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thebrokenarrowsIDK woke up and House of Leaves' Hiccup was there texting us which was unusual so like :o and for a few hours tried really hard to get our Hiccup to front properly with... i guess some success? Better than none? watched part of his source and then went to the park and driving helps him more than most things, but silly me, sitting around in nature isn't his thing as much as it is mine. idk. i don't wanna think about it anymore because it's got me feeling rly weird eh
so the park was nice but too many PEOPLE. go away. i just wanna be alone in nature but here in the city that isn't really possible most of the time. and today that kinda got under my skin. bleh. bird was out in the middle of nowhere looking at cave art and shit, no one for fucking miles or at least the people who were out there prob wouldn't bother you. and i was nestled in the roots of a big tree with frisbees going over my head.
ehh. idk. feel weird about everything. one of those days where i feel kinda aimless and everything bugs me. played some more tetris 2 and it was nice but i still just feel weird. "idk" is just like my main emotion right now. except that typical depressive "oh god only X number of hours left until work" feeling. that i used to get every single day and now is just sometimes. thank goodness.
WHAT DO I EVEN WANNA DO nothing. and yet lots of things. but nothing also. my roommates made a cake with like... bacon flavored topping and that sounds disgusting but i'm totally gonna try it.
so the park was nice but too many PEOPLE. go away. i just wanna be alone in nature but here in the city that isn't really possible most of the time. and today that kinda got under my skin. bleh. bird was out in the middle of nowhere looking at cave art and shit, no one for fucking miles or at least the people who were out there prob wouldn't bother you. and i was nestled in the roots of a big tree with frisbees going over my head.
ehh. idk. feel weird about everything. one of those days where i feel kinda aimless and everything bugs me. played some more tetris 2 and it was nice but i still just feel weird. "idk" is just like my main emotion right now. except that typical depressive "oh god only X number of hours left until work" feeling. that i used to get every single day and now is just sometimes. thank goodness.
WHAT DO I EVEN WANNA DO nothing. and yet lots of things. but nothing also. my roommates made a cake with like... bacon flavored topping and that sounds disgusting but i'm totally gonna try it.
