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Jan. 1st, 2016 05:29 pm
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happy new year!!

burlesque show went fantastically. as always. the venue was awesome and everyone was super nice. i kissed Lindsay Stewart on the new year and made my boyfriend jealous lolll.
i also took a polaroid shot of her in her white dress and some others, dancing on stage after the show was over and the new year rung in, and it came out fantastic even though it didn't have a good place to come out and it's slightly bent from developing in my pocket on the bus home. there is a man with a party hat on in the bottom-right corner of the film; that guy turned out to be deaf or HOH and the girl next to him, who was a big girl covered in tattoos and wearing such an elaborate dress with veil that i thought she must be a dancer, but she wasn't -- anyway she and he both saw the sign and she frantically signed to him "it's a polaroid!!" hahaha that was a cool moment.

on the way home I accidentally hopped the 3 bus instead of the 23. goddamnit loll. so i ran totally the wrong way. ended up going all the way uptown to the transportation center and THEN catching the 23 all the way back home. the lady driving the 3 bus was very patient with me lmao. so i got home fine. bird said something to me about how Tulia would say that a night without a little fear and adventure is a night wasted. hahaha. i took those words to heart because i suppose it did make the night more memorable overall. and today i realize that Hiccup would've said the same damn thing. u guys.

today has been pretty much solely playing Goat Simulator LOL. since it was on sale for $2.50. hell yeah. i love this game but my computer does not. it glitched once and overheated twice in the few hours I played it. i just have to keep an eye on my poor laptop while playing lmao but it's so fun. so dumb and chaotic and fun. i might even play a wee bit more before i go to work tbh.

i have been making myself sandwiches all day. first i made BLTAs [like a BLT with avocado :D] with cream cheese instead of mayo or something, and that was PERF... i made a second one and packed it in my lunch hell yeah. then just now, while waiting on my poor computer to come back down from overheating, i made a bagel with salami, avocado and cream cheese. can you tell what two things i love to eat together lol.

so ya. long long work night tonight... if only i hadn't spent all my quarters on that drink last night at the show [OMG it was AMAZING. note to self. learn how to make this shit. it was called the Flood and it was made with irish cream, butterscotch schnapps, coffee liqueur [award for hardest word to spell goes to: LIQUEUR] and organic milk. dude. let me do this. it was so delicious i had to FORCE myself to sip it and i about cried cuz i couldn't order another one LMAO.

so yeah this was a really great new year tbh. i felt safe even at a 'party' kind of event 99% of the time [the other 1% was as i'm getting ready to leave, heading out the door, some crazy drunk fuck barrels up the stairs in the door and tries to dive behind the bar before getting kicked out o_0], surrounded by either friendly strangers or friendly people who know who i am... and naked women!! who are doing what they do because they love getting cheered on by strangers while showing off their body, and are well protected by their troupe family. i love it.

in headspace there was a really nice long table set up in the Order dining room and so many people were there. we all watched what was going on up front together. as i recall... Owen, Ruby, Jewel, Pearl [lol our names], Kris, Kyo and possibly Cassius were there. i didn't see everyone but it was a pretty big group. they were eating and drinking and talking and it was wonderful. even if i was having too much fun up front to concentrate too awful hard inside. but they just all kinda crowded around me and watched with me. one seat labeled 'VOGEL' seating a dozen people. <3

wow i just hit a random button and almost deleted this whole entry. I HATE WHEN THAT HAPPENS LOL. but all is well.

also: i'm kinda toying with the idea of going vegan for a week sometime. it'd KILL me to go without cream cheese or fish lmaooo but that's why it's a challenge! i'll have to save up some cash because tbh it's a great excuse to go try some amazing vegan food that's out here in the city. but even if i don't i could make it. that's a thing. even like vegan mixed drinks and shit. and if i can go for a week then why not a month sometime! ya know.


a random fact: the super loud cupped-hand clap that I learned how to do in high school marching band has proved VERY useful for my current job. during my watch in the playrooms when i think dogs are getting too rowdy and rough play might escalate into a legit fight, a sharp sudden loud noise often stops them. and my voice is very quiet! if there's a lot of noise happening it gets drowned out quite easily. so being able to clap very sharp and loud helps a lot. that's just something random that i thought about lol.

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Dec. 19th, 2015 04:29 pm
thebrokenarrows: (general)
picked up a Shulk amiibo today! :o i wasn't really even totally planning on getting him. but the gamestop we went to for xmas shopping had SO MANY AMIIBO. even rare ones. they had a little mac for god's sake. and a Lucario, who i almost bought but... i just don't... like him!! and so i passed up on buying him for retail price l o l. for some reason. idk i'm just not a fan of the smash character or the amiibo or really, the pokemon itself, i mean he's alright but overrated. anyway. i got Shulk bc i played him the other day and realized that i actually really like playing him! he's similar to Cloud who i absolutely ADORE, omg. i never expected to like Cloud that much but he might be becoming a main suddenly. outta nowhere. anyway Shulk sure is cute. and gay. he just is ok he's gay.

bb got me the splatoon amiibo but i'm not allowed to open them until solstice lol >w> but omg. finally. i've longed for them forever and so has Apostrophe. she's gonna scream. they unlock soooo many things in splatoon. most especially the samurai gear and the hero roller.... heeelll yeeehhh. i got bb the Ike amiibo because he's always wanted one and i did not expect to see one just sitting in a gamestop, nevermind like EIGHT of them. they had so many y'all. so we walked out with like five amiibo total today holy shit. my army grows. once solstice comes, i'm gonna have ELEVEN AMIIBO, eight of them for smash and three splatoon.

on that note, i am and have always been roller trash ever since i started playing splatoon but i've been in love with the aerospray here lately. there is a splatfest going on and i'm totally destroying with my aerospray instead of the roller. there was a team that i just kinda landed in earlier today where we WRECKED FACE for like a SOLID HOUR, none of us leaving between matches we just all kept playing. i think we won about twelve or thirteen matches in a row. my rating has never been that high before it was awesome. their names were Jennasm, CrazyRinho [lol], sebas, and me [Apostrophe]. it was amazing and i wish i could friend them lol because that was a hell of a time until i finally had to leave.
team naughty 4 life btw. i think we're gonna win this one if only because i realized that team nice is populated LARGELY by little kids. which makes sense to me! kids wanna prove they're good. they're almost taught to be like competitive about it. i'm a Good Kid. better than you. bad kids suck. it's older kids/adults that have fun with the idea of ~being naughty~, and especially around christmas there's this idea with small children that good kids get presents!! bad kids get nothing!! so team nice etc!! and every match i've fought the nice team's members have been very obviously small children. so i think just largely as a matter of motor control, naughty is gonna win lolol. but i could be wrong!
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I DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT THAT

I WANNA TALK ABOUT VIDEO GAMES

NINTENDO DIRECT IS AS I EXPECTED IS THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY

i'll 'liveblog' my second watching because i missed the first 15 minutes live


WINNING in vague order of coming out date:

- Animal Crossing Amiibo Festival [wii u] - TOMORROW november 12 [basically SUPER CUTE mario party for animal crossing... i wannit]
- Pokemon Super Mystery Dungeon [3DS] - november 20 2015
- pokemon picross [another freemium eshop game] - early december 2015
- FAST racing NEO [eshop wii U] - early december 2015
- Xenoblade Chronicles X [wii u] - december 4 15 [i have no idea about this series but it's sci-fi-ey and i like the look of this one]

- Pokken Tournament [wii u] - january 2016 [Apostrophe and I BOTH SCREAM LOUDLY] [SHADOW MEWTWO]
- megaman legacy collection [3DS] - feb 23 2016 - MOTHERFUCKIN GOLD MEGAMAN AMIIBO THO???
- POKEMON RED BLUE AND YELLOW ON 3DS ESHOP HOLY SHITS - february 27 2016. [I'M MOTHERFUCKING READY TO MOTHERFUCKING CATCH THEM ALL]
- Twilight Princess HD [wii u] - march 4 16 - [ehh... only nine years later?? only one system later?? idk. i guess it's cool. THE AMIIBO THOUGH HOLY FUCK]
- Hyrule Warriors Legends [3DS] - march 25 2016 [comes with THE BEST EXTRA CHARACTERS... Tetra, Skull Kid, Toon Link?!]
- Starfox Zero [wii u] - april 22 2016 [IM DIE THIS LOOKS SOOOO good]
- new zelda game for wii u - 2016 sometime

- CLOUD IN SMASH BROS?!? - FUCK YEAH idk when - [i've literally never played final fantasy i just love new smash characters]




OTHER THINGS I WANT that are already out, AND STILL DON'T HAVE, the ever growing list:
- LoZ triforce heroes [3DS]
- splatoon [wii u] [Apostrophe SCREAMS ETERNALLY]
- hyrule warriors [wii u]
- nintendo badge arcade [eshop exclusive 3ds, freemium thing i guess but cute and nice]
- Yo-Kai Watch [3DS] [Apostrophe also screams but I scream a little bit too because japan]
- animal crossing happy home designer [3DS] [i probably want this tbh]

- yoshi's new island [3DS]
- donkey kong country returns [3DS]
- yoshi's woolly world [wii u]
- super mario 3D land [3DS]

OH AND!!!!
WII U BUNDLE WITH SMASH BROS /AND/ SPLATOON coming out for holiday this year. YO.
that's the one we totally need. if we can manage it.

also I'M YELLING EVERYWHERE THAT "CUCCO" IS PRONOUNCED KU-KO INSTEAD OF KOO-KOO WHAAAAT
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once i've got an income again i... i'm a weak man. i actually want to collect amiibo LOL. or at least buy a good number of them. i lust after so many augh. i don't want to collect all of them. jsut the ones that i want. it's just that i want... lots of them lol...

SO HERES THE LIST. with links to the least-scalpy amazon listings however these prices change, often, so. what's $15 now might be $40 when i can manage to buy em. or ya never know, vice versa!

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the three mii fighter classes
mewtwo
female inkling - because this is literally how Apostrophe presents in headspace nowadays. also as of this writing, very cheap! cuz not smash related

bowser jr.
greninja
jigglypuff - kinda low priority but it'd be cool to have a full set of pokemon
lucario - same as jiggles
yarn yoshi, preferably blue? but pink also good
link / toon link - regular link is Dead Cheap and bb's main so he needs one tbh.
duck hunt dog - i just really want him ok ;_; have forever
chibi robo?? - i have no use for him really he's just... so cute...
palutena?? - ehhh idk but like GODDAMN WHAT A GORGEOUS FIGURE.
shiek - cuz i love shiek. would not mind having like, all the ladies of smash if it came down to it. tbh. like zelda, samus. but eh. mainly shiek and rosalina
falco - not out yet i think but.... yas. my favorite starfox character. berd.
yoshi - can get the smash or the mario party one. yoshi is forever my underrated old secondary main from n64.
hell maybe the mario party bowser if i got crazy lol?? that pose is very cute
mega man - he's expensive tho
maybe luigi?? i just rly like luigi ok. he's easy to find in store so no link lol
i don't LIKE the peach figure too much but peach is a boss in game sooo idk
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honestly i'm just chuffed to have nabbed a Little Mac straight from gamestop, all by myself [well, after being alerted to it lol]. last christmas. i have him and i will have, shortly, a Rosalina, and a Dedede. although not american. but supposed to still work the same so :D
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I THINK THATS P MUCH EVERYTHING SO FAR.... as far as not yet released characters? looks like they've got just about everyone actually, damn! i hadn't realized. maybe just enough for one or two more waves of smash characters. THEN WHAT U GONNA DO, NINTENDO?!? .... RELEASE POKEMON AMIIBO???? oh my god please do not i would die

080115

Aug. 1st, 2015 07:16 pm
thebrokenarrows: (general)
Got my new toy in today - an A/V output switcher for my game systems. So instead of fumbling around behind the TV to switch the A/V cables out every time I want to change systems - a real pain that often leads to me not playing games even when I want to play them, especially when depressed which can often be lifted by gaming! - now all I have to do is press a button! It's awesome and it worked perfectly on the first try. Only complaint is that I ended up cannibalizing the cord on my C2 [cheapo third party console that plays NES and SNES games, a stopgap for now til I buy the real deals] until I buy another one because the fucking switcher didn't come with a cord to connect it to the TV! And no warning online that it didn't come with it. Lol. At least they're cheap to get.

I gotta get dressed for my loooong super long work night. Meant to take a nap but haha that didn't happen due to a mix of brain weirds and fun times coming in the mail. I sure am tired already :v
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bb gave me money from his pizza tips to take to nightbeat oh god thank u ;w;

trip stuff:
- phone/wallet/keys
- car charger for phone
- ipod, purple earbuds
- polaroid? take a shot in the car maybe.
- DSi w mario kart DS
- GBASP w pokemon pinball and tetris/tetris worlds



mario kart stuff:
Apostrophe is Yoshi. she is ALWAYS Yoshi. our system default is Yoshi, like if u invite us to a game of mario kart/party we will almost certainly play as Yoshi and that's all her lol
Summer would probably be Peach
I [Ollie] am gonna say King Boo
Kris would be Dry Bones
Ruby would prob be Rosalina
Vernon would be Koopa Troopa
Thirteen would be Dry Bowser???
Kyo would be Birdo. totally

of course most of these aren't unlocked yet... gdi what if madison wants this game back LOL I LIKE IT TOO MUCH IM GONNA HAVE TO SPEND MONEY ON MY OWN COPY!!! and a wii wheel. are those actually good

also when i unlock mii usage in this game FATS IS GONNA DESTROY EVERYTHING. GO FATS



Deleted all the dumb miis that were made by my family members when the wii was new. We got it Christmas 2008 i think, and the one who's used it the most was my little brother. He hung around a lot with my niblings [aka niece and nephews, my oldest stepbrother's three children] who were at the time quite small, like him. So the four of them made a bunch of really stupid miis with garbage names or ones that reminded me too much of family so I deleted them. Took great pleasure in deleting the one from my older stepsister who I have always intensely disliked lol.
I even deleted the old mii I made of myself. It was so unflattering, so ugly looking. And I would forgive that if I didn't know from memory that it was because of being surrounded by my family who thought I was very fat and unappealing and otherwise trashy. So I deleted that shit. Washed it out. Along with the old name that I don't use anymore. I'll make a brand new mii, named Oliver.

Among the ones they made that christmas/the next year or so that did survive:
B00T5 - an extremely tiny, purple Brock from pokemon
dump - a very tall thin old man
boygirl - how can I possibly delete this exquisitely beautiful genderqueer androgyne
fats - literally combed thru all these dumb miis when I first booted mario kart, found her and fell in love. And immediately she became a sort of character. She's enormously tall and chunky and wears glasses and DESTROYS EVERYONE AT MARIO KART. FATS WILL DIE HISTORIC ON THE FURY ROAD
BASS - also super tiny but has a hilariously fucked up face and great name

as well as the original* Snape mii from like five years ago [there have been SO MANY SNAPES on so many platforms since then, all made by Mason based off this one] who still survives, and one named Kristanova who looks... nothing like kristanova LOLOL. But he stays too.
* apparently bb tells me that this is the second snape mii, not the first. and that the first one was owned by his dad's ex girlfriend and her kids. uhhh WELL THIS IS THE OLDEST SURVIVING SNAPE LOL

061415

Jun. 14th, 2015 08:22 pm
thebrokenarrows: (general)
DONT RLY FEEL LIKE a big update but here's some stuff

- this is the prelude to The Week Of Gaming And Stevenbomb!!! which i intend to enjoy to the fullest. gonna bring up Apostrophe to enjoy it with me because hell ya.
- need to not worry so much ab whether Apostrophe "feels right" like she acts her age or whatever. WHATEVER DONT WORRY AB IT JUST LET IT HAPPEN. let it flow.
- nintendo going in HARD right into the beginning of E3 their day isn't even until thursday but they released a shitload of new Smash DLC [and guess who bought it all :v] including THREE playable characters. Lucas, Roy and Ryu. and so now i have em AND THE CHARACTER SCREEN IS FULL and i don't even think they're done releasing characters??? omg. yas. so i have those now
- oh my god also they released the kirby stage from the original N64 game. holy shitballs. so i have that now and they highly implied HYRULE CASTLE N64 IS COMING OUT TOO AS A STAGE OUR FAVORITE STAGE ON THE ORIGINAL GAME. YAAAAAAS
- and i'm thinking of playing a lot more smash. a lot more story mode. a lot more practice w various characters and learning and adapting all their different playstyles. you could lose yourself in that game man. the possibilities are so endless it ain't even funny.
- SWORN TO THE SWORD TOMORROW IM FUCKING EXCITED FOR MORE STEVEN UNIVERSE. it's been like three months oh god. gonna spend this last hour eating and maybe showering lol and watching more new Orange/Black [!] and the live Nintendo World Championships [!!] and rewatch some of my fave Steven Universe eps [!!!] and prepare for FUGGIN E3 YAS
- def need to hang out with Apostrophe for all this. yes.

LIST TIME

May. 29th, 2015 08:10 pm
thebrokenarrows: (general)
thing i wanna do:

- play through and beat all main series pokemon games up to black version [because i have never beaten any before white], including b2w2
- buy a USB controller for emulation and maybe some cheapo screencap software and a headset and make let's plays!!! long time dream [tg gift card?]
- that might actually tie into the first thing lol. maybe start off my LP channel with my ~pokemon revisitation journey~
- lp channel name possibility: thundergaming??? that just randomly ended up being my instagram tag for gaming but hey it's kinda unique right and i like thunderstorms? haha?

IDK THATS A THOUGHT

052915

May. 29th, 2015 07:49 pm
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bird leaving in a couple hours ish, gonna be gone all weekend. always sad when that happens but she comes back with such good stories. and like i wanted to talk some about how different it felt for me last time. try to suss out what exactly my thoughts are because it keeps coming back up.

i think last time they went was... late march??? which is ridic now that i think about it, too long. and that was before The Night The Computer Blew Up, which was kind of a rly important milestone between us i think, and before a lot of other smaller and also important days that have led us to where we are now. but the last time i remember spending rather obsessively and piningly, passing the days hurting and wanting something that i believed was off limits. unreachable. little did i know it was basically in my hands already and i couldn't let myself see it. i will of course miss her and the whole System but i don't think it will be nearly the same. which is amazing to me. mindblowing. something i've been struggling to internalize for months seems to have finally worked its way under my skin and now... i feel rather unstoppable.

this coming after that really important conversation we had about waiting around too much to actually live life. that talk kinda sucked at the time and i was really embarassed talking about these ugly parts of myself, but it was what got me off my butt and into that hike in the park. [did i write about that? me and bb found some old plantation house ruins in the woods. and i saw my first live crawdad in a deep stream pool and it was awesome.]


on another note while out today [picked up some games/a gameboy pocket/a rly cute NDS carry case that looks like a gigantic DS lite which cost a dollar :D] i saw crows doing mid air flight maneuvers and realized that the weird magnetism feelings i'd been having weren't kinfeels for ME, exactly, [which i knew. i align with corvids a lot but not identify as such] but they're kinfeels for hiccup. he's a crow. i mean no, he's a DRAGON, but as a bird he would absolutely be a plain ol' crow. a little beaten up but the best fucking flier in the sky and he knows it. that's his vibe for sure.

got home after that trip and wanted to play my game but just didn't have the attention span or interest to really learn the megaman game, so i turned it off after a couple minutes. it's ok. i want to involve bb in that game anyway, he's the one with megaman experience. so then i cleaned up and organized my gaming station which i tend to do after every trip to save point [which is awesome, because it gets awful cluttered LOL]. and it looks better than ever if you ask me. i love a good organized gaming shelf. my situation isn't perfect but it works well.

you know i might bring that gameboy pocket with me to work. because it's so tiny and adorable i love it. i think i have triple-A batteries in the car, but i sure don't have 'em in the house LOL. ugh i should just invest in rechargeable batteries for my old battery dependent handhelds tbh. once upon a time my parents bought us some for this exact reason, those old green ones. but i lost em. i start to feel irresponsible remembering this, but then i remind myself that this was like TEN TO TWELVE YEARS AGO LOL and they would be ancient by now.

just kinda tired today and it's okay. my feet are slowly recovering from the hike, and by that i mean the hike immediately followed by work and exacerbated by continued work shifts. and then there's the eleven hour shift coming tomorrow LOL... and a possible trip to carowinds on monday... my feet are never gonna forgive me.
but. short shift tonight. should be a breeze i think. busy enough to make the time go by while not being A SATURDAY. and tomorrow will need... a lot of spoons saved up lol. glad bb will be here. we're gonna chill out hardcore together. he may be getting us some whiskey actually which Kris would fucking adore. i've been jonesing for some whiskey but he has been like ten times harder. too bad the house of leaves won't be around for that haha. <3

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May. 9th, 2015 07:02 pm
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jus wanna update real quick before work because work tonight is gonna SUCKKKKKKK so i had myself a good day

went up to Huntersville to that glorious corner up there. visited Laughingbrook, which is always such a good time. mainly hunting stuff to wire-wrap and that is what I got: amethyst point, moss agate for Trolley, howlite for me, a boar tusk, 5 shiny steel nails [might wear one of those with the tusk together tonight ngl], a badger claw, a tiny songbird's foot [which the shop owner called a chick foot??]... and non wrappable things including a [US legal from the UK] crow foot and feather, and some tiny purple candles for Papa. so. yeh. OH and i got for free, A THISTLE omg. yas. so pointy and sharp and sooooo purple i thought it must have been painted but it wasn't!!
after that went to the retro game store next door [i told you this corner is gold] and picked up a legit SNES controller [bc all we have right now are the cheapo ones that came with the c2 system], and a Super Game Boy. hopefully it will work with the clone console, i don't see why it wouldn't but. still. good.
then after THAT, bb took me to Lupie's, the restaurant next to these two stores and god DAMN. it lived up to its name. holy jesus. i dont' even really feel like going into detail but i had the best salmon there and oh god. just. what a great restaurant and worth every penny. we tipped well too.

gonna go up to work armed to the teeth with spoons and spirit. best i can. i'm not feeling work at all the past few weeks, i really miss when Hiccup was around more to help out. Trolley never lets me believe that he's leaving me, though. never. been having a lot of heart to hearts with her lately especially last night. [her nickname is now Garden Mom btw.] long story short, A- she might be fronting more in the near future and B- we're gonna be training to help me be able to completely let go of the front and go inside entirely. which is really hard to imagine rn but again, she constantly tells me it's possible. so.

idk i guess i'll dick around for a while but i just wanna sit at home ;_; at least this is my thursday and tomorrow is the last day between me and the weekend???


oh and my tarot draw today was #9: "What is my relationship with authority?"
draw: the Knight of Wands. which... i have absolutely no explanation for this one, it's all about excitement and adventure and... no??? my relatonship with authority is mostly mistrust and fear and tension lol. mostly. but certainly not adventure. unfortunately.

050215

May. 2nd, 2015 07:12 pm
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after much wiffling decided to go up to save point, because i felt pulled. like something was waiting for me there. idk man. is this some ~crazy techno woo~ or just a desire to burn money that i shouldn't WHO KNOWS.

we have set up the secondary ps2 [the tiny one!] in the living room and it's v nice, but needed its own AV cable, which is what we picked up. and also we have realized that my old controllers are becoming old and buggy from years of use, so we got two new ones. which turned out to be an awesome thing because the ones we got were like BRAND NEW and BLUE AND SEE THRU??? SUPER NEAT i'm a sucker for that kinda thing. didn't even know ps2 had first-party ones in that color YAY :D so now we have two gorgeous blue ones for the mini ps2 as well as our three older kinda broken ones lmao. and i also decided to pick up Starfox 64 becauuuuse... idk felt weird going in and not coming out with at least one game. and it's necessary for my collection and i know for a fact it's damn good SO. yeh. i need another case for my n64 games i am really truly out of room in my first case lmao.

and then we checked out their arcade cabs and they just recently got in an Initial D racer made by Sega in the mid 90s. and like. damn. so cool and so old 90s anime aesthetic. me and bb played a couple rounds [i lost both, barely] and we were both like DAMN!!!! SO LEGIT. like. PLAYS SO WELL AND SO WELL CODED AND LOOKS AMAZING and we forgot how much ridiculously more advanced arcade graphics were than home console ones for their time. that game looked like a ps2 or circa 2005 PC title graphics wise, not a mid 90s one wtffff. and handled so SO well omg. felt great. never played a racer made by a first party developer before and was SO damn impressed. glad we came in right after they got it in and was still on free play!
also i noticed a little thing on the side of the cabs that said "insert Initial D card" and i realized that these were cards with a person's save data [note: after a quick google, these were referred to as 'drivers licenses'] that you would presumably buy from the arcade and keep with you in order to bring back and use the next time you came to the arcade. god damn!! that just made me kinda emotional LOL. i'm so sad that i missed out on the golden age of arcades in the west. they are if anything, a sad shadow of what they once were. i wanna go to a REAL arcade with Sega and Nintendo cabs and all the other good ones from the 80s and 90s. do retro arcades exist the way retro game stores do lol???

ALSO i jabbered to bb for a while about my wish for there to be an indie company out there that produces its own retro-style console, producing indie games [either ports of popular ones like shovel knight, super meat boy etc, or original IPs] in cartridge form. i realize how prohibitively expensive that method is and that's why most indie console attempts these days are 'next gen' with entirely digital games. sadness. but maybe it'll happen. it really needs to, it would get SO damn popular if only the start up costs could be afforded. just make a kickstarter or something sobs. i would do it myself if i were more business minded. srsly. i want retro stores to have a tiny corner section with this new indie console and its CARTRIDGE BASED GAMES. yas.

in other news... ehh? not much. was a day of chilling out and gaming. work is gonna be uhhh interesting tonight. ten hours on a saturday. ain't that just always how it goes. but whatever. my life is a pretty cool life other than that.
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The shelf that currently holds my TV and games is like the perfect size for my room, and fits my TV perfectly, but... it has a small problem and that is storage. I wish I could swap the top and bottom so that the bottom storage held my consoles and the top held the games. Because with those kinds of things, you really want the consoles under the TV so that the cable doesn't hang down into the screen, but that's what we've got right now. It doesn't bother me TOO much, but it's not ideal.
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What I would like is one that's the same size as our current one, with a sturdy middle shelf to hold our big oldschool CRT tv [The Brick], some OPEN storage space at the bottom or at least some cord holes open in the back. [I would drill holes in the one we have but idk, my situation is always changing console wise and idk what I'd be happy with... maybe we can talk with Hiccup, he might have an idea about it.] On the top, some closed storage shelf/ves for my games and cases, controllers and miscellaneous peripherals.

Idk. Again, this is gonna be tough to just find out there, and almost impossible to be new, but it seems like it wouldn't be worth operating on my current shelf for, haha. Eh. I probably won't do anything, these are just thoughts.


Anyway, I went to save point and got Donkey Kong Country for SNES, Jak 3 for ps2 [yooo I finally have all 3!!], and Tetrisphere and Robotron 64 for n64. Yehh. And now I'm gonna rearrange my game cabinet for the billionth time which is what got me talking about this in the first place :V

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Apr. 14th, 2015 10:52 pm
thebrokenarrows: (general)
SOOO Today was good! Fun times. bb took us out to hardee's for lunch, then we decided we were finally gonna go see Home, the movie. and it was... mmm. how do i articulate my thoughts. it was good! made me think and feel and that's what movies are meant to do. and although it was so Colonialism: The Kids' Movie that my white skin burned at times LOL, it also made me really happy to see this kinda progress being made. like. yes. casual remarks about the protagonist's 'beautiful brown skin' and 'lovely hair' and stuff. the total lack of white characters being an equally total nonissue. this is where it needs to start: kids material. so yeah, really nice message, wasn't the MOST appealing animated movie i've seen but eh, it's fine. i didn't regret seeing it at all and the ending definitely was good. and some good music too!!!

and THEN we went home and i got bb to watch the first like four episodes of SU in a row, starting him on just watching them straight through. he's not a binge watcher of things though so i guess we'll just watch a few in a row when he feels like it or whatever until he's caught up lol. i may have to coax him into watching Cat Fingers bc of the body horror involved >_> but like also important story stuff is involved!! too!! so it's good to watch! idk. we'll see.

so we did that for a bit and then roomies decide they want ice cream! so we debate on where to go and then J and i go to baskin robbins. right before closing time. and.. long story short, 4 ice cream cones and only like 2 and a half hands to hold them. lol. on a seventy degree night. LOL... SO as you can guess everything started fucking melting everywhere. in my right hand i held bb's and D's cones which absolutely melted all over me, my hand and butt and thigh and some on the car and the napkins helped nothing whatsoever. but i was a steadvast valiant ice cream soldier and nibbled my own [mint because always always always he has claimed the entire flavor] and silently thanked the gods for making me fat, because i had shoved my 3DS and phone in between my legs and my fat was keeping them dry and safe from ice cream drips LOL!!! so yeh. it all worked out for the best. we got them to meet us downstairs and rescue me from my ice cream melt prison :V and then i went up and finished off my cone and took my ass a shower!!
and it turned out that my subway shirt got superduper chocolate stained LOL. it might never be the same. it's soaking now and might get bleached or something but i'm so not worried about it. that's one of my trash shirts that i don't give a fuck about so it's alllll good. i didn't regret a moment of that experience LOL. good times. what a summer thing to have happen. ;D

so noooow i finished animal crossing where i left off when Ice Cream Shenanigans happened, and now i think i'll play some super nintendo. help me i'm falling in love with a game system that is so obsolete and outdated it ain't even funny decades after it came out heLP

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Apr. 11th, 2015 08:38 pm
thebrokenarrows: (general)
IM BEING KINDA BAD WITH MONEY AGAIN HELP >:|

but ugh. idk. today might have been worth it bc we went to the raptor center first and saw lots of birds and took lots of pics. wish i could have got a grip on Hiccup enough to bring him up here. [i'm kinda terrified that he's destabilizing or something crazy like that??? but i think something would be Being Done About It in that case. so. idk. idk what i can even do about it so] but nonetheless i kept getting stuff filtered from him. watching a little harrier with 1.5 wings repeatedly try to jump off and fly and just landing on the ground repeatedly, a pang of guilt that wasn't mine.

then we went to the witchy store in Huntersville, which is the best fucking place. and got some coyote magic <3 foot bone, claw and tooth. the tooth even has a hole pre-drilled so i'm gonna do something with it 0w0 i also got a big ol' stick of sigil chalk because hellll yeah. i need to get on making my own but i wanna try this first. plus it has glitter n herbs rubbed in it >u> anddd i got a garnet!! a little blood red garnet, very dark and hard to see but if u look just right u can see the gem bits shining through. it's so lovely and subtle and going in my bag of shiny pretty rocks. [LOL OH BTW: remember when i got given that three bucks in a jesus pamplet? yeah, those three bucks paid for my garnet. yes.] OH AND: a thorn. now idk why i felt like spending multiple dollars on a thorn when i can pick them off a vine anywhere in the world, but. it was good. it came off a honey locust tree.

and then of course anytime we visit Laughingbrook, the witchy store, we HAVE to visit the retro game store next door [which i found out was just called Video Game World. wow. good job Save Point for having a catchy name]. AND NOW I HAVE A REASON TO BUY NES/SNES GAMES YEH. so i picked up a couple. Dr Mario and original Tetris for NES, and then Tetris 2 for SNES. which is the only one i ended up playing today. and UHH... it's not actually tetris, much in the vein of Tetris Attack, but a somewhat similar game with totally different rules. in fact it's actually rather similar to dr. mario o_0 but IT WAS ACTUALLY FUN AND I PLAYED THE HECKE OUT OF IT and beat the stored high score from who knows how many years ago. good times. also i'm told that the ridiculous tight grip that the c2 clone console holds my games with A: will if anything only break the SYSTEM, not the games themselves lmfao, and B: should lesson over time. so yeah. that's good.

yeah sooo now i get to go do my weekly hell shift on saturday night :v i'm so not feeling it. and what's more i can't get hiccup up here either to help me out. weh. idk. it's like i took two steps foward and four steps back with connection to headspace, but not in every way. i still FEEL them a lot easier. but especially Trolley. she sure is getting up close and personal lately, which adds to my feeling that Something Is Not Quite Right, but. it's ok. i'm not anxious about it. mostly just anxious about stupid wooorrrkkkk why this

040915

Apr. 9th, 2015 05:26 pm
thebrokenarrows: (general)
SO LOL Today held an unexpected surprise. Went into save point and they fixed my gameboy's speaker properly this time. Still rattles but apparently that's unavoidable, the new [NDS] speakers they use to replace the broken GBC ones are just smaller and so they'll rattle when replaced. But eh. It doesn't scream anymore and sounds just fine :D.

BUT THEN... while we were waiting the guy walks out with a box and goes, "So what if I made you a deal." He had this clone console that plays NES and SNES games, but part of one of the flaps was broken and because of that cosmetic issue he hadn't been able to sell it. So he offered it to us really cheap. Immediately I was like fuck lolol. They know when they got me. I'd been toying with the idea of eventually delving into the original nintendo and super nintendo for like a month, and while I'd rather have the real actual consoles [and I still will eventually], this was a good way to start building up my collection and finally experience ~the originals!~. Wasn't planning on doing this NOW but I mean, the opportunity presented itself. And the guy who owns the shop is super nice and helpful and I feel like I can trust him - I asked him an open ended question, "Where do i start with games?" and he helped me out within my budget and told me which games were actually worth buying HAHA. Good guy. Love save point, what a good little shop.

SOOOO haha. I picked up original mario bros for NES and the first Starfox for SNES. Really wanted Tetris Attack but that can wait, and plus the Starfox cartridge is IMMACULATE holy shit. Beautiful and looks brand new, not faded or scratched. Unlike my busted ass Mario one lmfao.

The conversation in save point is always really great. The guy took Mario apart and cleaned it out for me just to make sure it would work properly, and I saw that the actual game itself was TINY compared to the whole cartridge. 90% of the cartridge is just empty. I asked him why the hell that was and he said it was actually because of the Atari crash that just about killed video games back in the 80s. In Japan with Famicom, the system was a top-loader, but in the West there were concerns that a game system that looked like a video game system like Atari would not sell because of the fear instilled in the economy there by the video game crash. So they made these huge ass cartridges to look reminiscent of VHS tapes! And that's why you have the "VCR loading" NES systems! And also why the name is Nintendo Entertainment System, because for a while 'video game' was kind of a taboo phrase in the industry for a while, due to the crash. So that was mega interesting and god I love learning about the history of video games.

And something else that also happened in save point, I mentioned out loud that I'd never really played anything older than N64 myself, and immediately customers hanging around started giving me the stink eye LOL!!! And being like "whoa, really?? You've NEVER??" And then I remembered: oh, right. Gamer culture... And started getting that "lol it's a fake gamer girl" vibe. Because I literally forget I'm seen as female until it becomes obvious. And the guy behind the counter stood up for me too hahaha, like "Well, everyone has to start somewhere, and she's got a Game Boy Color in her pocket right now!" [Which I did in fact, not that that's much older than N64?] I mean... I'm ONLY 23 Y'ALL LOL. Sorry that my parents rather than buying me a busted ass old used NES or SNES, got me a brand new N64 instead when I was eight years old!! And before that any gaming I did was either on computer or eventually on game boy color!! And honestly before the age of 7-8 I was too young to really enjoy them anyway. :V I'm not even that young for heaven's sakes. And it sure as fuck ain't got anything to do with my genitals since I've been playing the games that were current at the time literally since I first got any of them handed to me. Ahh, the glorious trashy misogyny of nerd culture. I'm not a girl but for heaven's sake, if people are gonna mistake me for one then I'm gonna be a good one.

AND also, I mentioned while the guy [I really should learn his name, there's a revolving crew of people who work there but I'm pretty sure he owns the place and is also the best one to talk to] was cleaning out my Mario game that I really wish they'd go back to cartridges, and I was surprised when he said that he really believes that it'll happen. He says cartridges are not only nostalgic but just fare better in general, they're tough and age better and now technology is getting to where size isn't a problem anymore and while there is a limit on DISC size, there seems to be virtually no limit to how much data you can put on an SD card, every year it fucktuples in size bascally lol. So now that I've heard that really logical explanation I have hope for a return to cartridge based gaming! It's just better in every way, more aesthetically pleasing and just more enjoyable imo!

So finally we went home and it took me a while to get the system working because apparently you have to like MASH the cartridges in really hard?? I'm not thrilled by this, esp because trying to pull them out feels like the damn things are gonna break lol. But they're tough. Cartridges were so successful in part because they were tough and hard to break! BUT I got them working and first I played Starfox. And omg. This game really tests the limits of the SNES, I can tell even though i'm playing a clone console, it really lags sometimes just because it's so graphically complex for its day! Really pretty and great music, SO HARD though haha. The controls don't come naturally to me at all. But I'll play more.

And THEN I played Mario... April 9th, 2015: Oliver plays Super Mario Bros for the NES for the first time in his nearly two dozen years of life. And. Omg. Suddenly understood... everything about video games as an industry so much better haha. I totally get why this game BLEW UP when it came out, why it almost singlehandedly redeemed video games as an industry and saved the art from dying out completely in the 80s, why this HUGE culture grew out of this game and why it became such a big deal back then. Playing just the first 3 levels I totally get it now and it's amazing. It's like if you're a guitar person and you get the chance to play with - idk, some legendary guitar maker's original pieces that brought them to fame in the first place, you get your hands on it and you're like WOW. So this is what the fuss was all about. Yeah, that's how Super Mario Bros feels. The flow, the design - it's challenging in JUST the right way, you can fuck up sooo many different ways and you WILL, but it's not too hard, just hard enough. You know exactly when enemies are gonna pop out, and yet it doesn't feel predictable or boring, just makes sense. Everything makes so much sense and yet it's SO simple. Like. Wow. This is where it all started, this is what every game for years to come would strive to be when you boil it down.

I'm in awe, like wow. Nintendo knew they had a gem and just like Tetris, they included it with every copy of the console. [They should do that now, fuckers!! Have a great new property title ready to go at launch and include it with the system!!] They know EXACTLY what they're doing and always have, haha. I'm such a huge fanboy man, like what a great and unique company with a rich history. Good job on that existence y'all.


Now I'm gonna take a shower and maybe play some more, idk. We'll see what I do with the last few hours before I head to work. It's been a pretty good day even though I spent a little more money than intended. [This happens literally every time I go to save point don't act surprised :U]

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Mar. 30th, 2015 08:25 pm
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rolled outta bed from my nap to post because today has been much better.

i guess sometime during my episode yesterday i flew off in headspace and lost contact with everyone. for a while the doors between me and the back were shut, but even when they opened again my connection with them wasn't working. i was still recovering from yesterday. but when i woke up from my nap, i felt gentle fingers sifting through the feathers of my mane, and a soft voice singing behind my head,

When the bombs finished falling,
and the ashes were drifting along the road
Little child, how you lifted
your eyes to the air
and the ancient shapes of crows...

Nobody would ever have known
No hand and no eye could have shown
How you would reply...


he found me. <3


ahh see now i'm up and i don't even know what to say. i went to Save Point and only spent a tiny amount of money because i went to get the speaker replaced in my game boy, but the only guy there didn't know how. so. but he did know how to replace the battery in my crystal version which was goode. although he tightened the back screw on the game a little too much and the screw poked thru the cartridge art :/ but i guess it's worth it for a working game. yellow version might be a lost cause though which breaks my heart. was my first ever pokemon game. and i got a clear new backing for the battery compartment, so i don't have to use tape anymore. i should get one for my GBA too, the little hinge broke off it long ago.

i'll brew me some coffee and maybe sit on the porch and feel my silly feels. they're very silly but quite good. i just wish i knew how to say them. now that i've lost /most/ of my fear of scaring her away with my feelings, it really feels good to express them. and continue doing so.

idk. just sitting here and nursing a soft heart like i do most evenings alone. it's a good thing. very good. and such a pure feeling.

work tonight should be easy compared to the weekend and then i'll be off for my weekly two day break. most excellent.

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Mar. 20th, 2015 06:34 pm
thebrokenarrows: (general)
feel like i should make a more detailed lj post about my day idk

DID MY TAXES. and even tho i had to pay $100 for being too poor to afford insurance when i was told i wouldn't have to... my refund is still huge. bigger than any year previous omg. omg. and even though i can't find my direct deposit info because of moving and so i have to wait for it to come in the mail... STILL STOKED. gonna be a real help.

bb just left after we did our taxes together, bc he forgot the zucchini for the roasted veggies and the zucchini is by far the best and most important part. so.

idk. what am i feeling like today. i'm about to take a shower. children are yelling outside. i'm sitting on the futon in the living room and typing away. Murphy was curled up asleep next to me until just a minute ago. i have to leave for work entirely too early today and i woke up late [because bb was gone and no Bird to text me awake so tbh no reason to get up early] so i feel pressed for time even though i don't have anything else to do today besides taxes.

feeling kinda... ehh. idk. can't get her off my mind. but i mean... that's nothing new. i'm not broken up about her not being around but it feels fundamentally Wrong. part of my life just missing right now. like i'm poking with my tongue every five minutes at a hole where a tooth should be. it's ok. i'm halfway through as of tonight. it's gone by fast. i never did get the goodbye text and that niggles at my brain, my paranoia trying to convince me something happened but i know nothing happened and it's fine.

just not feeling much of anything rn tbh? which i guess rings some small alarm bells for depression but i pretty much always have depressive tendencies so... that's unsurprising. idk. don't have money or time to get out and do anything fun today really. but yet i was still productive and that's good.

played more puzzle league. beat normal mode and then hard mode 1p campaign hell yeah. notably on hard mode i beat Sabrina in TWELVE SECONDS LOLOL. didn't even mean to, it just went that way and it was great. and then later Bruno stomped me TWICE before i was able to beat him. so i had to use continues but still.

jesus christ those children are screaming at the tops of their lungs why don't they play somewhere besides the stairwell >_<

idk. just been a day. just trying to get through the weekend as fast as possible. i wanted this weekend to be full of ~adventure~ but somehow didn't consider that i'm broke as fuck because of poor decision making this last week :| so.... yeah. but i'll find something to do. still reallllly really wanna take that trip to Huntersville at the first opportunity and go see the raptor center with Hiccup and the witchy shop.

shit i was going to go to the post office today, just remembered and now it's too late >:/

speaking of Hiccup, it seems like his little trip out into the wilderness of headspace resulted in some... issues with us syncing up like we did before? like it's harder for me to sense him now, it's like it's back to where it was a while ago. harder for him to front or for me to stay tuned in and hear him consistently. it's kinda upsetting but i mean, what's done is done and all we can do is work on it. i don't emotionally feel like it hurt my trust or anything like that. not at all. but idk. i guess we have to build the bond back up some to where it was. idk, i've never done this kind of thing before so i don't really have an understanding. he's been back about as long as he was gone and it's not back to normal and that... doesn't seem right. idk. we'll try to work on it i guess.

idk. don't feel great or bad about this day. just kinda doing my thing. was productive, did something important and that's good. hard to hear headspace or feel them nearby right now but... it'll pass. things will be back to normal soon enough.

031915

Mar. 19th, 2015 06:27 pm
thebrokenarrows: (general)
Bird's gone, i assume... haven't got the 'see you later' text yet and it's past 4pm there. i assume they'd be on the road by now, but maybe i'm wrong, i could just be an impatient SOB. it's fine. even if i don't get it it's okay. i know she'll come back. was actually feeling a lot worse last night when she was still THERE than i do now and that's weird but... w/e. now begins the long weekend of the silent phone. but it's ok. it will all be okay. last night was fucking wonderful and i'm just gonna hold onto that as well as some other particular memories and chew on them until i start hearing that familiar little bell tone again. <3

[remember in like 2012 when bb went camping for his birthday and you couldn't talk to him for three days and had like massive panic attacks every day and did nothing but sit and wait for the day he'd come home???? how far we've come...]

in other news i have continued to not be the best with money -_- i'm still out of the danger zone, but just... ehh. i should be a lot more conservative. but friggin save point got in a copy of pokemon puzzle league, one of the only games lost from my original n64 collection. and i wanted it and it was just $10 so hell yeah. but then... they also had the Majora's Mask soundtrack. the original one. [although mine was the paper one you got for subscribing to nintendo power, and this one is the one you got from Club Nintendo way back in 2000, so although it's not the same it's even more special omg] which was another thing that was really special to me that i've lost. i listened to that soundtrack so much. used to go hiking into the wilderness around my house with my cd player in my backpack playing this soundtrack because that game is fucking magical and important. so. yeah.
and THEN my roommates wanted to go out and get food bc the kitchen's being cleaned, so i may have spent $10 more on sushi. >_>' gdi Ollie. but god it was good. good sushi. so that's how we learned that there's a totally acceptable sushi restaurant 5 minutes from the house, technically i could walk there, omfg.

so yeah. that was pretty much today. and now it's the beginning of the work week so... gonna hook up the n64 and play me some pokemon puzzle league, actually on my system and not on a ROM, for the first time in like 15 years. [because my original copy of the game, the cartridge rattled for whatever reason??? played fine, just had... idk something loose in it. and one day i guess my sister got curious and, although she wasn't the type to do this kinda thing, took the cartridge apart. and so it broke. sad face! BUT NOW I HAVE IT AGAIN THE POWER OF ADULTHOOD.]

ugh god i miss her like crazy already. heard nothing but good news about the house hunting that's going on tho so. i'm excited about that. i want to come see her in their own place and not have to worry about her family judging her because of me. [or worry about them being around when we're alone :#3c]
thebrokenarrows: (general)

so i did indeed go out to save point and it was totally worthwhile. def gave my day a much happier note.

went up there and came home with a new gamecube [although i still have my old one, they had no need for parts for a disc-based console] and a spare AV/power cable. sooo i guess i'll give my old one to someone who needs one haha?? that's how i got mine last summer, someone gave it to me for free, so. only this time it WILL come with cords. :v but it also came with a controller, like AN OFFICIAL NINTENDO CONTROLLER and it blew my mind how much better it was than the third party new one i've had since like august. omg. the third party one works fine but it has no weights in the handles and like. the weighted one just feels like sex in your hand compared to it. omg. it's so comfortable and natural yas.
oh and the gamecube itself is purple!! very classic. even though it doesn't match the black/white of all my other consoles, somehow it fits in better there. maybe because the system was always advertised purple, like the wii was advertised white. idk!

also got a working copy of Metroid Prime since the one i bought a few weeks ago didn't work for some reason, and omg. didn't expect to get hooked IN THE TUTORIAL LEVEL LOL. i meant to just play the tutorial stage and quit, and i did, but it was HARD to quit omg. i did not expect to get so into it that early in the game. GOOD STORYTELLING GREAT JOB WHOEVER MADE THESE. i've never been a metroid player but always heard they were quality. and i think i can already confirm that. yas.
other stuff i got... finally found a good [late] bday present for bb! Goldeneye for n64, which i think is his favorite game and not one that i'd ever owned. so i grabbed him a copy. i think this is the first new n64 game i've gotten since like ten years ago LOL! awesome. and also i got Ico for ps2, because we had this demo version of it on a disc once and i always thought it was cool but never seen the full game available, and it was cheap so i grabbed it. as if i needed more games without cases laying around rofl. but eh it works.
annnd i got a charizard poster that was in the $1 bin! it was a japanese poster of mega charizard Y for the TCG! i have no idea how that ended up there but the guy expressed a lack of surprise that it didn't last long before getting bought rofl. got it for my 'zard collection hell yeah. now i have more megazard stuff.

OH AND... the biggest money oops lolol. grabbed the Zelda Collector's Edition disc for gamecube as well. it's kinda hard to find but they were selling it for like 45 bucks so i grabbed it. runs over 100 bucks online lots of the time. it comes with a demo of Wind Waker as well as the first 2 zelda games, ocarina of time and majora's mask. [apparently i must own majora's mask on every possible console lolol.] now all i need is the gamecube twilight princess and i'm basically set for zelda on gc LOL! good. yes.

so i played Metroid Prime some, checked the Zelda game to make sure it played, and then decided to peek at my poor neglected animal crossing town LOL. i hadn't played it since september. :x but it was alright. just picked HELLA FUCKIN WEEDS. literally hundreds of weeds in the last five months. i don't even think i got them all now that i think about it but i spent like 30 minutes picking weeds and apologizing to my villagers for disappearing the whole winter lolol. only had one move away! and one or two others moved in. so that's cool i guess. i'm not as invested in this town but also i saw Wild World for sale at save point and was like .... better not.... lol. two towns is already too much!!

so. yeah. games stuff. makin me feel a little better about life. and now i'm clean and showered and thinking about what i want to do with my hair eventually. oh and bb brought me jimmy johns because i was having a craving for it and it was sooo good even though they put cheese on it when i asked them not to :v and jj's is stopping using alfalfa sprouts i guess which makes me SO SAD BECAUSE OH MY GOD i love alfalfa sprouts. i will eat shitloads of them on everything. ;_; and yeah. even though i spend lots of time in that grease pit serving angry drunks... my life is so much more than that. my life is spending time in the sun and making good art and talking to friends [even when we have busy days and can't talk to each other much sometimes] and playing good games both retro and new and eating good food and. yes.

last night hiccup wrote "Joy is real" in red ink on my arm and i think he's going to do it again tonight. at the base of my forearm so it's covered by my sleeve just barely, and i can pull it back to reveal it but it won't get washed away. and it helped me so much. that part of the song sounds like flying as high as your wings can possibly carry you, so high you feel lightheaded and can't breathe properly. joy. is. real. it's so real.


and now arty is making a nest in his cage like he always does at night. god you're so effing cute you big idiot. and i must go to work and experience yet another saturday night :v

022815

Feb. 28th, 2015 05:31 pm
thebrokenarrows: (thorns)
move countdown is 3 days. gonna be a very interesting little while. we got the go-ahead to fill our car[s?] up with a few preliminary boxes and take up the first bit of stuff tomorrow, since the previous occupant will be out by tonight. i've still gotta get my car fixed up, i guess that'll happen Monday. new battery probably, windshield wipers most definitely, maybe something else idk.

today packed up everything in the bathroom except the essentials for the next couple days, and started packing the kitchen stuff away. gotta get a second opinion on exactly what in there is ours lol. i kinda want... to get the breadbox from the kitchen since it's mine. we'll see if there's room in the new place. don't want to take it and then end up having to shove it in a corner somewhere.

getting some stuff done on my games, mostly pokemon, that i've been putting off. some downloads and such. especially because THE EON TICKET IS FINALLY HAPPENING and i need it. i can get Latios finally. ;^; and i need to go on my Y version and figure out how to transfer a box full of pokemon over to my brother's pokemon bank because i owe them to him. he doesn't actually want them or will use them at all but he knows i'm moving away and so he will mostly lose access to them. and like i said they are his and i accidentally moved them onto my game in the first place lol so. yeah.

a thing we're going to do today is sit down together and just. write. write down what we think and say. because thoughts are good but so fleeting and recording them helps us anchor sometimes.

idk man. IDK. i'm really... happy. really inspired by this weird thing we've got going on, me and Hiccup. all i want to do is write and draw and work on things about it. and i'm sure it'll pass and things will change and that's fine. but this is... such a rapid period of growth right now. just so much learning. Things that I used to dread I actually kinda look forward to now and that's just... fucking crazyballs. What are you doing to me.

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