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ICE AND SHIT IS HERE YAY >:| and we drove up to grand asia market and on the way home my car stalled while rolling. whyyyy this. [car stalls are one of those things that gives me HUGE HUGE HUGE ANXIETY for no reeeal reason. but yeah my heart was hammering for like 15 minutes after that] it started up fine and didn't try to stall again, but it sounded unhappy to me the whole ride home idk. i think bb is going to drive me and pick me up tonight BUT LOL he blew a tire last night and is driving on a spare. more >:|. it's a real tire and not a donut or i wouldn't have even asked him. but also my tires are Bald As Hell. we both need tire money -^- if only i wasn't needing my tax refund for moving expenses, i'd buy at least two tires with it.

my manager was like 'you should come in at 7 to miss the weather!' and uhhh. three hours early? no thank u. especially knowing how slow it's gonna be tonight. i'm good. i'll risk it since 90% of the road is going to be salted and therefore almost certainly fine. i am not going out in this shit for almost 11 hours no thx. besides i already have to get HOME in it anyway and that's the worst part.

the idea of a Broken Arrows tattoo is still bouncing around in my head. i have a few ideas, but i'm liking the crossed arrow halves, making an x-shape. i just did a practice one on my forearm but actually i am kinda thinking outer ankle. it'll be quick and simple and probably pretty cheap. that should be my next tattoo. been itching for something for a while now. can't believe it's been over 5 years since my last one???? nearly 6???

my room is SO WARM and it's so nice after being out there in that sludgy shit. bleeehhh the weather is garbage. and Bird is out there in the desert right now and it's so warm there like, breaking high temperature records and her hawk is molting levels of warmth. what the hell man. meanwhile i'm just glad i'm off tomorrow to maybe give the weather a chance to get its shit together. the forecast so far is saying that it's gonna be relatively chill, just cold... while i'm off work. >:| but then this weekend it might ice again or even snow. ughhh stahp.

uhh what else. Shearwater continues to blow my mind and never leave my ears. continues to be relevant and important at all times. i'm actually trying to not listen to it as much as i feel compelled to because it's fucking beautiful music and if i burn myself out on it it will be A Crime.

ya i guess that's it. will update tomorrow assuming i don't die of ice :v so ready for winter to be done ok. i am and always will be a summer person.

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LOL WELLP.... work didn't happen. went out there and it was like we had been gently pissed upon by a Bewilderbeast. everything was coated in half an inch of ice. shit. probably shoulda listened when they said come in early -_- so i had to call out and it felt awful because i really respect that manager and her disappointment cuts like a knife. god i hate letting people down. but like then i was told about 10-30 car pileups around town and just... nope. and those are on the roads that ARE salted. nevermind these back country areas.

so. yeah. i might get a write up but hopefully nothing worse than my massive guilt.

gonna distract myself by making lists.

THINGS THAT FEEL SACRED AND NOT TOTALLY SURE WHY:

- copper and copper alloys i.e. brass, other metals like iron to some extent
- bells, of all kinds. and the sounds they make
- wax and wax seals [which are often brass]



things we need to get done for the move [because i found out the room can be available by the 1st! so we need to get going!]
- petsmart to get stuff for Murphy including: food, dishes, litter box, litter, scoop, softpaws, possibly some new toys although we have some
- places to visit: coyote hollow, the dam again, bus stop soda shop, the library
- visit heather and beth and others
- car: get a diagnostic done. possibly flush out the fuel system or transmission etc. and/or new battery, tire balance etc. whatever will ease the move and keep me going strong until i find a new mechanic.