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So my gamecube is refusing to read Wind Waker, I guess I'll try again later. I'm almost positive it's my system and not the disc, since it sometimes stops reading or fails to read discs anyway. [I think the motor must be about dead. Gonna ask save point if they can replace that kinda thing, since they mentioned they could replace the speakers in my old GBC.]
Pokemon channel is.... not super great? >_> i didn't play around very much but it seemed like I was stuck at the beginning just watching these [QUITE SHITTY] pretend tv shows with pikachu and couldn't really do anything else. It's supposed to be along the same lines as Hey You Pikachu, a game which gets pretty low reviews, but personally I remember that one being substantially more fun and interesting than this one. They're both aimed at much smaller kids than the typical Pokemon game, but I rarely feel bored and disinterested like that when playing something pkmn related. Sadness. But I gotta have all pokemon games released for every console I have, so it's ok, I'm still glad to have it. :>

What else is going on? Christmas party at my work tomorrow, I'm actually planning on being there during the day... I get paid tomorrow so I'm gonna go do xmas shopping and probably then go out from there to my work, because I have to bring a present for my secret santa. Gotta turn in the service tickets they handed out to people all autumn, get a quarter for each one. I have enough saved up for almost a free hour's pay, lol. Too bad I don't quite have $10 worth, then I could just get a roll of quarters.

Work last night was harrrddd. For like the third week in a row they sprung two extra hours on me, so I worked two ten hour shifts in two days. Gonna just start expecting to be stuck there until 6 on both Sunday and Monday mornings now. As much as that sucks. Also, I requested off for Solstice over a month ago [since they changed the rule to where you have to ask off an entire month in advance] and didn't get it off. What is the point of making us ask off a month in advance if we don't even get the day off??? So I asked my boss and she just said "oh, I lost the schedule book so I don't know what anyone asked off" like... really? So you were just going to not worry about everyone's requests off for the rest of the year then?? Ugh. So now I have to try and switch with someone like it's a last minute thing and not a religious holiday that I asked off for a month ago. I guess I should have mentioned it was a religious thing, then I wouldn't have had to deal with this, but it's a bit too late now. I guess it's a good thing I didn't make any Solstice plans like I was wanting to actually do this year. -^-

Interesting stuff happened last night too. A lot of police activity at work in the span of like one hour. Second shift manager finally left at like 1, but... his ride got arrested for getting high in the parking lot, then HE got in trouble for an unpaid speeding ticket and got his license taken away... and THEN we had to bring the cops inside because of someone sleeping in the lobby all night and refusing to leave when asked. And THEN we almost had to bring them OUTSIDE because that group of dumb guys came through who I guess occasionally get a wild hair and decide to harass drive thrus, not actually order any food just do stupid shit and yell into our speakers. I was this close to interrupting my manager talking to them and be like "Y'ALL KNOW WE HAVE COPS IN THE BUILDING RIGHT NOW." But I didn't and they drove off. I regret it, because they'll probably be back and there most likely won't be handy cops nearby this time.

I saw Arty rooting around in his water dish so I replaced it with fresh water, and he took a bath! ;w; He almost never does that, you have to find him in just the right mood and put water in a plate for him in order for him to bathe usually. It was so cute and his feathers are still wet. ;w;

Last night during the rougher parts, found myself chanting the rose has teeth in the mouth of a beast under my breath. It's from a song by Matmos, but it's redolent with meaning for me, though I don't quite understand what that meaning is. I'm working on a sigil for it, since that seems to be what my hands find themselves doing when idle nowadays.

Glad for a day off. Gonna keep working on this notebook. It's already turning out well.

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Oh! Things! Things.

I almost forgot to write about something that occurred to me on the drive to work. Since Trolley [I think it was her?] gave me the revelation about Worlds in headspace and how it all works [the imagery of black void space with bright blue and green World spheres floating between, independent but interconnected], it's radically changed my understanding of headspace and my connection to it. Now it makes sense why it's hard for me to get in contact with some people more than others: they reside in different spheres than me. [I need a good term for that besides worlds/spheres/planes. We'll find one.]

There are a ton of people that make the roll call list simply because I know they are there, I can reach out and sense their presence or lack thereof, their general vibe, but there's no link there. I can't talk to them, I can't hear them respond. They aren't aware of me. I can just 'touch' them and know they are there to be counted. Because I have no link established to them, and I don't know which world/sphere/etc they are in. That's why. Suddenly makes such sense. And it also explains why two of the biggest co-fronters of a previous era, Kyo and Kris, are so hard to find now that I barely ever hear from either of them. They reside in a different sphere than I do. Neodymium, the City of Night, is its own sphere. And I'm pretty sure that Kris has relocated to there, I kept getting glimpses of him in the city but somehow couldn't get into the city. Because although I know about Neodymium and its existence, I haven't established a link yet. I still feel him a little more strongly than, say, Gianna for example - someone I know of and have for a while but never personally encountered - because he was so close for so long, and he might even be an Order member, I'm not sure. I'm still not sure how becoming or being an Order member works, whether it's something you ask for or just a state of being, I don't know yet. I haven't paid nearly enough attention to headspace things. [he said, stating the painfully obvious.]