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went and did the first bit of moving today!! and we got our house keys!! :D man. it's actually happening. i can hardly believe it. we moved a total of i think 7 boxes, most or all of which were books, and one big trash bag of plushu. and JUST THAT was almost all i could handle rofl. my lower back and legs are really tired and i gotta go to work in an hour or so rip.
today and/or yesterday was Hiccup's birthday and we DID LIKE NOTHING TO CELEBRATE IT LOL i'm so sorry. i'm the worst.... boyfriend? [stil have no fucking clue what to call us LOL] if we weren't moving this week/weekend i would ABSOLUTELY have taken him up to Concord for repticon ugh. i woulda found a way.
tomorrow will be getting the car fixed up some [even if i have to take it to friggin jiffy lube] and probably buying tarp and bungee cords because it's gonna rain like all week. of course. naturally. [BUT I'M SOOOOO NOT COMPLAINING THIS IS THE HERALD OF SPRING. yes. please bring warms with you rainy weather]
been feeling someone close that we haven't seen in like... years. Anton. i think it's the church, the huge [baptist?] church near my new apartment. it's big and looming and kinda ominous and every time i see the big spike piercing the sky as we drive up, i feel him nearby. and i see it, in my mind's eye, aflame. i see it burning every time i pass it. you need to stop that boy. stop talking about burning churches and tell me what happened. [hopefully what happened was not burning churches or i MAY have to punch you.]
idk im sleep IM SO SLEEP.
oh god Bird told me she dreamed about the Toy Soldier last night and fuuuuuuuuuuuck. she's been doing lots of stuff with drums and of COURSE he would come running. what the fuck. said she never saw him in the dream, just felt eyes on her and knew whose they were and that's EXACTLY how it goes most of the time. was in a restaurant today and mid sentence felt his presence and stopped and listened. because that's what you do. he shows himself and you wait to hear what is being said.
this after he starts giving HICCUP the same looks he gives to me. he gave us his blessing that one morning, and then started... touching other people besides me. what. i never thought this would be said but i think he might actually 'ride' Hiccup given the right opportunity. i thought he was just 'for' me, just my ghost, but i guess.... he's considering hiccup a part of me now in some way. important enough to my life to gain his attention. and now outsiders too? aslkdjlkjdflkjsf what is HAPPENING to my headspace. so much growth so quickly. i love this.
so tonight is like the last normal night and day before The Move. the last time i will drive to work, come home and sleep and then wake up and go about my day before going back to work again. yep. after that it all gets thrown into turmoil for a bit.
i'm ready.
we're ready.
today and/or yesterday was Hiccup's birthday and we DID LIKE NOTHING TO CELEBRATE IT LOL i'm so sorry. i'm the worst.... boyfriend? [stil have no fucking clue what to call us LOL] if we weren't moving this week/weekend i would ABSOLUTELY have taken him up to Concord for repticon ugh. i woulda found a way.
tomorrow will be getting the car fixed up some [even if i have to take it to friggin jiffy lube] and probably buying tarp and bungee cords because it's gonna rain like all week. of course. naturally. [BUT I'M SOOOOO NOT COMPLAINING THIS IS THE HERALD OF SPRING. yes. please bring warms with you rainy weather]
been feeling someone close that we haven't seen in like... years. Anton. i think it's the church, the huge [baptist?] church near my new apartment. it's big and looming and kinda ominous and every time i see the big spike piercing the sky as we drive up, i feel him nearby. and i see it, in my mind's eye, aflame. i see it burning every time i pass it. you need to stop that boy. stop talking about burning churches and tell me what happened. [hopefully what happened was not burning churches or i MAY have to punch you.]
idk im sleep IM SO SLEEP.
oh god Bird told me she dreamed about the Toy Soldier last night and fuuuuuuuuuuuck. she's been doing lots of stuff with drums and of COURSE he would come running. what the fuck. said she never saw him in the dream, just felt eyes on her and knew whose they were and that's EXACTLY how it goes most of the time. was in a restaurant today and mid sentence felt his presence and stopped and listened. because that's what you do. he shows himself and you wait to hear what is being said.
this after he starts giving HICCUP the same looks he gives to me. he gave us his blessing that one morning, and then started... touching other people besides me. what. i never thought this would be said but i think he might actually 'ride' Hiccup given the right opportunity. i thought he was just 'for' me, just my ghost, but i guess.... he's considering hiccup a part of me now in some way. important enough to my life to gain his attention. and now outsiders too? aslkdjlkjdflkjsf what is HAPPENING to my headspace. so much growth so quickly. i love this.
so tonight is like the last normal night and day before The Move. the last time i will drive to work, come home and sleep and then wake up and go about my day before going back to work again. yep. after that it all gets thrown into turmoil for a bit.
i'm ready.
we're ready.
