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- N64 controller, maybe on ankle
- The need for a cicada piece is undying and strong. I don't feel particularly connected to cicadas but they are BEAUTIFUL and I do quite like them. So. Lower back?
- A chest piece. Probably after surgery. Possibly Bloodstone's gem if I want to be a GIGANTIC NERD but idk
- and obviously the Broken Arrows symbol which might get done by the end of this year even! the final design will be done by Bird :3
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we've mostly recovered from yesterday. mostly. feel like we can take on the weekend, i hope anyway. no promises about tomorrow but i'm no longer an inch from quitting. it'll be a while before i can look at the involved parties without some amount of rage lol, but it's fine. today should be busy but fine.

today definitely helped. i needed today. the roommates took us out to eat as a belated housewarming sort of gift for us moving in back in march. [wow it's been five months already???] took us to this cute little bike-themed restaurant in plaza midwood. i laughed at the four of us fatasses [or rather, three fatasses/chubs and my super average weight but not exactly in shape boyfriend lol] in a bike related place. [I'D LOVE A BIKE THO GODDAMN BUY ME ONE] the food i had was ok, i sorta regret getting a salad but ehh it's fine, it was good and i have some leftovers to eat. but mostly it was super fun laughing with my bb and roomies at this spanish sports talk show that was on mute and figuring out by their expressions what was going on. and at one point Damien toasted us [how european of him lol] saying "welcome to our home!" and a bunch of other things, like his business becoming legally official, Jordan's promotion, bb's new job, etc etc. there wasn't anything related to me in particular which seems kinda weird but actually i didn't feel left out because their successes are my successes. i dunno if you'd call us a family, but we're definitely a sort of team. that lives together lol. maybe we are family i dunno. i like them, i know that much. and living with them is easy which is something i need.

ALSO while we were in the restaurant: Owen was lowkey chilling nearby and i repeatedly saw the name Owen flashing up on tv screens. multiple times. what the hell. and as soon as i walk in the door i see a claw machine that says "Toy Soldier" in huge letters emblazoned on it. literally right there. wtaf. AND: our waitress had the crossed arrows tattoo on her arm. which is making me rethink my Broken Arrows tattoo placement actually. thinking front of my right bicep now.

we drove separately and i just felt a pull to walk around plaza midwood for a bit, so i convinced bb to go with me. just walk down the sidewalk for a bit, see the sights. [we saw a cats only grooming spa. yo. think i know where we'll take murphy to get his butt trimmed down lol. and microchips/shots for $15!! need to do that too!] then we got to where the DQ is and went.... weh. it's gonna rain i think. the wind started kicking up for one of the daily summer evening storms and we'd walked a ways from the car. so we started to head back. but THEN.

then i felt the vibration in my chest. the familiar kicking of drums, not just any drums but marching drums. i hear the sharp snapping of snare drums. and i look across the street and there they are!! a small drumline warming up in the grocery store parking lot. oh my god. so we cross the street to head back that way and they begin to march. heading down the street beating out a sharp cadence. yas. YASSSS. so obviously we follow them and just i'm reveling in the glory of the walls, the buildings, everything echoing with the familiar sound of marching drums. even though the first bass was beating the hell out of his drum way too hard and i could see the dents in the head. then they rounded a corner and stopped and began to display choreographed dances and shouts and stuff omg. the drums had led us to a little market that was set up on the plaza, with tapestries and blankets and art everywhere. it was beautiful but i had eyes only for the drums. i tipped them and i found out they were raising money for the burned churches. i had tears oh my god. absolutely beautiful and so well done. and it felt so good for my entire body to vibrate with the power of these drums again. i live for this.
wanted to join them so bad. but i doubt they'd take a white kid lol. if they had any online presence at all i had absolutely intended to ask anyway!! but i... can't find them anywhere, just videos of past performances. it sucks they're really really good and i'd LOVE, love to join them. i'd absolutely march for their cause. completely. that's an honorable reason to drum. i would drum for that with them anyday.
i knew as soon as this happened, this is why i felt pulled out here. i'm glad i followed that pull. i really needed that after yesterday. thanks universe.

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Mar. 15th, 2015 07:09 pm
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thinking about traveling today. thinking about the South, and the city that i now call home. i realized last night, i was born in this city. [i think in the hospital near McAlpine creek park. i need to check that park out if it's right where i came into the world.] so it's really good that now i get to experience it more. and i'm learning as i grow older that traveling actually teaches me about where i come from just as much as it teaches me about the new places. like today i learned that Bojangles restaurants originated here in charlotte. which is crazy because i'm pretty sure they've been everywhere i've traveled, from WV to Florida, but they started here in Charlotte in the 70s. o_o also there's Cheerwine which is a soda made by a small-ish local company from the carolinas.

last night at work was really hard. so hard. i came a hair's breadth from shutting down completely, which hasn't happened in a long time. and tonight has the potential to be just as bad, maybe even worse. but the days are peaceful, and for that i'm so grateful. today bb and i got to hang out for the first time in several days, he's just been busy and not home all the time and it's been weird. but today we went to target and got me some work pants [i'm so not ok with spending $30 on pants that are just gonna get all greased up >:| but i needed em and goodwill just had nothing to offer me this time i guess] and shampoo and then ate Bojangles and it was good.

and that was when we got talking about the South and my weird adult-onset pride, or maybe just happiness at having been born here. i dunno. still picking out words to describe the interesting feelings there. like as a kid i had this phase where i was like YEAH COUNTRY YEAH SOUTHERN I GUESS for no... apparent reason? and i was really embarassed of that phase for a while so in my teens i was actively like WHATEVER I JUST HAPPENED TO BE BORN HERE, BEING PROUD OF IT IS POINTLESS IT'S JUST A MATTER OF CHANCE. which also makes sense. but now i'm in my 20s and i'm like you know what? this place has its warts. lots of them. the South has religion problems and politics problems and especially bigotry problems. and being born as a trans queer kid in the South has its own struggles. but like... idk. i feel good about having been born to this place, this life. i don't think i would have chosen a different path for myself. it's coming up really lovely so far. even though i have barely begun my transition to be more comfortable in my own skin... i'm happy right now. and i hope it can keep being that way because it's such a good feeling. looking back on my childhood, i can see the idealized Southern-ness of it all and it's a really comfy sort of memory haha. and like i said, moving away and traveling and growing up gives me perspective and makes me happier about being born to this life. and when i actually leave the South for the first time ever, which should be this summer, that will give me even more.


been repeatedly writing important things on a certain spot on my arm and realized that I need a tattoo there. think it will be like a scroll ribbon, but a long empty length so i can write whatever needs written on there whenever i need. just gotta figure out a good design or have someone do one for me. i'm still not confident enough to do my own tattoo designs to be on my own body haha.
but before i get that one done, my next tattoo will be the Broken Arrows sigil. the symbol of my System. the finalized tattoo design will be drawn by my best friend. that's some powerful magic and make no mistake. and i'm really excited to get it done. it'll be on my lower right leg near the ankle, i think. i would love to have it done by the time i go see her in August or whenever that happens, so she can see it. :D

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Feb. 18th, 2015 05:27 pm
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IDEAS OF THE DAY: more tattoo stuff. bird got talking about wanting a half sleeve and i've never really given thought to the idea but you know what, that would solve my problem of wanting SO MANY FUCKING BIRDS TATTOOED ON ME. a half sleeve of birds would make so much sense.

SO HERE WE GO OLIVER'S FAVORITE THING: lists. list of bird species candidates for the eventual half sleeve [most likely right arm]:

- Carolina Parakeet
- Bohemian Waxwing
- Belted Kingfisher
- Great Blue Heron
- Double Crested Cormorant
- Brown Pelican [immature?? they are so cute in their baby feathers]
- Magpie [american, for Bird of course <3]
- Bowerbird [no idea what species, probably a male holding a little bone in its foot, to show it's a bowerbird and not a crow or w/e]
- Shearwater [again unsure on species; would put albatross but i have a separate tattoo idea for that]
- Turkey Vulture
- maybe a little small cockatiel in there??
- Passenger pigeon?
- A raptor of some kind? not sure what but i feel like that family should be represented edit: realized this would most likely be a Little Eagle, for Ales :3


other miscellaneous tattoo wants/ideas:
- albatross pair with me and bb??
- tiger, also probably in a rly nice wildlife illustration/lithograph style like Walton Ford
- Broken Arrows of course
- archaeopteryx, wonder if i could somehow incorporate it in the bird sleeve???

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Feb. 16th, 2015 06:34 pm
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ICE AND SHIT IS HERE YAY >:| and we drove up to grand asia market and on the way home my car stalled while rolling. whyyyy this. [car stalls are one of those things that gives me HUGE HUGE HUGE ANXIETY for no reeeal reason. but yeah my heart was hammering for like 15 minutes after that] it started up fine and didn't try to stall again, but it sounded unhappy to me the whole ride home idk. i think bb is going to drive me and pick me up tonight BUT LOL he blew a tire last night and is driving on a spare. more >:|. it's a real tire and not a donut or i wouldn't have even asked him. but also my tires are Bald As Hell. we both need tire money -^- if only i wasn't needing my tax refund for moving expenses, i'd buy at least two tires with it.

my manager was like 'you should come in at 7 to miss the weather!' and uhhh. three hours early? no thank u. especially knowing how slow it's gonna be tonight. i'm good. i'll risk it since 90% of the road is going to be salted and therefore almost certainly fine. i am not going out in this shit for almost 11 hours no thx. besides i already have to get HOME in it anyway and that's the worst part.

the idea of a Broken Arrows tattoo is still bouncing around in my head. i have a few ideas, but i'm liking the crossed arrow halves, making an x-shape. i just did a practice one on my forearm but actually i am kinda thinking outer ankle. it'll be quick and simple and probably pretty cheap. that should be my next tattoo. been itching for something for a while now. can't believe it's been over 5 years since my last one???? nearly 6???

my room is SO WARM and it's so nice after being out there in that sludgy shit. bleeehhh the weather is garbage. and Bird is out there in the desert right now and it's so warm there like, breaking high temperature records and her hawk is molting levels of warmth. what the hell man. meanwhile i'm just glad i'm off tomorrow to maybe give the weather a chance to get its shit together. the forecast so far is saying that it's gonna be relatively chill, just cold... while i'm off work. >:| but then this weekend it might ice again or even snow. ughhh stahp.

uhh what else. Shearwater continues to blow my mind and never leave my ears. continues to be relevant and important at all times. i'm actually trying to not listen to it as much as i feel compelled to because it's fucking beautiful music and if i burn myself out on it it will be A Crime.

ya i guess that's it. will update tomorrow assuming i don't die of ice :v so ready for winter to be done ok. i am and always will be a summer person.

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