T. B. A. S.

idk quick update my brain is p empty lately :V just some things


- for the last 48 hours i have been doing almost nothing but watching steven universe while home. LOL. i'm enjoying it thoroughly and it's making me feel a lot of things and have a lot of thoughts. mostly about headspace and myself and my role in 'space. and a lot of the Rules of our 'space that i see reflected here. which is eternally crazy and i will never get over that.
- people around lately: me, hiccup, jewel, the Toy Soldier. feeling Trolley eyeing me this afternoon too.
- i realized just now while in the shower that "Ollie", my name, not only rhymes with Trolley's name but IS PART OF it. wow. wwwwow. my brain exploded. was that on purpose somehow. does that mean anything. @_@
- the days are calm and the nights are soft and life is good these days. and i'm... continuing to open up. slowly. finding the strength to break the paralysis when i find it. having so many episodes of growth and understanding.
- i'm having so much fun taking it day by day with Bird. every day something new. most nights something happens, just some little thing that just slays me and it's wonderful. i feel like we grow a little closer every day and it's. amazing. i wouldn't change a single thing. i can't wait to come see her kjlkjladhsdfhdfg why can't i do it like right now ;u;
- also she is reading the Age of Fire series, aka my favorite books of all time. bc i sent her the first one. AND SHE LOVES IT I THINK oH my goodness. like i knew she would like it but she's like so into it and i'm super excited. im gonna go dig up some AoF stuff to reblog for her.

ollie's diary of human happiness

got my first bit of holiday shopping done today. at the book lady i found the Narnia book that is missing from my mom's box set... it's sadly not the same edition so it will stick out, but she'll have the entire series again. hopefully she'll be happy about that.
i also got Clan of the Cave Bear in paper form, because that was one of the most important books i read last year and it left a mark on my mind. and a few cheap ones... Just So Stories by Kipling, and the pair, White Fang and Call of the Wild, by Jack London. when i was a young'n, i got these two books as a pair in a watered down simplified form. now, i was about 10 by that time and reading Tolkien with ease, so i really have no clue why i got a simple english version, but hey, whatever. i will read LITERALLY ANYTHING written from an animal POV.

what's been going on? i got groceries yesterday, at Grand Asia Market. i love that place so much. i got some supplies to make my own boba tea! kinda feel like trying that out tonight. :D as well as sushi supplies. i need to practice that more, i'm so bad at cooking rice. and i got some experimental ingredients to add to ramen/vermicelli, a first step toward weaning myself off instant noodles and making my own noodle dishes. :3

last night Roane texted me and mentioned how much she talks about me all the time to her friends and they were like asking who i was, and surprised that she has a guy friend, ahaha. i blushed a lot. because god i talk about her constantly to my friends too. and we talked rather seriously about me flying out there to Utah to hang out with her some time. i would totally do that no problem. get to meet her hawk Tempest, go see what the desert is like. never been out west before. out of all places, Utah... haha. mormonland. but i grew up going to a mormon church, so it's nothing new to me.

i'm adding my friends and headpeople to Tomodachi Life, as well as a few fictional characters and youtubers and such. it's pretty fun |D i'm having a good time with that game, it was a good purchase.

have not been doing much art at all lately, which is always bad no matter the situation. i need to do more. i need to not just say what i need to do.

i unno, not a whole lot to say! this is my 'weekend', and it's already almost over. /sigh.

i've got the water boiling and doing a little reading on how to cook and store bobas. it's more complicated than i'd expect! turns out bobas keep best WARM, not cold. that surprises me. you can only refrigerate them for about a day before they fall apart, they're apparently very sensitive to temperature. that's why they pour them in the bottom of the drink, you can't mix them into the drink itself, it seems.

oh! something else. i might purchase a vape here soon. i learned the other night that they actually make TONS of nicotine free liquids, and it's very easy to vape without it. from what i learned when i visited the shop, it's basically equivalent to decaf coffee. so i'd be that weird person who orders decaf, but... yeah. it will take some saving up, so i might get it with xmas money or something, after the first of the year. but yeah, that's a thing i'm looking into. :D
honestly, it's more than just an interest in a hobby. a big part of me is doing this for Kristanova. smoking is such a HUGE anchor for him, but we've never allowed nicotine into our body more than humanly possibly [e.g. secondhand smoke exposure]. it's going on ten years now. i owe it to him after all this time. it's been hard to find him lately, maybe he'll be closer to the front if he can "smoke" while outside.