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thebrokenarrowscomputer randomly crashed and restarted itself out of nowhere. it has done that a few times since I got it. who knows.
right now eating some sweet potatoes and mac and cheese and sausages. yes good. just had a skype call with Dale for about an hour, it's always good to talk to him. crazy thinking how many hundreds of hours we must have spent together on the phone over the course of like 2005-2007.
speaking of those years, been doing a lot of reading of old LJ archives, of my old accounts that are long purged and gone from the internet. i'm really glad to have them in private offline form as an archive, because i'd be mortified if anyone read them nowadays LOL. also that was when i didn't know to keep personal information off the internet :v
and actually i think we are finally starting to piece together what the 'missing link' would look like. the one who fronted from around 2008-2010. i didn't think about a lot of this stuff before but the big leather jacket is definitely theirs. we don't wear it much anymore, and not for lack of comfort, because i love that damn thing, but i guess because it's an anchor for a person who isn't here.
i don't know if they're demanifested, or just hidden or somewhere that i can't locate them. it's fully unknown. but some things i can now sense:
- they were... very opinionated and rather judgmental of people. and actually i can kinda sense their thoughts about this in us today, which is why i believe they hadn't demanifested.
- very unsettled and unsatisfied with themselves because they were more aware of their actual gender and sexuality [e.g. very similar to mine today], but lacked the terminology or right thought patterns... basically just no resources at that time
- quite anti Abrahamic religion. anti a lot of things really. kinda mad at the world. very very atheist almost in that smug internet atheist kinda "all religion is farce and all believers are idiots!!!" way. might be part of why they're scarce around here. this is a pretty spiritual atmosphere.
this is of course just a description of what they were like when fronting... no one knows what they will be like if/when they decide to return. the leather jacket anchor makes a TON of sense though and i can definitely see that helping.
... i am getting like three magazine subscriptions that i didn't buy. wtf???? one of them is a tabloid???? and now bb has me all nervous like what if someone used my bank account info somehow to do this??? surely i would have noticed the billing though. and i don't see it anywhere in my bank account history.... what the hell
right now eating some sweet potatoes and mac and cheese and sausages. yes good. just had a skype call with Dale for about an hour, it's always good to talk to him. crazy thinking how many hundreds of hours we must have spent together on the phone over the course of like 2005-2007.
speaking of those years, been doing a lot of reading of old LJ archives, of my old accounts that are long purged and gone from the internet. i'm really glad to have them in private offline form as an archive, because i'd be mortified if anyone read them nowadays LOL. also that was when i didn't know to keep personal information off the internet :v
and actually i think we are finally starting to piece together what the 'missing link' would look like. the one who fronted from around 2008-2010. i didn't think about a lot of this stuff before but the big leather jacket is definitely theirs. we don't wear it much anymore, and not for lack of comfort, because i love that damn thing, but i guess because it's an anchor for a person who isn't here.
i don't know if they're demanifested, or just hidden or somewhere that i can't locate them. it's fully unknown. but some things i can now sense:
- they were... very opinionated and rather judgmental of people. and actually i can kinda sense their thoughts about this in us today, which is why i believe they hadn't demanifested.
- very unsettled and unsatisfied with themselves because they were more aware of their actual gender and sexuality [e.g. very similar to mine today], but lacked the terminology or right thought patterns... basically just no resources at that time
- quite anti Abrahamic religion. anti a lot of things really. kinda mad at the world. very very atheist almost in that smug internet atheist kinda "all religion is farce and all believers are idiots!!!" way. might be part of why they're scarce around here. this is a pretty spiritual atmosphere.
this is of course just a description of what they were like when fronting... no one knows what they will be like if/when they decide to return. the leather jacket anchor makes a TON of sense though and i can definitely see that helping.
... i am getting like three magazine subscriptions that i didn't buy. wtf???? one of them is a tabloid???? and now bb has me all nervous like what if someone used my bank account info somehow to do this??? surely i would have noticed the billing though. and i don't see it anywhere in my bank account history.... what the hell
