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WELL, i feel like i didn't get a whole lot of free time today. but that's ok. i woke up to breakfast in bed, this mixed up dish of livermush and eggs and cheese and chopped up green pepper and onion that bb had made. and it was sooo tasty. even though when i first wake up i don't feel hungry almost always even if i am, it takes like 30 minutes. so i got that feeling of eating when i wasn't hungry, lol. and i wasn't reeeeally in the mood for livermush. BUT what i'm saying is that dish was objectively delicious and i enjoyed it even though it wasn't exactly what i wanted at that moment. and that bb is such a good cook and a good partner and i love him to death <3
tbh what i wanted was more sleep LOL. i dragged my ass around for a few more hours, pretty sleep deprived. bb left for work and i dragged my butt to the bank, got out money to pay my boss for my new work shoes [which i decided after several days were acceptable, not the best ever but boy do they ever work on water unlike all the other expensive non slip shoes i've bought!! worth it], went to bojangles [:| i have eaten out every day since wednesday baaaaaddddd stoooopppp] and then dragged my butt back home.
got home and played with the TV because they have this roku box thing on it now that lets you watch netflix and youtube and whatever else on the tv and MAN IT'S NEAT! i made a profile on their netflix account, i... don't think they'll mind lol? just to keep my and bb's stuff separate. we have our own account but it'd be a pain to switch every time. ya know. i'm sure it's ok.
watched some US of Tara and then took a nap because i was fucking flatlining lol. i'm still tired after 2+ hours. but more or less caught up now. sometimes by my Friday, which is today, several consecutive nights of 5-6 hours of sleep catches up with me lol. i'm still young and can handle some lack of sleep but it won't last forever. and that's ok.
remember that bacon cake my roomie made yesterday? the CAKE is good and the maple frosting is ok but yeah the bacon flavored topping is disgusting lolol. but i finished my piece anyway. luckily all four of us seem to agree that it's repulsive so i'm not an asshole :V
speaking of the new shoes, the same thing is happening again that happened around 2011: i'm experiencing some partial numbness on one side of my right big toe. more of my toe is numb this time, it's pretty much the whole thing on the outer side of it [left side] from the knuckle to the nail tip. i'm assuming it's my new shoes that are doing this unfortunately. the last time i had this happen it was because of my new boots and/or work shoes at the time. but it did go away, slowly. so i'm not too worried about it. my feet are just wonky and sometimes they're gonna act weird. as long as i'm not in a load of pain and can walk fine i'm ok.
things that are happening in headspace lately: strong sudden flashes back to particular moments in the past. places we used to live or go to, people we used to know. strong yearning to go back to that. it happens pretty often and i think it's a Core thing, and it's all alright. the thing about past places is that we have bubblespaces for them, replicas of a lot of old places that were important to us. like old homes [carefully rebuilt in some places to avoid trauma triggers, like the kitchen in the old house], places in nature, schools etc. that Cores can go to, and i think we can invite others but no other way can they go in. so. yeah. i need to access those some more.
gonna post this and listen to that song that Bird gave me yesterday and get ready and go i reckon. long night ahead but even though it's Monday aka one of the slowest nights of the week, the manager who's working is fucking magic and makes the time pass so fast without being a total slave driver. amaaazeee. and then i can go the fuck HOME and begin my WEEKEND hell YEH.
tbh what i wanted was more sleep LOL. i dragged my ass around for a few more hours, pretty sleep deprived. bb left for work and i dragged my butt to the bank, got out money to pay my boss for my new work shoes [which i decided after several days were acceptable, not the best ever but boy do they ever work on water unlike all the other expensive non slip shoes i've bought!! worth it], went to bojangles [:| i have eaten out every day since wednesday baaaaaddddd stoooopppp] and then dragged my butt back home.
got home and played with the TV because they have this roku box thing on it now that lets you watch netflix and youtube and whatever else on the tv and MAN IT'S NEAT! i made a profile on their netflix account, i... don't think they'll mind lol? just to keep my and bb's stuff separate. we have our own account but it'd be a pain to switch every time. ya know. i'm sure it's ok.
watched some US of Tara and then took a nap because i was fucking flatlining lol. i'm still tired after 2+ hours. but more or less caught up now. sometimes by my Friday, which is today, several consecutive nights of 5-6 hours of sleep catches up with me lol. i'm still young and can handle some lack of sleep but it won't last forever. and that's ok.
remember that bacon cake my roomie made yesterday? the CAKE is good and the maple frosting is ok but yeah the bacon flavored topping is disgusting lolol. but i finished my piece anyway. luckily all four of us seem to agree that it's repulsive so i'm not an asshole :V
speaking of the new shoes, the same thing is happening again that happened around 2011: i'm experiencing some partial numbness on one side of my right big toe. more of my toe is numb this time, it's pretty much the whole thing on the outer side of it [left side] from the knuckle to the nail tip. i'm assuming it's my new shoes that are doing this unfortunately. the last time i had this happen it was because of my new boots and/or work shoes at the time. but it did go away, slowly. so i'm not too worried about it. my feet are just wonky and sometimes they're gonna act weird. as long as i'm not in a load of pain and can walk fine i'm ok.
things that are happening in headspace lately: strong sudden flashes back to particular moments in the past. places we used to live or go to, people we used to know. strong yearning to go back to that. it happens pretty often and i think it's a Core thing, and it's all alright. the thing about past places is that we have bubblespaces for them, replicas of a lot of old places that were important to us. like old homes [carefully rebuilt in some places to avoid trauma triggers, like the kitchen in the old house], places in nature, schools etc. that Cores can go to, and i think we can invite others but no other way can they go in. so. yeah. i need to access those some more.
gonna post this and listen to that song that Bird gave me yesterday and get ready and go i reckon. long night ahead but even though it's Monday aka one of the slowest nights of the week, the manager who's working is fucking magic and makes the time pass so fast without being a total slave driver. amaaazeee. and then i can go the fuck HOME and begin my WEEKEND hell YEH.
