to scan and print on the cake aaahh it's gonna be so cute. shoulda told them to decorate it with Sylveon ribbons lol!! but maybe that'd be too complicated for this place. [ooh and i bet if i walked to Aggie's on my birthday they'd give me a free ice cream 83 and i would also love going out for birthday sushi... yeeees] i can't wait! it also came out while they were asking what i wanted on it that it was for me HAHA the lady was like "So do you want a specific number on there? Is it for a younger child or...?"
"Uh, sure, put 25th"
"Oh! ... Is this for YOUR birthday?"
HAHA it was pretty cute she grinned a lot at that. Bb was embarrassed for me I guess? but I wasn't embarrassed at all, I'm far beyond being embarrassed by such things as ordering my own birthday cake with Pokemon on it ;3
After the cake order we went to Save Point next door, and bb picked up bioshock infinite [which i will def be playing, that game man] and also an old pokemon gold and silver pokedex manual! which i mostly wanted because it has ALLLL of the old amazing watercolor Sugimori art from back in the day that i want to emulate so bad. heck yes.
oh and when i get my birthday present, which will hopefully be a super nintendo, i wanna temporarily set it up in the living room on the flatscreen tv 83 and play ma games on there. hell yeah.
last thing today, Beth actually saw me posting about rave clothes and stuff that i used to wear and she showed me a link to a HUGE sale on phat pants [these really big huge pocketed, really expensive rave pants] that were like 70% off. so i totally bought myself a pair. because yes. it's been a decade and i still adore those pants even if the bottoms get all messed up from walking in them, they're meant to go to the floor anyway! so YA i'm gonna own those and my wardrobe will be a little more colorful
so yes with the power of shopping i turned a bad week into a lovely Saturday! we'll see how work and stuff goes but today was wonderful and i'm savoring it <3
past:
- the other night i went to Abari, the game bar! they have arcade games [both old and a new one which is a four player coop game? idk], pinball and a little corner with various retro consoles to play, that is if you can ever EVER get a spot on the couch lol! it was pretty great! i had a margarita, bb had a gin and tonic [ew] and a vodka with cranberry [yum!] and... a Surge? lol?? they sell booze and also Surge. i guess it's a gamer drink somehow now :V or maybe just because it's retro lmaooo. i love Surge negl so i had a few tiny TINY sips. i really loved that place ngl! that was the first bar i've EVER EVER been to and actually enjoyed myself, didn't feel scared or claustrophobic, i kinda expected an ass grab or being grossly rubbed on while my hands were busy playing games but nobody bothered me at all except to ask to join a game or something. it was great :D! i'm totally going back there.
- steven universe is back and maaannn it was amazing. thats all pretty much. it was so good and i'm so glad the show is at least back for a few weeks!
- WORK STUFF.... eehhh. part of what hurt my mental health this week so bad was that i got Talked To at work about my performance. and it wasn't only me [which, unlike EVERY other time i've been told this, was actually not a lie but the truth, it was me and one other night worker] but man did it make me hella, HELLA insecure and depressed. i have mixed feelings about tonight but i went from 'fuck, i can't ever make a job happy with me, i'm a lazy piece of shit it's just my nature' to 'no! this is the first job of my actual real career! i have to be determined and actually get better at it and understand everything i need to do!' so... hopefully i can put that thought into action. thats the hard part. there will always, it feels like, be something i've overlooked or left undone and that makes me insecure AS FUCK but... nothing i can do but try.
- finally went ahead and ordered my pokekyun booster box, paid for two day shipping so it would arrive on thursday, specifically because i knew thursday was likely to be a rough day and i wanted to perk myself up. and so it came! and now i own the whole set [plus A MILLION doubles] minus two cards, Gardevoir full art and Flareon full art. both of which i own in english, but no it must be the japanese edition. it is BEAUTIFUL and i don't regret a goddamn thing.
Now I'm gonna go scratch my sunburn, drink my pre-work coffee and get me some several shiny Xerneas. 83
Before the evening ends I think I should do an entry to commemorate the 20th anniversary of, perhaps, the most important franchise to ever hit my life. [It's technically not the 27th yet here, but it already happened in Japan, so.]
It started in the first semester of third grade, 1999, with a picture of a Caterpie in a Disney Adventures magazine. Eight years old.
I know it was this exact one, because I was given last December a few scattered remaining pages of it that had been found at my grandmother's house, after some long ago trip up there. We used to pick issues of this magazine up at the checkout rack in grocery stores.
That Caterpie was the first Pokemon to really catch my eye. I had no idea the life changing transformation I was about to undergo in the following months and years. The person I would become would be largely shaped by the phenomenon known as Pokemania.
It's hard to know or say what my very first playthrough was like. I have little to no memories of it. What I know is that we [my mother and I, because she was just as into it] first played on rented cartridges and Gameboy Colors from Blockbuster [back when you could do that!], and that we started playing shortly before Yellow hit the shelves, because I remember the hype for Yellow version. I believe that the first game that I ever touched was Blue version [because I've always preferred blue as a color], and my first starter was probably Bulbasaur [because the game tells you it is the easiest choice].
When I started playing Red and Blue, the games had only been out for under a year. I had no particular attachment to the individual Pokemon that I trained in those first temporary playthroughs... maybe because I knew I would have to return the games. I have vivid memories of my mother playing on her rental Game Boy in the bathtub and beating the entire game in the week we had them. I never got past the fourth gym or so back then. [My mother also named EVERY Raichu she used, and she always used one, "POOKA!" with an exclamation mark. Took me a while to realize how hard she hunted for one of those every single playthrough. I often name Pikachu/Raichu with that name to this day in honor of the oldest times.]
Christmas of that year, 1999, was when I finally owned my first ever gaming device, and my first Pokemon games. I got Red, Blue and Yellow all at the same time, and Yellow came with its own special, super cool game boy. Of those three I do distinctly remember that the first one that I owned AND played was Yellow. I booted that one up first because it was brand new and came with the console. So in that way, my first starter was Pikachu, but by then I had played at least 10 games already by renting almost constantly since the fall.
[I still have the gameboy, which I have repaired and made good as new since then, as well as Blue and Yellow.... Red was borrowed and never given back, and sadly, my beloved Yellow version no longer works. I've seriously considered replacing the guts of the cartridge and keeping the cartridge itself. That game is precious to me.]
It quickly became my life. Consumed me. I often say that before Pokemon happened, I wasn't really my own person. I had interests but none that totally consumed me and filtered every aspect of my life before that. It changed me in the best way. I'm sure I was totally obnoxious LOL!! but I didn't care at all.
My ninth birthday the following year was Pokemon themed. The Christmas of 1999 in which I got RBY versions, I had specifically asked my parents to give me entirely Pokemon things, and that they did. It remains one of the most pure joyful memories of my life. The christmas that next year, 2000, was also heavily Pokemon and video game themed - that was the year we got our N64, my first home console, which would lead to me being further changed utterly.
Then, the Gold and Silver hype. I don't remember exactly when I became aware of the games coming out, but it was partially online [shoutouts to Marriland and Serebii for still to this day being online and active in the fandom, omg] and partially hype from Nintendo Power. I remember there being an issue of NP that showed all the Johto Pokemon and their Japanese names. Memorizing those names. I don't think I quite understood the fact that they'd have English names eventually. I remember drawing loads of comics with Johto pokemon in them - especially Meganium, Houndour, Umbreon and Skarmory - with their names just being the Japanese names. [As stylized as possible too even when they were actually plays on english words - Umbreon's Japanese name being "Blacky", but spelled "Burakkii" in Nintendo Power, or Skarmory's name being "Airmored" but spelled "Eamudo". I still intend on catching and naming one that, because "Eamudo" was such a feature in my art back then.]
When Gold and Silver had come out in Japan but hadn't been brought to the west yet, I remember my mother finding online some frankly terrible Gold/Silver ROMs for us to play. Glitchy and badly translated, I distinctly remember every Pokemon uttered its cry twice - to this day I think Sentret's cry sounds better when repeated - chirp-chirp!. We were just that desperate to play them. I also remember my mother finding out that the Silver pokemon's name was "Lugia" and her immediate response was not to tell my father because he'd make loogie jokes forever. [He already called Pikachu "Pick-a-nose] Thankfully I don't remember any of these jokes happening lol.
I remember being in fourth grade in 2000, Gold and Silver's American release impending, being terrible at times tables in school, and my mother telling me that if I didn't learn them, I wouldn't be allowed to get a copy of Gold and Silver when they came out. But Christmas came and so did Gold and Silver, right into my hands, and the obsession just continued, on into 2001 with Crystal.
Things other than the games that rocked my world. The anime, which I watched constantly on kids WB. And especially the movies. The first movie changed my entire life, my art direction, my interests in science and biology, so many parts of me can trace back to there. I still consider it one of my top favorites. The score is utterly beautiful. The scenes of Mew in the beginning, in beautiful, pure, very Japanese nature... The movie's mixture of nature versus artifice... the first flashes in the pan that became Hiraeth.
The second movie was just as good. The sound of Lugia's song, like whalesong, chilled me - still chills me. I had the soundtrack on CD, got it for Christmas, and listened to it endlessly for a couple of years. [Also listened to endlessly: the Majora's Mask soundtrack. I finally replaced that one last year although it isn't the now-rare Nintendo Power version that I had then.]
That's about how the first chapter of Pokemon went for me. I spent the period of the third generation in my "I'm too grown up for video games! Those are for kids!" middle school period, which you can pretty much see how long that lasted LOL. About three or four years maybe. Diamond and Pearl brought me right back into the fold in 2006, and it's been love nonstop ever since. Diamond and Pearl in high school, Black and White in early college [and the first time I ever beat a Pokemon game in its entirety on White version, and wept like a child as the credits rolled]. Fell in love all over again with the beauty of X and Y. I've even caught up with the much maligned Hoenn generation in the era of ORAS.
And now.... the future of Sun and Moon.
In about an hour and a half I'll be purchasing a copy of the Virtual Console games. Haven't decided exactly which one of the three yet. We'll see how it goes. I fully intend to do what I've never truly done before, and catch 'em all. <3
It started in the first semester of third grade, 1999, with a picture of a Caterpie in a Disney Adventures magazine. Eight years old.
I know it was this exact one, because I was given last December a few scattered remaining pages of it that had been found at my grandmother's house, after some long ago trip up there. We used to pick issues of this magazine up at the checkout rack in grocery stores.
That Caterpie was the first Pokemon to really catch my eye. I had no idea the life changing transformation I was about to undergo in the following months and years. The person I would become would be largely shaped by the phenomenon known as Pokemania.
It's hard to know or say what my very first playthrough was like. I have little to no memories of it. What I know is that we [my mother and I, because she was just as into it] first played on rented cartridges and Gameboy Colors from Blockbuster [back when you could do that!], and that we started playing shortly before Yellow hit the shelves, because I remember the hype for Yellow version. I believe that the first game that I ever touched was Blue version [because I've always preferred blue as a color], and my first starter was probably Bulbasaur [because the game tells you it is the easiest choice].
When I started playing Red and Blue, the games had only been out for under a year. I had no particular attachment to the individual Pokemon that I trained in those first temporary playthroughs... maybe because I knew I would have to return the games. I have vivid memories of my mother playing on her rental Game Boy in the bathtub and beating the entire game in the week we had them. I never got past the fourth gym or so back then. [My mother also named EVERY Raichu she used, and she always used one, "POOKA!" with an exclamation mark. Took me a while to realize how hard she hunted for one of those every single playthrough. I often name Pikachu/Raichu with that name to this day in honor of the oldest times.]
Christmas of that year, 1999, was when I finally owned my first ever gaming device, and my first Pokemon games. I got Red, Blue and Yellow all at the same time, and Yellow came with its own special, super cool game boy. Of those three I do distinctly remember that the first one that I owned AND played was Yellow. I booted that one up first because it was brand new and came with the console. So in that way, my first starter was Pikachu, but by then I had played at least 10 games already by renting almost constantly since the fall.
[I still have the gameboy, which I have repaired and made good as new since then, as well as Blue and Yellow.... Red was borrowed and never given back, and sadly, my beloved Yellow version no longer works. I've seriously considered replacing the guts of the cartridge and keeping the cartridge itself. That game is precious to me.]
It quickly became my life. Consumed me. I often say that before Pokemon happened, I wasn't really my own person. I had interests but none that totally consumed me and filtered every aspect of my life before that. It changed me in the best way. I'm sure I was totally obnoxious LOL!! but I didn't care at all.
My ninth birthday the following year was Pokemon themed. The Christmas of 1999 in which I got RBY versions, I had specifically asked my parents to give me entirely Pokemon things, and that they did. It remains one of the most pure joyful memories of my life. The christmas that next year, 2000, was also heavily Pokemon and video game themed - that was the year we got our N64, my first home console, which would lead to me being further changed utterly.
Then, the Gold and Silver hype. I don't remember exactly when I became aware of the games coming out, but it was partially online [shoutouts to Marriland and Serebii for still to this day being online and active in the fandom, omg] and partially hype from Nintendo Power. I remember there being an issue of NP that showed all the Johto Pokemon and their Japanese names. Memorizing those names. I don't think I quite understood the fact that they'd have English names eventually. I remember drawing loads of comics with Johto pokemon in them - especially Meganium, Houndour, Umbreon and Skarmory - with their names just being the Japanese names. [As stylized as possible too even when they were actually plays on english words - Umbreon's Japanese name being "Blacky", but spelled "Burakkii" in Nintendo Power, or Skarmory's name being "Airmored" but spelled "Eamudo". I still intend on catching and naming one that, because "Eamudo" was such a feature in my art back then.]
When Gold and Silver had come out in Japan but hadn't been brought to the west yet, I remember my mother finding online some frankly terrible Gold/Silver ROMs for us to play. Glitchy and badly translated, I distinctly remember every Pokemon uttered its cry twice - to this day I think Sentret's cry sounds better when repeated - chirp-chirp!. We were just that desperate to play them. I also remember my mother finding out that the Silver pokemon's name was "Lugia" and her immediate response was not to tell my father because he'd make loogie jokes forever. [He already called Pikachu "Pick-a-nose] Thankfully I don't remember any of these jokes happening lol.
I remember being in fourth grade in 2000, Gold and Silver's American release impending, being terrible at times tables in school, and my mother telling me that if I didn't learn them, I wouldn't be allowed to get a copy of Gold and Silver when they came out. But Christmas came and so did Gold and Silver, right into my hands, and the obsession just continued, on into 2001 with Crystal.
Things other than the games that rocked my world. The anime, which I watched constantly on kids WB. And especially the movies. The first movie changed my entire life, my art direction, my interests in science and biology, so many parts of me can trace back to there. I still consider it one of my top favorites. The score is utterly beautiful. The scenes of Mew in the beginning, in beautiful, pure, very Japanese nature... The movie's mixture of nature versus artifice... the first flashes in the pan that became Hiraeth.
The second movie was just as good. The sound of Lugia's song, like whalesong, chilled me - still chills me. I had the soundtrack on CD, got it for Christmas, and listened to it endlessly for a couple of years. [Also listened to endlessly: the Majora's Mask soundtrack. I finally replaced that one last year although it isn't the now-rare Nintendo Power version that I had then.]
That's about how the first chapter of Pokemon went for me. I spent the period of the third generation in my "I'm too grown up for video games! Those are for kids!" middle school period, which you can pretty much see how long that lasted LOL. About three or four years maybe. Diamond and Pearl brought me right back into the fold in 2006, and it's been love nonstop ever since. Diamond and Pearl in high school, Black and White in early college [and the first time I ever beat a Pokemon game in its entirety on White version, and wept like a child as the credits rolled]. Fell in love all over again with the beauty of X and Y. I've even caught up with the much maligned Hoenn generation in the era of ORAS.
And now.... the future of Sun and Moon.
In about an hour and a half I'll be purchasing a copy of the Virtual Console games. Haven't decided exactly which one of the three yet. We'll see how it goes. I fully intend to do what I've never truly done before, and catch 'em all. <3
BLEH opened this up to talk about Summer or whatever but she wandered off to shower [and forgot a towel :v] and then the thought vanished lol
bb and i went to the coffee shop and it started raining and we almost had nowhere to sit because they were so busy. but we copped a seat and i drew some pokemon tarot stuff, the Seven of Swords is gonna look AMAZING and the Two of Swords is so perfect it makes me wanna cry. having some great ideas there this project just keeps hanging on and being enthralling. idk how much we'll be able to sell these since they're Nintendo IP?? but i don't really care at least at this point. just suddenly, in that same coffee shop, that one day the idea fell into my head and it's stayed there for like a month. and been slowly chipped away at, almost every day.
talks with Cores on and off today. Summer came up as she tends to do during, well, the summer lol. just briefly in a haze of blue stars and sparkle and glitter. and a sighing breeze. that was her essence. she said she was going to get in the bath and pretend she was a mermaid but instead she just got in the shower and then vanished. and instead it was me and Vernon. who noticed how hungry we were and reminded me wordlessly of the egg sandwiches that a girl we dated years ago taught us how to make. [because that was how little we knew how to cook. we were taught nothing lol] simple fried eggs in a pan that take 5 minutes. after which we made like every day for months and months and years. and we got out of the shower and Vernon kinda took the lead, which seems rare for him. and that's how, the day after having a small breakdown about food problems and kitchen anxiety, the immediate next day we jump into the kitchen and cook eggs and chat conversationally with our roomie who is right nearby and listening to us. no awkwardness. no fear. no feeling like we need to hide or be silent. how strange but how nice.
other things:
- art alias for now is Dragon In Coffee Shop, as of yesterday. think i like it. cute imagery. idk what i'll do with it, but.
- in the coffee shop a guy walked in wearing a black shirt with a word on it that i can't remember, and emblazoned with a broken arrow. snapped in half, crossed upon his chest, with the fletching on one side and arrowhead on the other. felt dozens of gasps at once behind and beside me. he immediately vanished or i'd have cornered him and asked where he'd got it. maybe. or else just taken a sneaky photo ;p
- let's play channel is still tossing and turning in my head. money is tight this check so no new equipment but... i think eventually this will happen. i'm finally on my own now, so the dream of a LP channel from years ago might actually come to fruition now. especially in an apartment full of likeminded folk who would totally get this and maybe wanna pitch in too sometimes. :3
feelin really rested. don't wanna go to work but it's my thursday. this week has been really weirdly long idk. think soon i'm gonna go back to where i went with bb in the park, deep in the woods. old growth forest. loads of huge holy centuries-old trees and little streams full of life. amazing to find a place like that this deep in the city, more amazing to think it's just a few hundred years old and used to have been a plowed-up plantation property, and the most amazing thing of all is thinking that without the city there to guard what nature it has and let it grow wild, if this had been the country, it wouldn't even be that big and thriving. it'd be just like the area where i'm from. where the trees only get so big and the woods can only grow so much. irony.
i need to go back there, but this time alone, and sit with the System and feel them all around me. too many distractions a lot of the time makes it hard to sense them even when they're right there.
the other day was the father's birthday. when my birthday came he broke the silence of almost 4 years to text me happy birthday [and in doing so deadnamed me, of course], and i said thanks. and on his birthday, i returned the favor. not because i felt obligated or guilted into texting him back, but because i thought at the time when he texted me, even though it made me uncomfortable that he did so, that it would just be right. just do it back a couple weeks later when his birthday rolled around, and that's that. so i did and he said thanks and i deleted the thread and it was done. and i feel good about that. and i have no plans to talk to him again for the foreseeable future. which i also feel good about.
i used that word deadname -- just discovered that it exists today. that's a word like misgendering, where that's when you use someone's wrong pronoun - usually this term means it's done on purpose -- but deadnaming is when you use someone's old name or legal given name instead of what they prefer. with him it's not QUITE the same because i haven't explicitly expressed my wish to go by Oliver but i doubt he'll respect it when that does come up anyway. he and the mother have never even called me Kris, they both call me by the hated first name because when i first changed it i was too much of a weenie to insist that they call me Kris. even when they asked me i said no they didn't have to. which i regret now lol but i guess nowadays it doesn't matter too much. kris is just as wrong a name as the first name. only Oliver is correct.
another biofamily thing: the little brother's nickname [also given and not taken, he's been called it since birth and had no say in it lol] is Bo. which is kind of a southern name. but recently i've realized that this name is almost ALWAYS spelled "Beau" which is much handsomer and actually makes some kind of sense unlike "Bo".... my family lol.... if i were him i'd def start spelling it Beau.
so ya that's about it i guess. bb has gone to do a rehearsal and bird has been out hiking a lot so i'm mostly alone w my thoughts until work. which is alright i think. today is a lot better than yesterday was.
bb and i went to the coffee shop and it started raining and we almost had nowhere to sit because they were so busy. but we copped a seat and i drew some pokemon tarot stuff, the Seven of Swords is gonna look AMAZING and the Two of Swords is so perfect it makes me wanna cry. having some great ideas there this project just keeps hanging on and being enthralling. idk how much we'll be able to sell these since they're Nintendo IP?? but i don't really care at least at this point. just suddenly, in that same coffee shop, that one day the idea fell into my head and it's stayed there for like a month. and been slowly chipped away at, almost every day.
talks with Cores on and off today. Summer came up as she tends to do during, well, the summer lol. just briefly in a haze of blue stars and sparkle and glitter. and a sighing breeze. that was her essence. she said she was going to get in the bath and pretend she was a mermaid but instead she just got in the shower and then vanished. and instead it was me and Vernon. who noticed how hungry we were and reminded me wordlessly of the egg sandwiches that a girl we dated years ago taught us how to make. [because that was how little we knew how to cook. we were taught nothing lol] simple fried eggs in a pan that take 5 minutes. after which we made like every day for months and months and years. and we got out of the shower and Vernon kinda took the lead, which seems rare for him. and that's how, the day after having a small breakdown about food problems and kitchen anxiety, the immediate next day we jump into the kitchen and cook eggs and chat conversationally with our roomie who is right nearby and listening to us. no awkwardness. no fear. no feeling like we need to hide or be silent. how strange but how nice.
other things:
- art alias for now is Dragon In Coffee Shop, as of yesterday. think i like it. cute imagery. idk what i'll do with it, but.
- in the coffee shop a guy walked in wearing a black shirt with a word on it that i can't remember, and emblazoned with a broken arrow. snapped in half, crossed upon his chest, with the fletching on one side and arrowhead on the other. felt dozens of gasps at once behind and beside me. he immediately vanished or i'd have cornered him and asked where he'd got it. maybe. or else just taken a sneaky photo ;p
- let's play channel is still tossing and turning in my head. money is tight this check so no new equipment but... i think eventually this will happen. i'm finally on my own now, so the dream of a LP channel from years ago might actually come to fruition now. especially in an apartment full of likeminded folk who would totally get this and maybe wanna pitch in too sometimes. :3
feelin really rested. don't wanna go to work but it's my thursday. this week has been really weirdly long idk. think soon i'm gonna go back to where i went with bb in the park, deep in the woods. old growth forest. loads of huge holy centuries-old trees and little streams full of life. amazing to find a place like that this deep in the city, more amazing to think it's just a few hundred years old and used to have been a plowed-up plantation property, and the most amazing thing of all is thinking that without the city there to guard what nature it has and let it grow wild, if this had been the country, it wouldn't even be that big and thriving. it'd be just like the area where i'm from. where the trees only get so big and the woods can only grow so much. irony.
i need to go back there, but this time alone, and sit with the System and feel them all around me. too many distractions a lot of the time makes it hard to sense them even when they're right there.
the other day was the father's birthday. when my birthday came he broke the silence of almost 4 years to text me happy birthday [and in doing so deadnamed me, of course], and i said thanks. and on his birthday, i returned the favor. not because i felt obligated or guilted into texting him back, but because i thought at the time when he texted me, even though it made me uncomfortable that he did so, that it would just be right. just do it back a couple weeks later when his birthday rolled around, and that's that. so i did and he said thanks and i deleted the thread and it was done. and i feel good about that. and i have no plans to talk to him again for the foreseeable future. which i also feel good about.
i used that word deadname -- just discovered that it exists today. that's a word like misgendering, where that's when you use someone's wrong pronoun - usually this term means it's done on purpose -- but deadnaming is when you use someone's old name or legal given name instead of what they prefer. with him it's not QUITE the same because i haven't explicitly expressed my wish to go by Oliver but i doubt he'll respect it when that does come up anyway. he and the mother have never even called me Kris, they both call me by the hated first name because when i first changed it i was too much of a weenie to insist that they call me Kris. even when they asked me i said no they didn't have to. which i regret now lol but i guess nowadays it doesn't matter too much. kris is just as wrong a name as the first name. only Oliver is correct.
another biofamily thing: the little brother's nickname [also given and not taken, he's been called it since birth and had no say in it lol] is Bo. which is kind of a southern name. but recently i've realized that this name is almost ALWAYS spelled "Beau" which is much handsomer and actually makes some kind of sense unlike "Bo".... my family lol.... if i were him i'd def start spelling it Beau.
so ya that's about it i guess. bb has gone to do a rehearsal and bird has been out hiking a lot so i'm mostly alone w my thoughts until work. which is alright i think. today is a lot better than yesterday was.
SO!!! today has been adventurous. i'm pleased by the productivity of this day it's broken up my 'omg wasting time!' feelings.
first off, today's tarot draw: #7, "How can I nurture my personal growth?"
draw: The Lovers.
>:|||||||||||||||||||| could you be anymore fucking obvious with that, deck lmfao. THX. thx. the first time pulling a tarot card has made me blush. i don't even need to explain this one ahhhaha
SO speaking of TAROT: an idea for a deck blossomed in my head all at once today while skyping with Bird. Pokemon tarot. Omg. And I knew just who to turn to: my stepsister, because tarot and pokemon are her two favorite things. [and like my two favorite things are pokemon and symbology/spirituality in general LOL!]
SO THEN i have spent the entire afternoon talking to my stepsister [Amanda] about what we'd use and we're now on skype going over card by card. and we have almost every major arcana card nailed down and are working on the suits now. it's getting RLY GOOD and there are a couple of cards that i cannot wait to draw eeeee :D
IDK WHERE WE'LL GO WITH THIS, all i know is it's a fantastic idea and the two of us are a really good team for this particular project because we love pokemon and tarot lol. I WANT TO SHARE what we have so far but... not yet. 83
while this discussion was happening i ventured out to the NoDa area to check out a coffee shop! it's called the Smelly Cat lol. ironic because i've been feeling very feline all day. my black and white tuxedo cat shape. and i went in there [with Thirteen who stood quietly nearby and watched from a distance all that we took in] and ordered a white mocha with some banana bread. as soon as i walked in the lady behind the counter complimented my Hylian Crest shirt ha! it might be falling apart but people love it. i need a new one.
and lemme tell you. that drink was absolutely worth five dollars holy shit. i felt bad for only tipping 2 bucks. some of the best coffee i have ever tasted. it was SO SWEET BUT it wasn't that gross syrupy cloying sweet of cheap coffee drinks, and still had lots of earthy dirty coffee taste in it oghhh. perfect amazing. was just sitting there as a cat purring and lapping at the coffee with PERFECT FOAM TOPPING. the guy who served it to me shyly commented on his lack of foam art making skills and it was cute and i didn't remotely care because the foam was the most heavenly thing my kitty tongue has ever tasted. @_@ it was just a perfect scene for me that day. sitting in the corner sipping this amazing coffee drink while excitedly texting with Amanda about a brand new idea i had. yes. a good thing. i'll definitely be going back to the Smelly Cat lolol.
so now Amanda and i are going card by card and settling into what pokemon we want to feature. i'm so excited aaahhh this is gonna be so cool even if they never get printed or whatever BUT WHAT IF THEY DO :D
SO i gotta go to work and it's w/e but i'm gonna be chewing on this pokemon tarot idea for a while now. the major arcana alone are giving me such excited willies [GET READY FOR THE DEATH CARD O M G] :333
first off, today's tarot draw: #7, "How can I nurture my personal growth?"
draw: The Lovers.
>:|||||||||||||||||||| could you be anymore fucking obvious with that, deck lmfao. THX. thx. the first time pulling a tarot card has made me blush. i don't even need to explain this one ahhhaha
SO speaking of TAROT: an idea for a deck blossomed in my head all at once today while skyping with Bird. Pokemon tarot. Omg. And I knew just who to turn to: my stepsister, because tarot and pokemon are her two favorite things. [and like my two favorite things are pokemon and symbology/spirituality in general LOL!]
SO THEN i have spent the entire afternoon talking to my stepsister [Amanda] about what we'd use and we're now on skype going over card by card. and we have almost every major arcana card nailed down and are working on the suits now. it's getting RLY GOOD and there are a couple of cards that i cannot wait to draw eeeee :D
IDK WHERE WE'LL GO WITH THIS, all i know is it's a fantastic idea and the two of us are a really good team for this particular project because we love pokemon and tarot lol. I WANT TO SHARE what we have so far but... not yet. 83
while this discussion was happening i ventured out to the NoDa area to check out a coffee shop! it's called the Smelly Cat lol. ironic because i've been feeling very feline all day. my black and white tuxedo cat shape. and i went in there [with Thirteen who stood quietly nearby and watched from a distance all that we took in] and ordered a white mocha with some banana bread. as soon as i walked in the lady behind the counter complimented my Hylian Crest shirt ha! it might be falling apart but people love it. i need a new one.
and lemme tell you. that drink was absolutely worth five dollars holy shit. i felt bad for only tipping 2 bucks. some of the best coffee i have ever tasted. it was SO SWEET BUT it wasn't that gross syrupy cloying sweet of cheap coffee drinks, and still had lots of earthy dirty coffee taste in it oghhh. perfect amazing. was just sitting there as a cat purring and lapping at the coffee with PERFECT FOAM TOPPING. the guy who served it to me shyly commented on his lack of foam art making skills and it was cute and i didn't remotely care because the foam was the most heavenly thing my kitty tongue has ever tasted. @_@ it was just a perfect scene for me that day. sitting in the corner sipping this amazing coffee drink while excitedly texting with Amanda about a brand new idea i had. yes. a good thing. i'll definitely be going back to the Smelly Cat lolol.
so now Amanda and i are going card by card and settling into what pokemon we want to feature. i'm so excited aaahhh this is gonna be so cool even if they never get printed or whatever BUT WHAT IF THEY DO :D
SO i gotta go to work and it's w/e but i'm gonna be chewing on this pokemon tarot idea for a while now. the major arcana alone are giving me such excited willies [GET READY FOR THE DEATH CARD O M G] :333
move countdown is 3 days. gonna be a very interesting little while. we got the go-ahead to fill our car[s?] up with a few preliminary boxes and take up the first bit of stuff tomorrow, since the previous occupant will be out by tonight. i've still gotta get my car fixed up, i guess that'll happen Monday. new battery probably, windshield wipers most definitely, maybe something else idk.
today packed up everything in the bathroom except the essentials for the next couple days, and started packing the kitchen stuff away. gotta get a second opinion on exactly what in there is ours lol. i kinda want... to get the breadbox from the kitchen since it's mine. we'll see if there's room in the new place. don't want to take it and then end up having to shove it in a corner somewhere.
getting some stuff done on my games, mostly pokemon, that i've been putting off. some downloads and such. especially because THE EON TICKET IS FINALLY HAPPENING and i need it. i can get Latios finally. ;^; and i need to go on my Y version and figure out how to transfer a box full of pokemon over to my brother's pokemon bank because i owe them to him. he doesn't actually want them or will use them at all but he knows i'm moving away and so he will mostly lose access to them. and like i said they are his and i accidentally moved them onto my game in the first place lol so. yeah.
a thing we're going to do today is sit down together and just. write. write down what we think and say. because thoughts are good but so fleeting and recording them helps us anchor sometimes.
idk man. IDK. i'm really... happy. really inspired by this weird thing we've got going on, me and Hiccup. all i want to do is write and draw and work on things about it. and i'm sure it'll pass and things will change and that's fine. but this is... such a rapid period of growth right now. just so much learning. Things that I used to dread I actually kinda look forward to now and that's just... fucking crazyballs. What are you doing to me.
today packed up everything in the bathroom except the essentials for the next couple days, and started packing the kitchen stuff away. gotta get a second opinion on exactly what in there is ours lol. i kinda want... to get the breadbox from the kitchen since it's mine. we'll see if there's room in the new place. don't want to take it and then end up having to shove it in a corner somewhere.
getting some stuff done on my games, mostly pokemon, that i've been putting off. some downloads and such. especially because THE EON TICKET IS FINALLY HAPPENING and i need it. i can get Latios finally. ;^; and i need to go on my Y version and figure out how to transfer a box full of pokemon over to my brother's pokemon bank because i owe them to him. he doesn't actually want them or will use them at all but he knows i'm moving away and so he will mostly lose access to them. and like i said they are his and i accidentally moved them onto my game in the first place lol so. yeah.
a thing we're going to do today is sit down together and just. write. write down what we think and say. because thoughts are good but so fleeting and recording them helps us anchor sometimes.
idk man. IDK. i'm really... happy. really inspired by this weird thing we've got going on, me and Hiccup. all i want to do is write and draw and work on things about it. and i'm sure it'll pass and things will change and that's fine. but this is... such a rapid period of growth right now. just so much learning. Things that I used to dread I actually kinda look forward to now and that's just... fucking crazyballs. What are you doing to me.
WELLP LIFE SURE IS REALLY HARD AND STRESSFUL ALL OF A SUDDEN!!!
went out looking for more apartment options. first place was closed, second place yet again wants three times the rent. i honestly believe it's just uncontrolled discrimination policy against poor people. who with shit like this have no choice but to live in crack addled hovels with people who wanna make trouble or would rob you for drug money. i could have afforded a studio apartment MYSELF!!! and still had money to live my life and save up a little money enough to scrape by no problem. at this place. but no. they want you to make an unreasonable amount of money.
so tomorrow we'll go back to the [honestly REALLY DAMN DEPRESSING AND SHITTY LOOKING and i would really have not wanted to check this place out if my friend hadn't suggested them to me] other apartments we checked today. they supposedly also have houses to look at if there are vacancies.
idk man all of this is making me feel so tired all the time. it's so depressing. i have done all the things that grown ups tell you you need when you're a kid. i have good credit, no debt, work plenty of hours at my job even though i'm not allowed to be full time, i do my taxes on time every year... and i still can't make myself a damn life. no one will let me. no one will give me a chance.
and i was lying around my room feeling really shitty about that when i realized... i don't know where my game case is. my fucking 3ds games. ALL of them except alpha sapphire and animal crossing. are missing. not only that but EVERY SINGLE POKEMON GAME from diamond and pearl onward is in that case. EVERY pokemon i own except my alpha sapphire team. are now missing. and i freaked RIGHT THE FUCK out. had a fucking melt down over some video games. tore my room up, looked in both our cars, nothing. i still can't find them. bb brought me food because i was depressed and didn't want to eat anything and then i wanted to eat even less because i was panicking like fucking crazy. the only things that calmed me down were roane talking to me, and then me remembering them being at home after the previous place i'd remembered them. so... i feel like they must be in this room somewhere. i'm still very very very intensely unhappy at not knowing the whereabouts of my games. but at least i have animal crossing and ONE pokemon game even if all else is lost forever. which... holy shit. i'll be beyond heartbroken. i'll be devastated. that is every pokemon i have raised in the last eight years or so. hundreds of them. the first and only shiny i've caught and raised, Kismet the Dragalge. my beloved Jacky, the Talonflame. they're all nowhere to be found. please please please let me find them. we'll be packing everything in here up before too long so... i guess if the games are here to be found, then we'll find them. god i hope. my heart breaks every few minutes worrying. smash is in there, ocarina of time, tomodachi life is in there and everyone is gonna be so upset with me for leaving them alone for so long... fuuuuuUUUCK. if i find it today or tomorrow i'll gratefully feel like an idiot for waxing so melodramatic about this because THIS IS REALLY FUCKING IMPORTANT TO ME OK. THESE GAMES ARE DEARER TO MY HEART THAN MOST THINGS IN THE WORLD HOLY SHIT. some of my most treasured possessions, my 3DS games. particularly my pokemon games. if i lost them all i don't even... know where i'd start to begin again. how can you even build up that much history over again.
so yeah. life is really... hard right now. in a lot of ways. shit piling up from a lot of angles. but we'll keep going. there's no other option. i'm really mad about the inevitable blowing up of my 'stress' tag but. moving is stressful. finding a house is fucking stressful as shit particularly this time. what are you gonna do.
edit: you know what i wanna end this with a good vibe SO: barring the shitty couple of weeks in the beginning of march, it looks like, should we choose to accept it, we have that room in charlotte with our friends. i'm more than willing to take it especially since they changed their mind about Murphy having to stay in one room. [they just want to vacuum more often and since we have a BRAND NEW VACUUM... i'm totally willing to take over part or all of vac duties lol] but bb wants to explore all our options first. he wants us to live alone. which i would also love but honestly seeing the absolute shit way apartments seem to do things, i'm starting to give up on that with our income the way it is. unless we both somehow find $20 an hour jobs... not happening. BUT it doesn't matter as much because i THINK we have a place. we have one pretty well ensured. i don't see anything crazy happening to catch us off guard. so i want to get paperwork done as soon as possible.
went out looking for more apartment options. first place was closed, second place yet again wants three times the rent. i honestly believe it's just uncontrolled discrimination policy against poor people. who with shit like this have no choice but to live in crack addled hovels with people who wanna make trouble or would rob you for drug money. i could have afforded a studio apartment MYSELF!!! and still had money to live my life and save up a little money enough to scrape by no problem. at this place. but no. they want you to make an unreasonable amount of money.
so tomorrow we'll go back to the [honestly REALLY DAMN DEPRESSING AND SHITTY LOOKING and i would really have not wanted to check this place out if my friend hadn't suggested them to me] other apartments we checked today. they supposedly also have houses to look at if there are vacancies.
idk man all of this is making me feel so tired all the time. it's so depressing. i have done all the things that grown ups tell you you need when you're a kid. i have good credit, no debt, work plenty of hours at my job even though i'm not allowed to be full time, i do my taxes on time every year... and i still can't make myself a damn life. no one will let me. no one will give me a chance.
and i was lying around my room feeling really shitty about that when i realized... i don't know where my game case is. my fucking 3ds games. ALL of them except alpha sapphire and animal crossing. are missing. not only that but EVERY SINGLE POKEMON GAME from diamond and pearl onward is in that case. EVERY pokemon i own except my alpha sapphire team. are now missing. and i freaked RIGHT THE FUCK out. had a fucking melt down over some video games. tore my room up, looked in both our cars, nothing. i still can't find them. bb brought me food because i was depressed and didn't want to eat anything and then i wanted to eat even less because i was panicking like fucking crazy. the only things that calmed me down were roane talking to me, and then me remembering them being at home after the previous place i'd remembered them. so... i feel like they must be in this room somewhere. i'm still very very very intensely unhappy at not knowing the whereabouts of my games. but at least i have animal crossing and ONE pokemon game even if all else is lost forever. which... holy shit. i'll be beyond heartbroken. i'll be devastated. that is every pokemon i have raised in the last eight years or so. hundreds of them. the first and only shiny i've caught and raised, Kismet the Dragalge. my beloved Jacky, the Talonflame. they're all nowhere to be found. please please please let me find them. we'll be packing everything in here up before too long so... i guess if the games are here to be found, then we'll find them. god i hope. my heart breaks every few minutes worrying. smash is in there, ocarina of time, tomodachi life is in there and everyone is gonna be so upset with me for leaving them alone for so long... fuuuuuUUUCK. if i find it today or tomorrow i'll gratefully feel like an idiot for waxing so melodramatic about this because THIS IS REALLY FUCKING IMPORTANT TO ME OK. THESE GAMES ARE DEARER TO MY HEART THAN MOST THINGS IN THE WORLD HOLY SHIT. some of my most treasured possessions, my 3DS games. particularly my pokemon games. if i lost them all i don't even... know where i'd start to begin again. how can you even build up that much history over again.
so yeah. life is really... hard right now. in a lot of ways. shit piling up from a lot of angles. but we'll keep going. there's no other option. i'm really mad about the inevitable blowing up of my 'stress' tag but. moving is stressful. finding a house is fucking stressful as shit particularly this time. what are you gonna do.
edit: you know what i wanna end this with a good vibe SO: barring the shitty couple of weeks in the beginning of march, it looks like, should we choose to accept it, we have that room in charlotte with our friends. i'm more than willing to take it especially since they changed their mind about Murphy having to stay in one room. [they just want to vacuum more often and since we have a BRAND NEW VACUUM... i'm totally willing to take over part or all of vac duties lol] but bb wants to explore all our options first. he wants us to live alone. which i would also love but honestly seeing the absolute shit way apartments seem to do things, i'm starting to give up on that with our income the way it is. unless we both somehow find $20 an hour jobs... not happening. BUT it doesn't matter as much because i THINK we have a place. we have one pretty well ensured. i don't see anything crazy happening to catch us off guard. so i want to get paperwork done as soon as possible.
Most important thing: MAJORA'S MASK. I was half joking last night, but:
February 13th. That's the magic day. [how about they chose to release this fucking game on the Friday the 13th holy s h i t. And I'm off on Thursday/Friday so I can go to a midnight release holy craaappppp] I am going to be dead to the world on that day. Jesus christies. BUT:
Every fucking thing is sold out. The two amiibo I was going to pre order, turns out pre orders ended like a week or two ago?! But these games don't come out for another 2-3 weeks? wtf??? I went in today to pre order Majora's Mask in order to get the Skull Kid figure, and Dedede and Bowser, but they were ALL THREE sold out ages ago. The Direct announcing MM and the special edition just aired today. Once again I can't help but feel bad for little kids who have no other way of finding out about this stuff and can't ever get their hands on it because ofall a few of the big grown up nerds.
So my only real chance is to go to the store at 10am on February 1st and HOPE that they'll have an extra Dededeand/or Bowser -^- Only Feb 1 is on a Sunday... Guess who probably won't make it after the trials and travails of Saturday night. Fuck my life.
Just checked and found Bowser available at walmart's website! God I hate walmart but I'm just glad to find it anywhere. So, Bowser down!! I feel like Dedede will be harder to find, I love them both equally for most of the same reasons so I can't even say which one I wanted more. But I will find them both for retail price. I did it for friggin Little Mac who will have 0 more games with amiibo compatibility [turns out this is often closely related to amiibo production quantity, ones with more games usable with them will have more figures produced], I can do it for them.
And Charizard was announced today, so I'm keeping my finger on the pulse on when he will become available for pre-order and have money ready to go THAT INSTANT. Because there is absolutely no way I can let Charizard slip through my fingers.
My amiibo collection is going to consist of animals and monsters [Bowser, Charizard, Pikachu, Dedede, Duck Hunt etc.] with a very confused Little Mac standing in the middle LOL!
Anyway, back to the more important thing: Majora's Fucking Mask. This game borders on sacred to me. Probably my all time favorite/most personally important game, ever. Pokemon is the most important franchise, and original Smash Bros 64 probably has the most hours from me of any game ever, but Majora's Mask shaped me spiritually in a way I can't describe.
So, I told myself that I never EVER let myself splurge on a game, but this one will be the one that I do that for. Gonna buy the guide, special edition with the figures or whatever I can get my hands on. I'm not SUPER upset about the Skull Kid figure being hard if not impossible for me to come by - the box is gorgeous but the figure itself is not insanely amazing imo - but I want to do SOMETHING extra. Possibly the really pretty player's guide, because I still have my old tattered Nintendo Power player's guide for the original Majora's Mask, the only one I have left.
Also... that New 3DSXL. The majora's mask version. My first response was meh, but the more I thought about it... I kinda want it. If I can manage to squirrel away $200 that I don't need by Feb 13?... but honestly I don't know how likely that will be, I can shell out $30-50 without feeling too bad, but $200 is a month's rent that I'm gonna need in the near future, I don't need another 3DS even though the new one is really neat. I'll prob get one eventually, just GOD that majora's mask one is so cool. I just don't know man. Mid-February is WAY sooner than I expected, I was expecting to have more time. >_< tl;dr: I probably won't buy it but I really regretted not getting the original OoT 3DS and man it's cool. ;^;
February 13th. That's the magic day. [how about they chose to release this fucking game on the Friday the 13th holy s h i t. And I'm off on Thursday/Friday so I can go to a midnight release holy craaappppp] I am going to be dead to the world on that day. Jesus christies. BUT:
Every fucking thing is sold out. The two amiibo I was going to pre order, turns out pre orders ended like a week or two ago?! But these games don't come out for another 2-3 weeks? wtf??? I went in today to pre order Majora's Mask in order to get the Skull Kid figure, and Dedede and Bowser, but they were ALL THREE sold out ages ago. The Direct announcing MM and the special edition just aired today. Once again I can't help but feel bad for little kids who have no other way of finding out about this stuff and can't ever get their hands on it because of
So my only real chance is to go to the store at 10am on February 1st and HOPE that they'll have an extra Dedede
Just checked and found Bowser available at walmart's website! God I hate walmart but I'm just glad to find it anywhere. So, Bowser down!! I feel like Dedede will be harder to find, I love them both equally for most of the same reasons so I can't even say which one I wanted more. But I will find them both for retail price. I did it for friggin Little Mac who will have 0 more games with amiibo compatibility [turns out this is often closely related to amiibo production quantity, ones with more games usable with them will have more figures produced], I can do it for them.
And Charizard was announced today, so I'm keeping my finger on the pulse on when he will become available for pre-order and have money ready to go THAT INSTANT. Because there is absolutely no way I can let Charizard slip through my fingers.
My amiibo collection is going to consist of animals and monsters [Bowser, Charizard, Pikachu, Dedede, Duck Hunt etc.] with a very confused Little Mac standing in the middle LOL!
Anyway, back to the more important thing: Majora's Fucking Mask. This game borders on sacred to me. Probably my all time favorite/most personally important game, ever. Pokemon is the most important franchise, and original Smash Bros 64 probably has the most hours from me of any game ever, but Majora's Mask shaped me spiritually in a way I can't describe.
So, I told myself that I never EVER let myself splurge on a game, but this one will be the one that I do that for. Gonna buy the guide, special edition with the figures or whatever I can get my hands on. I'm not SUPER upset about the Skull Kid figure being hard if not impossible for me to come by - the box is gorgeous but the figure itself is not insanely amazing imo - but I want to do SOMETHING extra. Possibly the really pretty player's guide, because I still have my old tattered Nintendo Power player's guide for the original Majora's Mask, the only one I have left.
Also... that New 3DSXL. The majora's mask version. My first response was meh, but the more I thought about it... I kinda want it. If I can manage to squirrel away $200 that I don't need by Feb 13?... but honestly I don't know how likely that will be, I can shell out $30-50 without feeling too bad, but $200 is a month's rent that I'm gonna need in the near future, I don't need another 3DS even though the new one is really neat. I'll prob get one eventually, just GOD that majora's mask one is so cool. I just don't know man. Mid-February is WAY sooner than I expected, I was expecting to have more time. >_< tl;dr: I probably won't buy it but I really regretted not getting the original OoT 3DS and man it's cool. ;^;
Spent the last few hours coloring. Got my first completed piece of 2015 done - an image of Malaria, one of my Pearlcatcher dragons from FR. After that, Roane suggested I print out some coloring pages and practice on them, since I expressed discomfort at consistently ruining my good lineart or sketches with shitty coloring skills. That was a really good idea, so I printed out some Pokemon coloring pages, because what else? Got Raikou colored on my legendary beasts page, and when I filled in his eyes with red pencil, black ink and white gel pen, when I added the white shine in his eyes it gave them a life and fierceness that shocked me. Suddenly I looked into a face that seemed to look back into mine, rather than just an image. It's crazy how deeply Pokemon affect me. I need to write an essay sometime on the myriad of seeds it planted into me for my future life as an artist and just in general.
Did a little napping today too, but not nearly as much as yesterday. Maybe an hour or two. Maybe it's helping me get over the lingering ick that's around. The flu is going around my extended family and workplace, I'm making the sign of the cross with my fingers. Helllll no. Immune system boosts plz kthx.
Leaving for work soon, today's hours are weird and late. I really hope that doesn't mean they're sticking me here until after like 6. Since they still haven't put up the schedule I literally won't know what time I'm off until I get there, which I really hate and don't handle very well. Just assuming 6 for now.
Been watching a LP of Black version, because I beat White back in 2011 - four years ago?!? - and haven't played it since. It's very nice so far even though the player likes to narrate all the women's voices in the most ridiculous muppet style falsetto. [It works hilariously well for Bianca though LOL] At one point Arty got really excited about the video and clambered onto the laptop keyboard and began singing to the screen. So cute. I love him. Thinking about him when I'm stressed at work puts me at ease. My bird son.
Bb rented an audiobook history of Russia and so periodically I'll just hear a swell of propagandic music from his laptop over there, lol.
Don't really have time to write any more, gotta go pee and get dressed and leave. Hope and pray that I'm scheduled off at 4, that would be nice although unlikely. :v
Did a little napping today too, but not nearly as much as yesterday. Maybe an hour or two. Maybe it's helping me get over the lingering ick that's around. The flu is going around my extended family and workplace, I'm making the sign of the cross with my fingers. Helllll no. Immune system boosts plz kthx.
Leaving for work soon, today's hours are weird and late. I really hope that doesn't mean they're sticking me here until after like 6. Since they still haven't put up the schedule I literally won't know what time I'm off until I get there, which I really hate and don't handle very well. Just assuming 6 for now.
Been watching a LP of Black version, because I beat White back in 2011 - four years ago?!? - and haven't played it since. It's very nice so far even though the player likes to narrate all the women's voices in the most ridiculous muppet style falsetto. [It works hilariously well for Bianca though LOL] At one point Arty got really excited about the video and clambered onto the laptop keyboard and began singing to the screen. So cute. I love him. Thinking about him when I'm stressed at work puts me at ease. My bird son.
Bb rented an audiobook history of Russia and so periodically I'll just hear a swell of propagandic music from his laptop over there, lol.
Don't really have time to write any more, gotta go pee and get dressed and leave. Hope and pray that I'm scheduled off at 4, that would be nice although unlikely. :v
Last entry for this year. Damn, the family just got home after being gone all day. I was having fun being home alone :[
I began 2014 inside the building where I work, and looks like that's exactly where I'll be when it ends. This marks the first year where I am employed at the same place on January 1st and December 31st of the same year. Weird, because I worked at my first job for nearly two years, and the second for over a year, and yet I just hadn't worked one entire calendar year from day 1 to 365 at the same place. I kinda meant to get another job all year, but now I'm kinda holding off searching for a new job until we're moved and settled. I need stability right now.
Also, in the four and a half years we've been together, we've only ever shared a single new years kiss. How sad is that. But for the last two I've been working overnights, sooo yeah. Bb left a while back to visit his college town and friends, and then he's going to see some other friends and do a bit of partying for the new year. I guess it's better than him being alone at home.
My brother's voice is starting to change. Weirds me out that his will change before mine does.
We got a box in the mail, but it wasn't Little Mac. Guess he's gonna wait until the new year to come home. I know he's in the state, just a matter of getting here. The website says that Charlotte has "received electronic shipment information" so... not sure if it's actually in Charlotte yet or not? I'm not actually sure if the mail runs tomorrow or not, but the estimate said Saturday so I'm expecting him to arrive on Friday. :D My reward from club nintendo hasn't even shipped yet, to my knowledge. But I guess it was free, so. I'm not too worried.
They left my grandma's dog outside with no food or water when they left this morning, I realized when I got out of bed. :/ she's inside now of course since they're home, but I gave her water and let her come inside a couple times to nibble food if she wanted.
Watching a documentary on y2k tonight. Can't believe it's been fifteen years. Where does the time go. I remember that particular New Years pretty well, we went to my grandmother's house and I never put down my stuffed Pikachu the whole time. I had just got him a week before and he was already my best friend.
Speaking of plush, my Amaura plush went missing??? He just hangs out on my shelf, so I'm mystified as to how he could be gone. It made me pretty sad to see Tyrantrum just hanging out alone without his buddy :/ Even looked around in other people's rooms to see if they picked him up for some reason, but he's nowhere. It doesn't make sense. But at least it was one that I can go replace in Target and not an old or rare one.
I began 2014 inside the building where I work, and looks like that's exactly where I'll be when it ends. This marks the first year where I am employed at the same place on January 1st and December 31st of the same year. Weird, because I worked at my first job for nearly two years, and the second for over a year, and yet I just hadn't worked one entire calendar year from day 1 to 365 at the same place. I kinda meant to get another job all year, but now I'm kinda holding off searching for a new job until we're moved and settled. I need stability right now.
Also, in the four and a half years we've been together, we've only ever shared a single new years kiss. How sad is that. But for the last two I've been working overnights, sooo yeah. Bb left a while back to visit his college town and friends, and then he's going to see some other friends and do a bit of partying for the new year. I guess it's better than him being alone at home.
My brother's voice is starting to change. Weirds me out that his will change before mine does.
We got a box in the mail, but it wasn't Little Mac. Guess he's gonna wait until the new year to come home. I know he's in the state, just a matter of getting here. The website says that Charlotte has "received electronic shipment information" so... not sure if it's actually in Charlotte yet or not? I'm not actually sure if the mail runs tomorrow or not, but the estimate said Saturday so I'm expecting him to arrive on Friday. :D My reward from club nintendo hasn't even shipped yet, to my knowledge. But I guess it was free, so. I'm not too worried.
They left my grandma's dog outside with no food or water when they left this morning, I realized when I got out of bed. :/ she's inside now of course since they're home, but I gave her water and let her come inside a couple times to nibble food if she wanted.
Watching a documentary on y2k tonight. Can't believe it's been fifteen years. Where does the time go. I remember that particular New Years pretty well, we went to my grandmother's house and I never put down my stuffed Pikachu the whole time. I had just got him a week before and he was already my best friend.
Speaking of plush, my Amaura plush went missing??? He just hangs out on my shelf, so I'm mystified as to how he could be gone. It made me pretty sad to see Tyrantrum just hanging out alone without his buddy :/ Even looked around in other people's rooms to see if they picked him up for some reason, but he's nowhere. It doesn't make sense. But at least it was one that I can go replace in Target and not an old or rare one.
So my gamecube is refusing to read Wind Waker, I guess I'll try again later. I'm almost positive it's my system and not the disc, since it sometimes stops reading or fails to read discs anyway. [I think the motor must be about dead. Gonna ask save point if they can replace that kinda thing, since they mentioned they could replace the speakers in my old GBC.]
Pokemon channel is.... not super great? >_> i didn't play around very much but it seemed like I was stuck at the beginning just watching these [QUITE SHITTY] pretend tv shows with pikachu and couldn't really do anything else. It's supposed to be along the same lines as Hey You Pikachu, a game which gets pretty low reviews, but personally I remember that one being substantially more fun and interesting than this one. They're both aimed at much smaller kids than the typical Pokemon game, but I rarely feel bored and disinterested like that when playing something pkmn related. Sadness. But I gotta have all pokemon games released for every console I have, so it's ok, I'm still glad to have it. :>
What else is going on? Christmas party at my work tomorrow, I'm actually planning on being there during the day... I get paid tomorrow so I'm gonna go do xmas shopping and probably then go out from there to my work, because I have to bring a present for my secret santa. Gotta turn in the service tickets they handed out to people all autumn, get a quarter for each one. I have enough saved up for almost a free hour's pay, lol. Too bad I don't quite have $10 worth, then I could just get a roll of quarters.
Work last night was harrrddd. For like the third week in a row they sprung two extra hours on me, so I worked two ten hour shifts in two days. Gonna just start expecting to be stuck there until 6 on both Sunday and Monday mornings now. As much as that sucks. Also, I requested off for Solstice over a month ago [since they changed the rule to where you have to ask off an entire month in advance] and didn't get it off. What is the point of making us ask off a month in advance if we don't even get the day off??? So I asked my boss and she just said "oh, I lost the schedule book so I don't know what anyone asked off" like... really? So you were just going to not worry about everyone's requests off for the rest of the year then?? Ugh. So now I have to try and switch with someone like it's a last minute thing and not a religious holiday that I asked off for a month ago. I guess I should have mentioned it was a religious thing, then I wouldn't have had to deal with this, but it's a bit too late now. I guess it's a good thing I didn't make any Solstice plans like I was wanting to actually do this year. -^-
Interesting stuff happened last night too. A lot of police activity at work in the span of like one hour. Second shift manager finally left at like 1, but... his ride got arrested for getting high in the parking lot, then HE got in trouble for an unpaid speeding ticket and got his license taken away... and THEN we had to bring the cops inside because of someone sleeping in the lobby all night and refusing to leave when asked. And THEN we almost had to bring them OUTSIDE because that group of dumb guys came through who I guess occasionally get a wild hair and decide to harass drive thrus, not actually order any food just do stupid shit and yell into our speakers. I was this close to interrupting my manager talking to them and be like "Y'ALL KNOW WE HAVE COPS IN THE BUILDING RIGHT NOW." But I didn't and they drove off. I regret it, because they'll probably be back and there most likely won't be handy cops nearby this time.
I saw Arty rooting around in his water dish so I replaced it with fresh water, and he took a bath! ;w; He almost never does that, you have to find him in just the right mood and put water in a plate for him in order for him to bathe usually. It was so cute and his feathers are still wet. ;w;
Last night during the rougher parts, found myself chanting the rose has teeth in the mouth of a beast under my breath. It's from a song by Matmos, but it's redolent with meaning for me, though I don't quite understand what that meaning is. I'm working on a sigil for it, since that seems to be what my hands find themselves doing when idle nowadays.
Glad for a day off. Gonna keep working on this notebook. It's already turning out well.
Pokemon channel is.... not super great? >_> i didn't play around very much but it seemed like I was stuck at the beginning just watching these [QUITE SHITTY] pretend tv shows with pikachu and couldn't really do anything else. It's supposed to be along the same lines as Hey You Pikachu, a game which gets pretty low reviews, but personally I remember that one being substantially more fun and interesting than this one. They're both aimed at much smaller kids than the typical Pokemon game, but I rarely feel bored and disinterested like that when playing something pkmn related. Sadness. But I gotta have all pokemon games released for every console I have, so it's ok, I'm still glad to have it. :>
What else is going on? Christmas party at my work tomorrow, I'm actually planning on being there during the day... I get paid tomorrow so I'm gonna go do xmas shopping and probably then go out from there to my work, because I have to bring a present for my secret santa. Gotta turn in the service tickets they handed out to people all autumn, get a quarter for each one. I have enough saved up for almost a free hour's pay, lol. Too bad I don't quite have $10 worth, then I could just get a roll of quarters.
Work last night was harrrddd. For like the third week in a row they sprung two extra hours on me, so I worked two ten hour shifts in two days. Gonna just start expecting to be stuck there until 6 on both Sunday and Monday mornings now. As much as that sucks. Also, I requested off for Solstice over a month ago [since they changed the rule to where you have to ask off an entire month in advance] and didn't get it off. What is the point of making us ask off a month in advance if we don't even get the day off??? So I asked my boss and she just said "oh, I lost the schedule book so I don't know what anyone asked off" like... really? So you were just going to not worry about everyone's requests off for the rest of the year then?? Ugh. So now I have to try and switch with someone like it's a last minute thing and not a religious holiday that I asked off for a month ago. I guess I should have mentioned it was a religious thing, then I wouldn't have had to deal with this, but it's a bit too late now. I guess it's a good thing I didn't make any Solstice plans like I was wanting to actually do this year. -^-
Interesting stuff happened last night too. A lot of police activity at work in the span of like one hour. Second shift manager finally left at like 1, but... his ride got arrested for getting high in the parking lot, then HE got in trouble for an unpaid speeding ticket and got his license taken away... and THEN we had to bring the cops inside because of someone sleeping in the lobby all night and refusing to leave when asked. And THEN we almost had to bring them OUTSIDE because that group of dumb guys came through who I guess occasionally get a wild hair and decide to harass drive thrus, not actually order any food just do stupid shit and yell into our speakers. I was this close to interrupting my manager talking to them and be like "Y'ALL KNOW WE HAVE COPS IN THE BUILDING RIGHT NOW." But I didn't and they drove off. I regret it, because they'll probably be back and there most likely won't be handy cops nearby this time.
I saw Arty rooting around in his water dish so I replaced it with fresh water, and he took a bath! ;w; He almost never does that, you have to find him in just the right mood and put water in a plate for him in order for him to bathe usually. It was so cute and his feathers are still wet. ;w;
Last night during the rougher parts, found myself chanting the rose has teeth in the mouth of a beast under my breath. It's from a song by Matmos, but it's redolent with meaning for me, though I don't quite understand what that meaning is. I'm working on a sigil for it, since that seems to be what my hands find themselves doing when idle nowadays.
Glad for a day off. Gonna keep working on this notebook. It's already turning out well.
ten years ago today, i was freed. six months of living imprisoned in my house, no internet to reach out to when i didn't feel safe. cut off from my boyfriend at the time, to whom i was quite unhealthily attached, but didn't know a better way to go about a relationship.
i was 13. now i'm 23. quite a different person, but also exactly the same. funny how life goes, isn't it?
i was gonna say nothing going on, but actually that's not true at all! today we went to save point games because i saw on facebook that they had some old Tomys in of oldschool pokemon. if only i could have brought them ALL home, they had about 30 and only a few duplicates. but too expensive, so i got 5. slowpoke, slowbro, pidgey, pidgeot, and a non-Tomy, a Nidoqueen from 1999 BK promo. AND... god i always spend too much money when i go there ugh i should not have, BUT... they had Wind Waker!!! and Pokemon Channel!!! so now my gamecube collection has grown to 5 games. :D not bad for 6 months since i got it. i'm gonna wait to play Wind Waker until tomorrow probably, but... omg. never played it before. can't wait to start ;w;
and right now talking to the stepsister on Skype about pokemon and it's p nice. it's good to talk to people sometimes. even though i am trying to work on this project.
which is, by the way, a onenote notebook for headworld. almost like an offline wiki. a big long list of stuff. hopefully it will work out. :D
i was 13. now i'm 23. quite a different person, but also exactly the same. funny how life goes, isn't it?
i was gonna say nothing going on, but actually that's not true at all! today we went to save point games because i saw on facebook that they had some old Tomys in of oldschool pokemon. if only i could have brought them ALL home, they had about 30 and only a few duplicates. but too expensive, so i got 5. slowpoke, slowbro, pidgey, pidgeot, and a non-Tomy, a Nidoqueen from 1999 BK promo. AND... god i always spend too much money when i go there ugh i should not have, BUT... they had Wind Waker!!! and Pokemon Channel!!! so now my gamecube collection has grown to 5 games. :D not bad for 6 months since i got it. i'm gonna wait to play Wind Waker until tomorrow probably, but... omg. never played it before. can't wait to start ;w;
and right now talking to the stepsister on Skype about pokemon and it's p nice. it's good to talk to people sometimes. even though i am trying to work on this project.
which is, by the way, a onenote notebook for headworld. almost like an offline wiki. a big long list of stuff. hopefully it will work out. :D
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Nov. 28th, 2014 06:26 pmso i guess with that, thanksgiving is now fully over. thank god i have been off work. that really was a blessing.
the meal included turkey, a HUGE fucking bowl of hand mashed potatoes, deviled eggs, cranberry sauce, rolls and stuffing. it seemed like it was missing something, but i couldn't really put my finger on what. the mashed potatoes and deviled eggs were on POINT. my mom is weird because she doesn't like eggs and won't eat them, except deviled eggs, and she makes THE BEST deviled eggs on the face of the planet. i love them so damn much and try to replicate hers every time i make them. [i make pretty mean deviled eggs myself, mostly because I go from her recipe. but i can never quite get the pickle/pickle juice ratio quite right. also, i added avocado once and it turned out fantastic, you should try that.]
and then we had the EFFING SIX PIES, which included blueberry pie [basically a cobbler in pie form], pecan pie [which i didn't eat], pumpkin pie [made from frozen, still perfect and delicious], this lemon stuff that my mom was calling lemon delight or turkish delight after the dessert in the Narnia books [super super good], oreo dream pie [made from frozen and HEAVENLY, tastes a lot like the chess pie stuff at golden corral but not quite as good], and one single left over piece of bb's sweet potato pie from yesterday, LOL. piegiving.
ya. so. i've already played my animal crossing for the day, and some smash bros too. and now i think i will make some progress in pokemon because the ORAS postgame is REALLY EXCITING!!! and also bb agreed to trade legendaries with me because the ones I don't have [to include Reshiram, Ho-oh, and possibly also Palkia, not sure on that] are in his version and his idea of catching 'em all just means pokedex entries, whereas mine means possessing them all at once. so we're both happy. 8D this is far better than my other option, which was just to put them up for trade and hope the one i got was real and not a hacked 'mon.
ALSO LATIAS AAAA I NEED TO MEET HER
one of those 'two hours left til work but i'm already overcome with anxiety and unable to do anything except watch the clock and dread' kinda evenings.
little brother is here and it's obnoxious as always. slamming doors, yelling at his videogame, bragging to himself as if he's talking to someone else about how great he's doing while barging loudly into the kitchen to eat some food... the usual. i wish bb was here, it feels like a snuggly day. this is the last weekend of ren festival, he'll be home a lot more after this, which is nice.
been playing alpha sapphire, i'm now two badges in and in Slateport City. the music is fantastic, i was so excited to hear how they'd remix the theme for this place in particular. the theme for Slateport City is one of my favorite themes in all of the franchise, it's so upbeat and jolly, i love it.
my team so far is... really really grass-heavy. >_> but it's still very much a work in progress. we have Lucky*Star the shroomish, Ch'ra the grovyle, Morrow the poochyena, and Perfume the Lombre. all right around level 20 at the moment. with the addition of a temporary team member, an unnamed Nincada who i'm training up to be a secondary HM slave [Perfume is the main HM slave in the planning] and to pop out a shedinja when it evolves. :'D no word yet on whether we'll actually use the Shedinja. but i've never owned one, and it would be really cool. it's definitely one of my favorite bug types.
there are way too many more pokes i'd like to train up and only two more open slots, one of which will probably be occupied by Latias when she shows up! >_< i want to train Lileep, Whismur, Aron... agh. oh also, Morrow knows Thunder Fang. i worked v hard to sneak up on her in the wild. :'D
as for my computer... i have almost everything i need downloaded on it as far as apps. not going to bother downloading any art programs until i can afford a tablet, though. eventually i want to get Sony Vegas so i can start making youtube videos. :3
i have been neglecting my tethers to headspace in the last few days, which i know well is one of the main sources of my stress and anxiety buildup, but... on the other hand, i got all the dirty clothes out of the floor, picked up a ton of trash and got that out of the room, and moved pretty much all the miscellaneous stuff off the table/desk and into where they need to be! so i got rid of the majority of the clutter.
my phone charger is falling apart >_>' it made a weird popping noise earlier when i dropped my phone while charging. no bueno. the cable is splitting and fraying at the end where you plug it in. i'm kinda glad i got that other one, because otherwise that would be the only phone charger for both of us to use here.
tried to introduce my ipod to my new computer and my ipod freaked out and froze. i just noticed that it finally just now shut off, not sure if the battery died or what. but it had been frozen for like 5 hours. this is the same thing it did when i tried to introduce it to my other computers. i'm plugging it in again, let's see what happens.... YAY it worked! omg! i don't know what i did differently this time, but whatever, it worked and now i can sync it. i don't have to worry about the battery having run out since i had to let it die, because it charges on the shitty, shitty dock that i bought for it for my car, haha. i hate that fucking thing, gonna go back to FM transmitter as soon as possible, but at least this one charges the ipod.
i apparently have to erase all the music on it again and re-sync, but whatever. i've had to do this like 2 other times this year since i got the thing, but this should be the last time that happens. :3
mmm. i might make some coffee. i've been too lazy [depressed?] to re-fill the water thing for a few days. i might ask bb to do that while i'm at work. but i've just been drinking really shitty soda all day today, not good. although ALL of the freaking cups are hoarded in my sister's room sans like 1 that i'm literally hiding in my room for fear it will get hoarded too. sooo drinking anything is hard in this stupid house right now. you know, the idea of leaving is scary, but there's soooo much i'll be grateful for no longer putting up with, like people hoarding dishes.
man, when it comes down to stuff that i don't feel safe posting about publicly, it takes a LOT of content out of what i generally write about. but then again i doubt anyone would even want to read that stuff anyway. so.
hello from my new laptop!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D
i could not be more excited ;w; i've spent hours and hours in gmod today, ON MY OWN COMPUTER, SMOOTH AS BUTTER, ABSOLUTELY AMAZING. minecraft... had a bit of a harder time, actually! i was surprised! it's totally playable, but i expected to be able to set the render distance higher than i'm able to. but no problem at all, it's completely playable.
oh! and man it's a REALLY GOOD THING that i had the presence of mind to save my copy of ZenWriter to my external hard drive years ago, and it's a good thing that ZW is such a simple app that there's no need for an installation wizard - you can literally just put the executable file in its folder anywhere you like and run it just like that. BECAUSE... i went to just install it fresh, and on the bottom it said "trial version, 15 days left" - say WHAAAAT! i am NOT paying 18 dollars for such a simple app. like, that made me almost mad enough to start learning how to program my own damn word processing apps!!! like i'm going to pay almost a half a tank of gas just to have THIS SUPER DUPER SIMPLE word processor. i bet i could write it myself. but instead i was smart and cunning, and saved it to my external hard drive. so no worries. -v-
four hours until we go to walmart for ORAS!!!! and we get the figures!!! oh my goodnessssss i'm so hella excited *w* anytime i get a new pokemon game is A SUPER SPECIAL OCCASION. and i didn't get XY until three months or so after they came out, which is a travesty considering they turned out to be my favorite games so far! so i'm making up for it with the rest of gen 6, if i can help it when Z/X2Y2/whatever comes out next year or so. and yes, ORAS is part of gen 6. even though it's a remake of a gen 3 game. so sayeth me. :P
so the keyboard on my new laptop is of course 100% functional, as it very well should be, BUT, i find i'm quite comfortable typing with the standalone keyboard, so i'm keeping the plug handy whenever i feel like typing large amounts of text. god i missed this so much ;o;
i'm finally starting to figure out windows 8.1. i guess i don't HATE the start screen like i thought i would. i think having a year-ish to get used to the idea of mobile OS, with my tablet and phone [they run Android, not Windows, but ya know] was a big help for me. otherwise i might never have adjusted to the changes and resented 8.1 for not being just like 98/XP/vista like i'd been used to.
i was thinking about my rough timeline of windows usage. i think it went about like this:
- i had experience with stuff like DOS before, but my first ever experience was with windows 3.1 when i was really small. that was the time of the BBS and Trellis and all that
- my very first personal computer = hand me down running windows 95. i probably inherited it around 98 or 99.
- 2002-3? until 2009 = windows XP. not sure what the computer was running before then - probably 98 since i don't remember us ever owning windows 2000/NT/ME? - but i remember my dad installing windows XP on it in my newer bedroom.
- 2009-2014 = vista on my first ever laptop. i first encountered vista in the kitchen computer in 08.
- present = windows 8.1 on my second laptop. i skipped windows 7 completely, my only experience with it has been on bb's laptop which i used occasionally for gaming and not much else.
i'm hearing that windows 9 [which they are calling... windows 10?... i don't even know] is coming out soon and will be available as a free upgrade to people running windows 8.1, so i'm ok with this! i'm actually surprisingly comfy with 8.1, so far anyway. i haven't found any reason to hate it yet.
the only thing that's bugged me is the way the help articles are set up, to advise you what to do using touch screens, and then [in parentheses, tells you what to do if you're using a mouse]. it's a stark reminder that windows 8.1 is made primarily for mobile or partially mobile platforms, and running a mobile OS on a laptop or desktop just doesn't... seem quite right. i mean, it seems like this runs fine on this device so far, but i don't like the idea of a fully fledged PC that's running a mobile OS.
ok. so, before i strain my eyes from staring at this bright screen any longer, i'm going to run the ORAS demo two more times [bc i heard somewhere that you should play it at least ten times for the total rewards or something], get something to eat, probably play animal crossing and stuff, and bring the new LJ account up to date. :3
remember the fifth of november... we have our own reason for remembering, for this too was a day of betrayal and treason for us. one year ago, we had to go into a period of hiding for two months. we had no smart devices then, so our internet access was cut off and we were left trapped for a while. it was, in some ways, rather fun and sharpened our skills. a time of secrecy, a time of lying in wait. but we wouldn't go through it again. never forget what happened a year ago, and why we have not let our guard down since that day.
a moth or something flew into our lamp, it's burning up and the room smells like smoke. :S
some things that have happened in the last couple of days:
- realized that it's going to be very hard, or maybe impossible, to go to the renaissance festival this year. and even if i can manage to go, 90% chance i'll have to get there late and leave early. not going is not an option, i will be heartbroken and furious if i can't make it at all. i doubt i will get a friday/saturday off this month so i can go with bb... so i'll have to manage to find someone who will drive and who is ok with showing up late and leaving early... :/ :/ :/
- today i just sat down and drew. two finished pieces straight in a row. simple ones, first Mandibuzz and then Porygon-Z, but i churned them out so quickly and they look pretty good, particularly Mandibuzz.
- my car needs some maintenance. all i really know is the engine is bumping rhythmically, which says to me it's probably a spark plug. which is fine bc A: i have some laying around and B: bb seems confident he knows how to change them. i guess i'll let him try, maybe tomorrow. also i need to get some oil in it.
- at work the night before last i jammed the SHIT out of my right middle finger, so hard i thought for a few minutes that i might have cracked the bone. basically i was leaned in there and stuck the tip of my finger up into the bottom of a grid in the fry well, to try and get rid of an errant fry that was stuck in there. well, turns out the grid was smaller than expected, and kinda 'trapped' the very tip of my finger a little bit. and i didn't slip my finger back out all the way before i pulled myself back up to go do something else. so what happened was i WRENCHED my fingertip really badly between the two bars. my fingernail took the brunt of the force, and it's still tender and bruised two days later. when i wrenched it really bad i felt/heard a crack, which is why i kinda thought for a second i might have broken it, that combined with the intense pain! but i think it's fine, just sore and bruised. i think the crack was just the tendon/ligament in that joint popping, that's all.
i have only about 15 pages left in the art book i'm currently using. Jewel is in the very beginning of this sketchbook, so i know for a fact i finished this within this year. the earliest date i can see written down is in July, about a quarter of the way through the book. i believe i started it in the spring, so i've gone through a whole sketchbook in roughly six months. that's the first time that's happened in AGES and i want to give myself a THOUSAND PATS ON THE BACK. i'm not kidding, this is a definite sign of improvement, a huge sign that my artistic mojo is coming back, i'm definitely becoming healthier and i need to keep the ball rolling. the last sketchbook took me TWO YEARS to use up, i used to go through 10-12 of these a year. I'M COMING BACK, BABY~
also thinking of tearing out the best pages, they are made so you can do that. and putting them in my portfolio thing that i got at target. because i haven't really used that yet.
i have several hundred dollars in my bank account because i managed to make it to payday only spending half of my check. YAS. i could, technically, go buy my computer RIGHT NOW most likely. @u@ but i will wait. because my next paycheck will be like two days before ORAS comes out aaahhhh!! READY. also because i need to, you know, make it until next check and i might break my bank between the computer and gas/bills and such. xD tryin to get better at saving money. doing my best. i need to have a bunch saved up even after i get my computer bought sdlfkjsdlfkjsldkfj
another thing that happened!!!
so the new pokemon tcg set, Phantom Forces, came out i think yesterday. or within the last few days at least. and while we were out investigating a MTG store that bb and i just discovered, i bought a booster pack of the new set on a whim. not at the card store because [like every card store, sigh] they don't carry pokemon on the shelf. although the guy did offer to order a booster box for me cheap if i went through him. but anyway, after we went there i bought a pack at walmart. i skipped through all the Mega Manectric packs in the front and grabbed the first Mega Gengar in line. because spoopy. wandered through walmart for a while - got approached by some random teenage boys and fled and lost a TON of social spoons all in one go because something about them just scared the piss out of me, even though they weren't REALLY suspicious, they just seemed to want to tell a stupid joke to my boyfriend and me - and finally got back to the car, pretty tired. decided to open the pack right there and -- HOLY SHITBALLS. full art Malamar ex staring me in the face. @___@ in the FIRST PACK i randomly grab at walmart?!?!?! on the first day it was released??? that was like THE card i would have wanted the most out of every ultra rare. because Malamar. Mambooooo <3 holy shit y'all. it's so beautiful.
BUT SRSLY. this on top of my slow gradually growing interest in serious collection of the tcg sets, and maybe even playing the game. i feel good vibes about Phantom Forces. and i decided that, if i can make it happen, Phantom Forces should be the first set that i try to complete, and therefore i should get a booster box! just getting really nice vibes after that amazing first pull. AND just a while before that happened, the guy at that card store offered to sell me a cheap booster box?! feels like ~DESTINY~
but ya. booster boxes usually run about a hundred bucks. but if the guy is willing to do like 20% off i'll TAKE that. heck yeah.
so as far as pkmntcg goes, my plan kinda goes like this: buy computer [and AS], have ~100 to blow afterward, order Phantom Forces box from this game store, that way i can film myself opening it and post it to youtube! posting it to youtube now would be a pain in the butt and i could do much better with a brand new computer to operate from. so. it will wait until then for many reasons. i'm not really planning on becoming a tcg youtuber or whatever. but why not add to the videos i've been watching so many of lately?? :D
i've gotten like HELLA DEEPLY into pokemon this year. like. wow. pokemon nonstop at every turn. i've been into it always, of course, but it seems like since X and Y came out last fall, and since January when i finally played it myself, it's become like POKEMON OBSESSION 2.0 for me. but this time as an adult with an income of sorts. @u@ i am totally ok with this.
AND THEN NINTENDO DROPS A FUCKING BOMB UPON MY FACE BECAUSE F HKASDJADSFLJKASDLJF FUCKING MAJORA'S MASK 3DS. FINALLY. FINALLY IT'S HAPPENING. OH M YGOD. I hate almost lost hope, always thought it had a strong chance but was never quite sure... THEN IT HAPPENS. Holy fucking shit.
no. y'all don't understand. no one will understand the effect this game had upon me. i loved OoT, played the hell out of it, but THIS GAME. This game. oh my lord. i'm going to watch the trailer again because i recognized EVERY location shown in the reworked footage. it's clearly pretty early on in development, they had a mix of old footage/audio in with the new because i guess they simply didn't have enough all new material. but like... random stuff like a corner of the astronomy tower, i immediately recognized it. the roof of the farm house, immediately knew where it was. a random room in the maze in the southern swamp, recognized it. yes. yeeesss. MAJORA'S MASK IS FINALLY HAPPENIIIIIINNNNNGGGGGGGGG i cannot believe it
does this mean i should work on finishing OoT3D? I've never finished OoT, believe it or not. i've actually never even finished majora's mask. i got to the second battle with Majora and ran out of arrows and health, and ran out of energy and never tried again. should i play through it over the winter? or would it be better to not play it at all and let the anticipation build?
man. by spring, i'll probably be out of the house. i HAVE to have that $50ish put away for majora's mask. i'd really like to spring for some kind of bundle pack, because on christmas 2000 i got a bundle pack with the original majora's mask, so it'd be fun to repeat that... it's a shame they 99% likely won't make a special colored cartridge for the remake. i got the special gold n64 cartridge with the lentricular "3D" design on it, looking at it right now. [to be fair, most people did, i've rarely seen a regular looking majora's mask cartridge that wasn't gold and 3D, but it was special to me]. i wish they would start making colorful game cartridges like they did with pokemon on GBC.
oh man, if it's coming out in May... BEST BIRTHDAY PRESENT. B E S T. if i know Nintendo it'll be more like March though. BEST BIRTHDAY PRESENT FOR... my boyfriend who's never played it? nah LOL.
with this announcement i kinda get the feeling that there may be a new handheld console in the works/that the 3DS's lifespan is coming to a close. mostly because i distinctly remember that OoT was one of the earliest releases in the n64's lifespan, and MM was one of the latest... and OoT3D was very early in the 3DS's lifespan, so now several years later they're announcing MM3D? really not sure that's a coincidence!
ugh the mother's in the kitchen right now and i'm so excited and i want to just jump out into the kitchen and tell her that Majora's Mask, a game she played the hell out of too, a game she admitted to buying half for me and half for herself in the first place back in 2000, our cartridge which still carries her game data on it 14 years later, is being remade. i want to share that happiness with her! but guess what? it will only dampen my happiness, because i know she'll just say "oh. cool." and won't care. at least i know now before i even bother to try? :/
a moth or something flew into our lamp, it's burning up and the room smells like smoke. :S
some things that have happened in the last couple of days:
- realized that it's going to be very hard, or maybe impossible, to go to the renaissance festival this year. and even if i can manage to go, 90% chance i'll have to get there late and leave early. not going is not an option, i will be heartbroken and furious if i can't make it at all. i doubt i will get a friday/saturday off this month so i can go with bb... so i'll have to manage to find someone who will drive and who is ok with showing up late and leaving early... :/ :/ :/
- today i just sat down and drew. two finished pieces straight in a row. simple ones, first Mandibuzz and then Porygon-Z, but i churned them out so quickly and they look pretty good, particularly Mandibuzz.
- my car needs some maintenance. all i really know is the engine is bumping rhythmically, which says to me it's probably a spark plug. which is fine bc A: i have some laying around and B: bb seems confident he knows how to change them. i guess i'll let him try, maybe tomorrow. also i need to get some oil in it.
- at work the night before last i jammed the SHIT out of my right middle finger, so hard i thought for a few minutes that i might have cracked the bone. basically i was leaned in there and stuck the tip of my finger up into the bottom of a grid in the fry well, to try and get rid of an errant fry that was stuck in there. well, turns out the grid was smaller than expected, and kinda 'trapped' the very tip of my finger a little bit. and i didn't slip my finger back out all the way before i pulled myself back up to go do something else. so what happened was i WRENCHED my fingertip really badly between the two bars. my fingernail took the brunt of the force, and it's still tender and bruised two days later. when i wrenched it really bad i felt/heard a crack, which is why i kinda thought for a second i might have broken it, that combined with the intense pain! but i think it's fine, just sore and bruised. i think the crack was just the tendon/ligament in that joint popping, that's all.
i have only about 15 pages left in the art book i'm currently using. Jewel is in the very beginning of this sketchbook, so i know for a fact i finished this within this year. the earliest date i can see written down is in July, about a quarter of the way through the book. i believe i started it in the spring, so i've gone through a whole sketchbook in roughly six months. that's the first time that's happened in AGES and i want to give myself a THOUSAND PATS ON THE BACK. i'm not kidding, this is a definite sign of improvement, a huge sign that my artistic mojo is coming back, i'm definitely becoming healthier and i need to keep the ball rolling. the last sketchbook took me TWO YEARS to use up, i used to go through 10-12 of these a year. I'M COMING BACK, BABY~
also thinking of tearing out the best pages, they are made so you can do that. and putting them in my portfolio thing that i got at target. because i haven't really used that yet.
i have several hundred dollars in my bank account because i managed to make it to payday only spending half of my check. YAS. i could, technically, go buy my computer RIGHT NOW most likely. @u@ but i will wait. because my next paycheck will be like two days before ORAS comes out aaahhhh!! READY. also because i need to, you know, make it until next check and i might break my bank between the computer and gas/bills and such. xD tryin to get better at saving money. doing my best. i need to have a bunch saved up even after i get my computer bought sdlfkjsdlfkjsldkfj
another thing that happened!!!
so the new pokemon tcg set, Phantom Forces, came out i think yesterday. or within the last few days at least. and while we were out investigating a MTG store that bb and i just discovered, i bought a booster pack of the new set on a whim. not at the card store because [like every card store, sigh] they don't carry pokemon on the shelf. although the guy did offer to order a booster box for me cheap if i went through him. but anyway, after we went there i bought a pack at walmart. i skipped through all the Mega Manectric packs in the front and grabbed the first Mega Gengar in line. because spoopy. wandered through walmart for a while - got approached by some random teenage boys and fled and lost a TON of social spoons all in one go because something about them just scared the piss out of me, even though they weren't REALLY suspicious, they just seemed to want to tell a stupid joke to my boyfriend and me - and finally got back to the car, pretty tired. decided to open the pack right there and -- HOLY SHITBALLS. full art Malamar ex staring me in the face. @___@ in the FIRST PACK i randomly grab at walmart?!?!?! on the first day it was released??? that was like THE card i would have wanted the most out of every ultra rare. because Malamar. Mambooooo <3 holy shit y'all. it's so beautiful.
BUT SRSLY. this on top of my slow gradually growing interest in serious collection of the tcg sets, and maybe even playing the game. i feel good vibes about Phantom Forces. and i decided that, if i can make it happen, Phantom Forces should be the first set that i try to complete, and therefore i should get a booster box! just getting really nice vibes after that amazing first pull. AND just a while before that happened, the guy at that card store offered to sell me a cheap booster box?! feels like ~DESTINY~
but ya. booster boxes usually run about a hundred bucks. but if the guy is willing to do like 20% off i'll TAKE that. heck yeah.
so as far as pkmntcg goes, my plan kinda goes like this: buy computer [and AS], have ~100 to blow afterward, order Phantom Forces box from this game store, that way i can film myself opening it and post it to youtube! posting it to youtube now would be a pain in the butt and i could do much better with a brand new computer to operate from. so. it will wait until then for many reasons. i'm not really planning on becoming a tcg youtuber or whatever. but why not add to the videos i've been watching so many of lately?? :D
i've gotten like HELLA DEEPLY into pokemon this year. like. wow. pokemon nonstop at every turn. i've been into it always, of course, but it seems like since X and Y came out last fall, and since January when i finally played it myself, it's become like POKEMON OBSESSION 2.0 for me. but this time as an adult with an income of sorts. @u@ i am totally ok with this.
AND THEN NINTENDO DROPS A FUCKING BOMB UPON MY FACE BECAUSE F HKASDJADSFLJKASDLJF FUCKING MAJORA'S MASK 3DS. FINALLY. FINALLY IT'S HAPPENING. OH M YGOD. I hate almost lost hope, always thought it had a strong chance but was never quite sure... THEN IT HAPPENS. Holy fucking shit.
no. y'all don't understand. no one will understand the effect this game had upon me. i loved OoT, played the hell out of it, but THIS GAME. This game. oh my lord. i'm going to watch the trailer again because i recognized EVERY location shown in the reworked footage. it's clearly pretty early on in development, they had a mix of old footage/audio in with the new because i guess they simply didn't have enough all new material. but like... random stuff like a corner of the astronomy tower, i immediately recognized it. the roof of the farm house, immediately knew where it was. a random room in the maze in the southern swamp, recognized it. yes. yeeesss. MAJORA'S MASK IS FINALLY HAPPENIIIIIINNNNNGGGGGGGGG i cannot believe it
does this mean i should work on finishing OoT3D? I've never finished OoT, believe it or not. i've actually never even finished majora's mask. i got to the second battle with Majora and ran out of arrows and health, and ran out of energy and never tried again. should i play through it over the winter? or would it be better to not play it at all and let the anticipation build?
man. by spring, i'll probably be out of the house. i HAVE to have that $50ish put away for majora's mask. i'd really like to spring for some kind of bundle pack, because on christmas 2000 i got a bundle pack with the original majora's mask, so it'd be fun to repeat that... it's a shame they 99% likely won't make a special colored cartridge for the remake. i got the special gold n64 cartridge with the lentricular "3D" design on it, looking at it right now. [to be fair, most people did, i've rarely seen a regular looking majora's mask cartridge that wasn't gold and 3D, but it was special to me]. i wish they would start making colorful game cartridges like they did with pokemon on GBC.
oh man, if it's coming out in May... BEST BIRTHDAY PRESENT. B E S T. if i know Nintendo it'll be more like March though. BEST BIRTHDAY PRESENT FOR... my boyfriend who's never played it? nah LOL.
with this announcement i kinda get the feeling that there may be a new handheld console in the works/that the 3DS's lifespan is coming to a close. mostly because i distinctly remember that OoT was one of the earliest releases in the n64's lifespan, and MM was one of the latest... and OoT3D was very early in the 3DS's lifespan, so now several years later they're announcing MM3D? really not sure that's a coincidence!
ugh the mother's in the kitchen right now and i'm so excited and i want to just jump out into the kitchen and tell her that Majora's Mask, a game she played the hell out of too, a game she admitted to buying half for me and half for herself in the first place back in 2000, our cartridge which still carries her game data on it 14 years later, is being remade. i want to share that happiness with her! but guess what? it will only dampen my happiness, because i know she'll just say "oh. cool." and won't care. at least i know now before i even bother to try? :/
i don't even have words for how bad last night was. not counting shifts where i was abused by management, that was definitely THE WORST work shift i've ever had in my life. i'm not even going to go into detail. it was so bad i'd just rather forget it. i have to somehow do ten hours tonight after that happened yesterday.
i woke up and don't feel rested, don't feel separated from last night's horrible events. not good. gonna play drakan and immerse myself in fantasy and kill some baddies for a while.
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Hey all! Apostrophe here! Ollie's not having a really good time so I came out and gonna eat cupcakes and pizza and drink fruit punch because I WANNA! And maybe it will help us relax. I think I'm gonna watch Pokemon B&W, but I have to wear headphones or something or else the brother will come in here and I don't even know the guy, much less want to talk to him, haha.
ANYWAY! I decided that I have an Eevee. Or I will have one. I haven't found them yet, but I'm gonna catch one! I feel like it might even be a /special/ Eevee. :D
Pokemon heals us as always. I'm a new member of this System but there's definitely inherent knowledge of that. Just looking at pictures of them and thinking about them helps a ton.
Yep, I think the body is finally starting to feel better. Ollie didn't believe me that a little sugar would help, but it doooes~!
so we FINALLY watched the Eevee and Friends special that's been out for like a year. oh god it's so cute ;w; it's so great to see all the eeveelutions together at once. just a silly cute little special. <3
egh, it was like that little emotional lift from pokemon was only temporary, because now we feel like poop again because work is coming. the idea of having to do ten hours when i haven't recovered from the nightmare that was last night makes me wanna curl up in a ball and cry. the tension in my head all day is the inevitable stress headache, i can already feel it starting when i shake my head around. nothing can stop it, it will snowball until i take medicine. buuuut i'm out of headache medicine. i knew this would happen eventually. i'm really really sleepy and tired and work is the last place i wanna be right now. =_=
[postscript: i felt AWFUL going into work but caffeine and good company and a mellow night helped me actually come out of the shift feeling better than i did going in, which is the opposite of how it usually goes]
i woke up and don't feel rested, don't feel separated from last night's horrible events. not good. gonna play drakan and immerse myself in fantasy and kill some baddies for a while.
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Hey all! Apostrophe here! Ollie's not having a really good time so I came out and gonna eat cupcakes and pizza and drink fruit punch because I WANNA! And maybe it will help us relax. I think I'm gonna watch Pokemon B&W, but I have to wear headphones or something or else the brother will come in here and I don't even know the guy, much less want to talk to him, haha.
ANYWAY! I decided that I have an Eevee. Or I will have one. I haven't found them yet, but I'm gonna catch one! I feel like it might even be a /special/ Eevee. :D
Pokemon heals us as always. I'm a new member of this System but there's definitely inherent knowledge of that. Just looking at pictures of them and thinking about them helps a ton.
Yep, I think the body is finally starting to feel better. Ollie didn't believe me that a little sugar would help, but it doooes~!
so we FINALLY watched the Eevee and Friends special that's been out for like a year. oh god it's so cute ;w; it's so great to see all the eeveelutions together at once. just a silly cute little special. <3
egh, it was like that little emotional lift from pokemon was only temporary, because now we feel like poop again because work is coming. the idea of having to do ten hours when i haven't recovered from the nightmare that was last night makes me wanna curl up in a ball and cry. the tension in my head all day is the inevitable stress headache, i can already feel it starting when i shake my head around. nothing can stop it, it will snowball until i take medicine. buuuut i'm out of headache medicine. i knew this would happen eventually. i'm really really sleepy and tired and work is the last place i wanna be right now. =_=
[postscript: i felt AWFUL going into work but caffeine and good company and a mellow night helped me actually come out of the shift feeling better than i did going in, which is the opposite of how it usually goes]
well, today's the day of the contest, but i guess i'm not going. :[ however i still need to get my ass out the house, so i'm gathering up my art supplies and finding somewhere to draw. update later.
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finally safe to be home again. i snuck my art supplies out around 1pm and fled to the library, where i... drew very little, but wrote some ideas down and read lots of animal books. i think i got some good ideas for the fanmade pokemon region that's been niggling at my brain for a couple of years. i didn't do enough reading, i wish i could have checked those books out but i owe too much money and bb didn't give me a copy of his library card.
but i took a chance, returned home at 5 and all was quiet. mostly. so i scavenged. i can't believe they didn't even have a cake. some birthday party. on my plate i have a few packets of starburst], some cheetos, those sugary autumn cookies, some mini brownie things with ghost sprinkles, and a cupcake. and some green punch in a spoopy cup with a spoopy straw. aw yeah. i love a good halloween party. and by that i mean i love missing the entire party and showing up later when everyone is gone to snarf up what's left over. i'm a vulture.
and apparently for the second time in as many weeks, someone let Murphy get out the door. i don't understand, he's never seemed like he wanted to escape anytime i've opened the door with him around, but somehow when i'm not here this keeps happening and it needs to quit. i'm pretty sure he will just show up sometime tonight like he did last time, especially once the sun goes down and it gets cold.... but. this needs to stop. really really soon. :/
just went out to search for him and found nothing, i know if he heard my voice he'd run right to me no matter what he was doing. so either he's not outside, or he's gone really far away, which i think is unlikely. hopefully he's in the house. either way i have hope that when the sun does down and it gets dark out, he'll come and ask to be let in again. /sigh
oh, i also got some little boxes of stickers, and PENCILS. yeeesss. spoopy pencils. and some SPARKLY PURPLE PENCILS. i'm regaining my love for traditional sharpening pencils, although mechanical pencils are just... better in almost every way, tbh. for a couple of years i insisted on using only Mirado Black Warrior pencils for my art, before i learned the ways of the mechanical pencil.
just gonna stay chipper because i can't go to work feeling anxious and sad and worried about Murphy. he likes his creature comforts a lot more than he likes adventuring outside, i think, and i halfway suspect he wasn't trying to get out but just followed someone out the door and couldn't get back in, which i think is what happened last time. when it gets dark and cold he'll go to the porch where he spent his early kittenhood and wait for the door to open.
they found Murphy, thank goodness. he was in fact outside. /sigh. i'm just glad he's asking to be let back in when he gets bored instead of wandering far. but now i think everyone sees him as a door dasher and will take measures to keep him from getting out now.
i've got an hour before work so HERE IS A LIST. because i love lists.
a list of things [mostly animals] that i want to incorporate into my pokemon region:
- starter theme: one bipedal, one quadrupedal and one with no feet [flippers, snake body, whatever]
- prehistoric mammals as the fossil pokemon? maybe more than usual [like 5-6 instead of 2 or 4?]
- either base it in ancient north america or [modern] australia/oceania
- i want to make a shark like pokemon that focuses on shark skin. because i learned today that shark scales are actually... almost indistinguishable from teeth. each scale has a core with a meaty pulp and nerve ending, just like a tooth, and sharks' teeth are basically just huge versions of their "dermal dentile" scales. ?!?!?! WTF
- cape legless skink, a 'false snake' or 'glass lizard' with an armored nose for shoveling and burrowing
- tapirs. none of that silly drowzee or munna shit. TAPIRS. spotty baby tapir that becomes big beast tapir.
- indricotherium??? thylacoleo???
- dirktooth cat. smaller and older than Smilodon, smaller teeth.
- rhinos. is there even a rhino pokemon yet? that's ridiculous. we need rhinos.
- regional bird could be either a parrot/cockatoo, or a cedar waxwing. yeh
- hell i could probably make two separate regions out of these, one australia region and one semi-prehistoric north america region.
- prehistoric whales. like Basilosaurus, Protocetus etc.
so on an outer life note... this week i just didn't show up at my volunteer job. mostly because from the experiences i had last Wednesday i was pretty sure there wasn't going to be anything left for me to come back to this week, but also i had been feeling like stopping it for some time and this was i guess an opportunity for a clean break. no one has called me, so i assume i was right in understanding that the cats and their holding area are gone. i'll find out the next time i have to go get crickets/mealworms.
gonna play animal crossing before i forget, i didn't play yesterday. i got one more gengar from gamestop! tomorrow's the last day, after that they're doing Diancie. i want one more Gengar, buuuut i guess i don't have to have one if i don't wanna bother to drive all the way to Matthews for it. i expect the Gengar codes will still work after the 26th, but i'll redeem them tomorrow just in case.
shit. looking over last week's entries and i just remembered Toy Soldier making those meaningful clockwork clicks and noises at me... damn. what with the awful news i got last night of the changing of the guard at work [which will be by NO means in my favor], that seems rather... timely. wonder if somehow he knew.
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finally safe to be home again. i snuck my art supplies out around 1pm and fled to the library, where i... drew very little, but wrote some ideas down and read lots of animal books. i think i got some good ideas for the fanmade pokemon region that's been niggling at my brain for a couple of years. i didn't do enough reading, i wish i could have checked those books out but i owe too much money and bb didn't give me a copy of his library card.
but i took a chance, returned home at 5 and all was quiet. mostly. so i scavenged. i can't believe they didn't even have a cake. some birthday party. on my plate i have a few packets of starburst], some cheetos, those sugary autumn cookies, some mini brownie things with ghost sprinkles, and a cupcake. and some green punch in a spoopy cup with a spoopy straw. aw yeah. i love a good halloween party. and by that i mean i love missing the entire party and showing up later when everyone is gone to snarf up what's left over. i'm a vulture.
and apparently for the second time in as many weeks, someone let Murphy get out the door. i don't understand, he's never seemed like he wanted to escape anytime i've opened the door with him around, but somehow when i'm not here this keeps happening and it needs to quit. i'm pretty sure he will just show up sometime tonight like he did last time, especially once the sun goes down and it gets cold.... but. this needs to stop. really really soon. :/
just went out to search for him and found nothing, i know if he heard my voice he'd run right to me no matter what he was doing. so either he's not outside, or he's gone really far away, which i think is unlikely. hopefully he's in the house. either way i have hope that when the sun does down and it gets dark out, he'll come and ask to be let in again. /sigh
oh, i also got some little boxes of stickers, and PENCILS. yeeesss. spoopy pencils. and some SPARKLY PURPLE PENCILS. i'm regaining my love for traditional sharpening pencils, although mechanical pencils are just... better in almost every way, tbh. for a couple of years i insisted on using only Mirado Black Warrior pencils for my art, before i learned the ways of the mechanical pencil.
just gonna stay chipper because i can't go to work feeling anxious and sad and worried about Murphy. he likes his creature comforts a lot more than he likes adventuring outside, i think, and i halfway suspect he wasn't trying to get out but just followed someone out the door and couldn't get back in, which i think is what happened last time. when it gets dark and cold he'll go to the porch where he spent his early kittenhood and wait for the door to open.
they found Murphy, thank goodness. he was in fact outside. /sigh. i'm just glad he's asking to be let back in when he gets bored instead of wandering far. but now i think everyone sees him as a door dasher and will take measures to keep him from getting out now.
i've got an hour before work so HERE IS A LIST. because i love lists.
a list of things [mostly animals] that i want to incorporate into my pokemon region:
- starter theme: one bipedal, one quadrupedal and one with no feet [flippers, snake body, whatever]
- prehistoric mammals as the fossil pokemon? maybe more than usual [like 5-6 instead of 2 or 4?]
- either base it in ancient north america or [modern] australia/oceania
- i want to make a shark like pokemon that focuses on shark skin. because i learned today that shark scales are actually... almost indistinguishable from teeth. each scale has a core with a meaty pulp and nerve ending, just like a tooth, and sharks' teeth are basically just huge versions of their "dermal dentile" scales. ?!?!?! WTF
- cape legless skink, a 'false snake' or 'glass lizard' with an armored nose for shoveling and burrowing
- tapirs. none of that silly drowzee or munna shit. TAPIRS. spotty baby tapir that becomes big beast tapir.
- indricotherium??? thylacoleo???
- dirktooth cat. smaller and older than Smilodon, smaller teeth.
- rhinos. is there even a rhino pokemon yet? that's ridiculous. we need rhinos.
- regional bird could be either a parrot/cockatoo, or a cedar waxwing. yeh
- hell i could probably make two separate regions out of these, one australia region and one semi-prehistoric north america region.
- prehistoric whales. like Basilosaurus, Protocetus etc.
so on an outer life note... this week i just didn't show up at my volunteer job. mostly because from the experiences i had last Wednesday i was pretty sure there wasn't going to be anything left for me to come back to this week, but also i had been feeling like stopping it for some time and this was i guess an opportunity for a clean break. no one has called me, so i assume i was right in understanding that the cats and their holding area are gone. i'll find out the next time i have to go get crickets/mealworms.
gonna play animal crossing before i forget, i didn't play yesterday. i got one more gengar from gamestop! tomorrow's the last day, after that they're doing Diancie. i want one more Gengar, buuuut i guess i don't have to have one if i don't wanna bother to drive all the way to Matthews for it. i expect the Gengar codes will still work after the 26th, but i'll redeem them tomorrow just in case.
shit. looking over last week's entries and i just remembered Toy Soldier making those meaningful clockwork clicks and noises at me... damn. what with the awful news i got last night of the changing of the guard at work [which will be by NO means in my favor], that seems rather... timely. wonder if somehow he knew.
so i've been kinda reading over my dreamwidth entries from roughly a year ago through the entirety of this past year, and I've gotta say... this year has definitely been one of the most successful for me in a long time, if ever.
as far as material things goes, SO MANY electronic goodies that i've never had before this year:
- 3DS and a total of 8 or 9 titles, including Alpha Sapphire once it gets here~
- smartphone
- tablet
- gamecube/games
- secondary ps2
- ipod
- most likely before the year is out, a brand new laptop that i bought myself!! [not yet though!]
not counting the gamecube itself which was free and the tablet which was a gift, i bought and paid for ALL of these entirely on my own!!!
other stuff i accomplished:
- i need to move on for various reasons, but i'm FINALLY more or less respected at work for the first time ever
- every single bully at my workplace got fired or transferred, so I WIN BITCHES
- paid off my car!!!! never missed a single day or had a late payment. BOOYAH
- went on TWO vacations, to Atlanta [which seems to be becoming a yearly tradition! :D] and to the OBX
- added several monthly bills and expenses to my roster, told myself i could handle it, succeeded!
- amped up my pokemon collection considerably! got plush and old toys and such
- money has been tight at times but i have been more or less in the black all year!!! only had one prob in May
- FINALLY DOING REGULAR ART AGAIN HOLY CRAP REALLY IMPORTANT FOR MY HEALTH
- i'm only very slightly in better shape, but it's an improvement! getting stronger and healthier!
- this isn't really an accomplishment of mine, but BB IS FINALLY HOME FOR GOOD!!! and he got a job!
things i need to work on:
- saving money!!! important!!! gotta get dat apartment. for srs. and also laptop. that will help with EVERYTHING
- job hunting, finding a place with steady hours!
- enrolling back in school!
YEAH MAN. so despite some moments of trauma and bad times on occasion, i feel like this year has been EXTREMELY SUCCESSFUL. :D
-- later --
some past sleuthing: i was trying to figure out exactly when i had that subscription to nintendo power. just based on my recognition of various covers, along with memories associated with when i first was aware of my subscription. Christmas 2000, aka the n64 christmas, i got several back issues of NPower along with the Majora's Mask strategy guide, all packed into an ENORMOUS Lisa Frank zipper binder [it had Markie the Unicorn on it, i'm fairly sure anyway, and i loved it and i want it back omg. if it wasn't Markie then it was definitely the aliens.].
CAN YOU imagine me getting another one of those zipper binders and bringing it to SPCC for school???? CAUSE I SURE CAN. HELL YEAH lol. ugh i want to pass as a guy but i want to do and have SO MANY SILLY GIRLY THINGS AND IN FACT KNOWING I'M A GUY MAKES IT SO MUCH EASIER TO LET MYSELF WANT THESE THINGS! my gender identity is kinda weird like that. :P
so yeah. things and merchandise from roughly 1998-2002 that i adore beyond any logical reason:
- tamagotchi
- lisa frank
- pokemon of course
- dbz sometimes
- occasionally other anime like sailor moon
- school supplies from that era like yikes pencils
time to go toooo wooork! i have another day off tomorrow, yay! then four days in a row. so much easier than five days, somehow.
as far as material things goes, SO MANY electronic goodies that i've never had before this year:
- 3DS and a total of 8 or 9 titles, including Alpha Sapphire once it gets here~
- smartphone
- tablet
- gamecube/games
- secondary ps2
- ipod
- most likely before the year is out, a brand new laptop that i bought myself!! [not yet though!]
not counting the gamecube itself which was free and the tablet which was a gift, i bought and paid for ALL of these entirely on my own!!!
other stuff i accomplished:
- i need to move on for various reasons, but i'm FINALLY more or less respected at work for the first time ever
- every single bully at my workplace got fired or transferred, so I WIN BITCHES
- paid off my car!!!! never missed a single day or had a late payment. BOOYAH
- went on TWO vacations, to Atlanta [which seems to be becoming a yearly tradition! :D] and to the OBX
- added several monthly bills and expenses to my roster, told myself i could handle it, succeeded!
- amped up my pokemon collection considerably! got plush and old toys and such
- money has been tight at times but i have been more or less in the black all year!!! only had one prob in May
- FINALLY DOING REGULAR ART AGAIN HOLY CRAP REALLY IMPORTANT FOR MY HEALTH
- i'm only very slightly in better shape, but it's an improvement! getting stronger and healthier!
- this isn't really an accomplishment of mine, but BB IS FINALLY HOME FOR GOOD!!! and he got a job!
things i need to work on:
- saving money!!! important!!! gotta get dat apartment. for srs. and also laptop. that will help with EVERYTHING
- job hunting, finding a place with steady hours!
- enrolling back in school!
YEAH MAN. so despite some moments of trauma and bad times on occasion, i feel like this year has been EXTREMELY SUCCESSFUL. :D
-- later --
some past sleuthing: i was trying to figure out exactly when i had that subscription to nintendo power. just based on my recognition of various covers, along with memories associated with when i first was aware of my subscription. Christmas 2000, aka the n64 christmas, i got several back issues of NPower along with the Majora's Mask strategy guide, all packed into an ENORMOUS Lisa Frank zipper binder [it had Markie the Unicorn on it, i'm fairly sure anyway, and i loved it and i want it back omg. if it wasn't Markie then it was definitely the aliens.].
CAN YOU imagine me getting another one of those zipper binders and bringing it to SPCC for school???? CAUSE I SURE CAN. HELL YEAH lol. ugh i want to pass as a guy but i want to do and have SO MANY SILLY GIRLY THINGS AND IN FACT KNOWING I'M A GUY MAKES IT SO MUCH EASIER TO LET MYSELF WANT THESE THINGS! my gender identity is kinda weird like that. :P
so yeah. things and merchandise from roughly 1998-2002 that i adore beyond any logical reason:
- tamagotchi
- lisa frank
- pokemon of course
- dbz sometimes
- occasionally other anime like sailor moon
- school supplies from that era like yikes pencils
time to go toooo wooork! i have another day off tomorrow, yay! then four days in a row. so much easier than five days, somehow.
