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thebrokenarrowsYES HELLO another day of livin in the city. i'm still not over this. i'm like 50 feet above the ground and listening to cars going by all day long and it's actually become kind of a calming sort of white noise. i miss hearing spring peepers outside my window but. ya know.
SPRING IS COMING I'M HEARING ROBINS AND MOCKINGBIRDS SINGING AT WORK AT NIGHT. yessss. come 2 me. meanwhile it's 35 degrees out at the hottest part of the day today. whatever north carolina. actually Charlotte is significantly higher elevation than the weird topographical hole that is union county so... weather patterns might be a little off from what i know?? IDK??? WE'LL SEE
FUCKIN i think Poe was literally just waiting for me to wake up so he could tease me oh my god. fak u. why do i get crushes on everyone literally every friend that i get close enough to.
actually i thought about this and looking back this is a life long pattern. these feelings DON'T GO AWAY like. ever. when i look back on my best friends from so long ago, Kati, Victoria, Stori, Jon... i feel the same way towards them that i did as a child. it goes beyond just fond friendship into something a little softer. i guess this is just ~my nature~ and i'm finally coming out of my shell and embracing that about myself. wanting to actually act out on my feelings a little. the last thing i want is to make anyone uncomfortable though. SHIT AIN'T SERIOUS. i just wanna snuggle my closest frens a whole lot thats all they are wonderful great people and i have feelings about it ;~;and maybe i would smooch them a little if they were cool with it ok ok i'm blushing my ass off now thinking about smooching all those friends oh god
actually come to think of it did i ever kiss Jon on the lips? we dated in middle school for a while but like we were both way too queer and confused about it for it to be a serious thing LOL. and we didn't then, but being best friends with a large, excitable VERY gay man when you are [seemingly] female will probably get you kissed eventually. and i would still probably make out with him without question if the moment happened LOL!!! i'm not even attracted to him in ~that way~ i just rly love him and also i miss him so much. what a great guy. even if he drinks like a goddamn russian bear and i cannot handle it. he parties WAY TOO HARD I WOULD LITERALLY DIE TRYING TO KEEP UP WITH HIM holy shit Jon slow ur roll. god i miss u.
i miss all my best friends from times long past. it's so nice to have friends that close again god. i realized that graduating high school was the last time i've had human connections like that until now. and now it's gone from "stop texting people so goddamn much Oliver you're annoying as hell" to i just got basically requested to text someone while they're at work because they'll need it and. im cry. it's so nice.
but yeah. actually. would i kiss every single one of those people i just named? with the exception of possibly one of them because we are too out of touch, yep. yep. that's just how my heart works i reckon. i'm VERY VERY SILLY.
also can i mention that i came home to my new apartment from work for the first time and got laid and then went to sleep aND WOKE UP AND GOT LAID AGAIN????? WOW LIFE IS RLY NICE LATELY HOLY SHIT
SPRING IS COMING I'M HEARING ROBINS AND MOCKINGBIRDS SINGING AT WORK AT NIGHT. yessss. come 2 me. meanwhile it's 35 degrees out at the hottest part of the day today. whatever north carolina. actually Charlotte is significantly higher elevation than the weird topographical hole that is union county so... weather patterns might be a little off from what i know?? IDK??? WE'LL SEE
FUCKIN i think Poe was literally just waiting for me to wake up so he could tease me oh my god. fak u. why do i get crushes on everyone literally every friend that i get close enough to.
actually i thought about this and looking back this is a life long pattern. these feelings DON'T GO AWAY like. ever. when i look back on my best friends from so long ago, Kati, Victoria, Stori, Jon... i feel the same way towards them that i did as a child. it goes beyond just fond friendship into something a little softer. i guess this is just ~my nature~ and i'm finally coming out of my shell and embracing that about myself. wanting to actually act out on my feelings a little. the last thing i want is to make anyone uncomfortable though. SHIT AIN'T SERIOUS. i just wanna snuggle my closest frens a whole lot thats all they are wonderful great people and i have feelings about it ;~;
actually come to think of it did i ever kiss Jon on the lips? we dated in middle school for a while but like we were both way too queer and confused about it for it to be a serious thing LOL. and we didn't then, but being best friends with a large, excitable VERY gay man when you are [seemingly] female will probably get you kissed eventually. and i would still probably make out with him without question if the moment happened LOL!!! i'm not even attracted to him in ~that way~ i just rly love him and also i miss him so much. what a great guy. even if he drinks like a goddamn russian bear and i cannot handle it. he parties WAY TOO HARD I WOULD LITERALLY DIE TRYING TO KEEP UP WITH HIM holy shit Jon slow ur roll. god i miss u.
i miss all my best friends from times long past. it's so nice to have friends that close again god. i realized that graduating high school was the last time i've had human connections like that until now. and now it's gone from "stop texting people so goddamn much Oliver you're annoying as hell" to i just got basically requested to text someone while they're at work because they'll need it and. im cry. it's so nice.
but yeah. actually. would i kiss every single one of those people i just named? with the exception of possibly one of them because we are too out of touch, yep. yep. that's just how my heart works i reckon. i'm VERY VERY SILLY.
