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041915 today feels pink for some reason
Apr. 19th, 2015 07:43 pmtoday is a CONSIDERABLE improvement over the last week. right now sitting in bed with the lights off just sitting here with my laptop, leaning up against bb who is curled up asleep. watching the rain come down in sheets, pattering on the window screen, and skyping my best friend.
i'm in an exceptionally sappy, sentimental mood today hahah. it's nice. woke up to Bird sending me a selfie and so the first thing i saw today was her face and immediately was just like :#3. and all day have felt rather kindly towards humanity as a whole, friendlier than usual, wanna hold all my loved ones close. maybe this is the opposite hormonal mood swing from the other day but i can deal w this one. warm fuzzies everywhere. [my moods usually don't go crazy like this every month, but eh. last couple of years it's started deciding that it's boring to cycle with no symptoms whatsoever besides like 1 hour of cramps per month, so now i get swelling and pain and mood swings and all that fun shit :V]
was the first day for quite a while that bb and i have got to just spend time together, we went out and had lunch and then came home and he played tetris attack for the first time, and got totally sucked in while i looked up some cute stickers for to put on my laptop. my last laptop lived 5 years, its entire lifespan with no stickers bc i guess i thought it would be a bad idea or something to put stickers on that i couldn't get back off later??? that's a bad mindset. like it feels healthy and cautious but it keeps me from having any fun in life. things are changing and im gonna put cute stickers of studio ghibli and pokemon and steven universe [YES THE CURRENT PHASE IM NOT GONNA REGRET IT LATER SHUT UP MIND]
wwwwwwwwwwwwwweh idk i don't rly have anything more to say im just a ball of warm fuzzy feels right now and i love a lot of people and what's more i think they love me back some and it's so nice ;u;
should talk later about: colors and what they feel associated with in my mind. actually a v important thing in headspace. for example pink is a very soft and comforting color to me, not at all "feminine" per se just cute and comforting like a favorite plush toy.
i'm in an exceptionally sappy, sentimental mood today hahah. it's nice. woke up to Bird sending me a selfie and so the first thing i saw today was her face and immediately was just like :#3. and all day have felt rather kindly towards humanity as a whole, friendlier than usual, wanna hold all my loved ones close. maybe this is the opposite hormonal mood swing from the other day but i can deal w this one. warm fuzzies everywhere. [my moods usually don't go crazy like this every month, but eh. last couple of years it's started deciding that it's boring to cycle with no symptoms whatsoever besides like 1 hour of cramps per month, so now i get swelling and pain and mood swings and all that fun shit :V]
was the first day for quite a while that bb and i have got to just spend time together, we went out and had lunch and then came home and he played tetris attack for the first time, and got totally sucked in while i looked up some cute stickers for to put on my laptop. my last laptop lived 5 years, its entire lifespan with no stickers bc i guess i thought it would be a bad idea or something to put stickers on that i couldn't get back off later??? that's a bad mindset. like it feels healthy and cautious but it keeps me from having any fun in life. things are changing and im gonna put cute stickers of studio ghibli and pokemon and steven universe [YES THE CURRENT PHASE IM NOT GONNA REGRET IT LATER SHUT UP MIND]
wwwwwwwwwwwwwweh idk i don't rly have anything more to say im just a ball of warm fuzzy feels right now and i love a lot of people and what's more i think they love me back some and it's so nice ;u;
should talk later about: colors and what they feel associated with in my mind. actually a v important thing in headspace. for example pink is a very soft and comforting color to me, not at all "feminine" per se just cute and comforting like a favorite plush toy.
