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thebrokenarrowsi've not felt quite right all day today... head feels foggy and weird and kinda hurty. drinking water feels like it should help but it doesn't really? and eating a bit of carbs and/or sugar seems to help temporarily?? but i soon slip back into this weird sleepy state. luckily we found some ibuprofen. i think that will help.
so we both have today off at the same time! something that happens too rarely. so we did a little bit of Samhain related activities. we went up to the cemetery near CATA with some cookies that we baked [using the lembas bread recipe, only instead of lembas shapes we cut out our own shapes -- skulls, ghosts, moons, pentacles, bones etc.] and left them on grave stones of the graves that we felt were lonely and could use attention.
we gave a couple of them to the geese & ducks that lived there too, since they seemed to be guardians of the place. [there are a few REALLY BIG carp living in the pond, too, from what i understand. hell yeah. sacred animals] they were such a delight, honestly. i expected them to be aggressive and demanding of our cookies when we arrived, but they were quite calm. none of them made any more than the occasional territorial head toss at us, although a couple of them let out cute hissu when we walked close by. ;w; they walked to almost within arm's reach but never close enough to touch, bold little beady eyes looking right into ours. they were very cute, sleeping and waddling around and nibbling at the grass, or watching us suspiciously or slowly following us when we had our cookies out. towards the end, large groups of them flew away. we thought they were uncomfortable because we were between them and the water, but there were also large groups of them that didn't move, so we didn't know.
there was one goose with a broken and twisted leg, poor thing. no idea how long ago that happened. his one foot is turned outward so only like one and a half toes can reach the ground, so he can get around, but he hobbles. he's VERY well fed, though. humans clearly pity him. i wonder if he can swim at all with his foot turned out like that? in circles, lol?? poor guy.
we only saved a couple of cookies to feed directly to them, even though i'm sure they will eventually nibble most of the others off the gravestones when they find them. and that's fine. offerings are for the living as well as the dead.
i'm glad we did that. it felt good. i need to come to terms with the concept of walking over graves, though. when i was little it scared me, now that i'm older and less superstitious [lol?????????], it just makes me really uncomfortable. but in this cemetery it's kinda impossible not to, unless you just walk only on the roads. they are packed closely together and it's almost impossible to tell which way the grave is facing, because it's not always consistent across the whole cemetery. bb kept reassuring me that they don't mind, and i'm sure they probably don't. but. ehh. i just don't like doing that at all.
i'll come back later, with more food for the geese [proper food, not bread or something, something that's moderately good for them to eat] and a trowel or something to scoop myself up some graveyard dirt. it's not as old as the cemetery in downtown, but either one will do.
egh. i've just been out of sorts for the past few days. maybe i'm fighting off a light sickness, i dunno. for now i'm gonna heat up a little personal pizza and... do something. i dunno. i've been rather lethargic, my eyes feel strained or hurty, i'm bored but don't want to actually do anything that comes to mind. ya know?
i washed out this cup before i filled it with water and I CAN'T TELL IF IT TASTES SOAPY OR NOT lol?? i guess that means it's ok... idek
-later-
i beat Drakan!!! for i guess the second time, i don't have clear memories of beating it the first time but i know i did. the STRESS WAS REAL. haha. it was so hard near the end, i used a fair number of invisibility/invulnerability potions which i'd saved up through the whole game. i had a pretty damn good time with that. it was quite fun as always and man i'm sad that it's over. now bb needs to play it. but yeah. that was a really good 10 dollars i spent, i don't regret that a bit, SO many happy memories relived and remade. big thanks to that ebay seller. and now that i'm older i have a better understanding of how i'm supposed to do stuff, get better items, and it's easier to search stuff about the game so i can know about certain things before hand... i fully intend to do another playthrough later on and play a bit differently.
yeaaaah. as far as work goes, life keeps pushing a "MOVE THE HELL ON ALREADY" in my face harder and harder to the point of bitchslapping me with it, and i keep trying to ignore it... not gonna work forever. yeah, in fact i'm gonna go browse Indeed right now. because who knows if i'll actually feel motivated to again anytime soon, lmao.
hahahhaaaa how did i forget how exhausting and disheartening job hunting is? almost as soul draining as interacting with customers at work. -_- honestly neither one of them is much worse than the other, except on REALLY bad days at my current job, then that's worse i guess... uggghhh. job hunting is so fucking hard. i'm SO BAD at job interviews. i need to stop saying that even though it's true. :/
yeeeeah. took two more ibuprofen and they did absolutely nothing for this headache. more like head pressure? idk but it hurts and sucks and it's drained away my whole two days off that should have been relaxing but were only partially so. damn it. -_- idk man. feelin burned out as hell recently. and the fact that this might be my last normal work week for a while kinda fucks with my head even more.
so we both have today off at the same time! something that happens too rarely. so we did a little bit of Samhain related activities. we went up to the cemetery near CATA with some cookies that we baked [using the lembas bread recipe, only instead of lembas shapes we cut out our own shapes -- skulls, ghosts, moons, pentacles, bones etc.] and left them on grave stones of the graves that we felt were lonely and could use attention.
we gave a couple of them to the geese & ducks that lived there too, since they seemed to be guardians of the place. [there are a few REALLY BIG carp living in the pond, too, from what i understand. hell yeah. sacred animals] they were such a delight, honestly. i expected them to be aggressive and demanding of our cookies when we arrived, but they were quite calm. none of them made any more than the occasional territorial head toss at us, although a couple of them let out cute hissu when we walked close by. ;w; they walked to almost within arm's reach but never close enough to touch, bold little beady eyes looking right into ours. they were very cute, sleeping and waddling around and nibbling at the grass, or watching us suspiciously or slowly following us when we had our cookies out. towards the end, large groups of them flew away. we thought they were uncomfortable because we were between them and the water, but there were also large groups of them that didn't move, so we didn't know.
there was one goose with a broken and twisted leg, poor thing. no idea how long ago that happened. his one foot is turned outward so only like one and a half toes can reach the ground, so he can get around, but he hobbles. he's VERY well fed, though. humans clearly pity him. i wonder if he can swim at all with his foot turned out like that? in circles, lol?? poor guy.
we only saved a couple of cookies to feed directly to them, even though i'm sure they will eventually nibble most of the others off the gravestones when they find them. and that's fine. offerings are for the living as well as the dead.
i'm glad we did that. it felt good. i need to come to terms with the concept of walking over graves, though. when i was little it scared me, now that i'm older and less superstitious [lol?????????], it just makes me really uncomfortable. but in this cemetery it's kinda impossible not to, unless you just walk only on the roads. they are packed closely together and it's almost impossible to tell which way the grave is facing, because it's not always consistent across the whole cemetery. bb kept reassuring me that they don't mind, and i'm sure they probably don't. but. ehh. i just don't like doing that at all.
i'll come back later, with more food for the geese [proper food, not bread or something, something that's moderately good for them to eat] and a trowel or something to scoop myself up some graveyard dirt. it's not as old as the cemetery in downtown, but either one will do.
egh. i've just been out of sorts for the past few days. maybe i'm fighting off a light sickness, i dunno. for now i'm gonna heat up a little personal pizza and... do something. i dunno. i've been rather lethargic, my eyes feel strained or hurty, i'm bored but don't want to actually do anything that comes to mind. ya know?
i washed out this cup before i filled it with water and I CAN'T TELL IF IT TASTES SOAPY OR NOT lol?? i guess that means it's ok... idek
-later-
i beat Drakan!!! for i guess the second time, i don't have clear memories of beating it the first time but i know i did. the STRESS WAS REAL. haha. it was so hard near the end, i used a fair number of invisibility/invulnerability potions which i'd saved up through the whole game. i had a pretty damn good time with that. it was quite fun as always and man i'm sad that it's over. now bb needs to play it. but yeah. that was a really good 10 dollars i spent, i don't regret that a bit, SO many happy memories relived and remade. big thanks to that ebay seller. and now that i'm older i have a better understanding of how i'm supposed to do stuff, get better items, and it's easier to search stuff about the game so i can know about certain things before hand... i fully intend to do another playthrough later on and play a bit differently.
yeaaaah. as far as work goes, life keeps pushing a "MOVE THE HELL ON ALREADY" in my face harder and harder to the point of bitchslapping me with it, and i keep trying to ignore it... not gonna work forever. yeah, in fact i'm gonna go browse Indeed right now. because who knows if i'll actually feel motivated to again anytime soon, lmao.
hahahhaaaa how did i forget how exhausting and disheartening job hunting is? almost as soul draining as interacting with customers at work. -_- honestly neither one of them is much worse than the other, except on REALLY bad days at my current job, then that's worse i guess... uggghhh. job hunting is so fucking hard. i'm SO BAD at job interviews. i need to stop saying that even though it's true. :/
yeeeeah. took two more ibuprofen and they did absolutely nothing for this headache. more like head pressure? idk but it hurts and sucks and it's drained away my whole two days off that should have been relaxing but were only partially so. damn it. -_- idk man. feelin burned out as hell recently. and the fact that this might be my last normal work week for a while kinda fucks with my head even more.
